A slightly nicer me now...

I walked into the office to the loud CRACK and high whining BUZZZZing  sound of jack hammers, some form drill and sledge hammers. Oh the fucking joys!!So I unpacked my stuff, put my lunch in the frig and headed to the back conference room where the sound is at least somewhat lessened. And plugged in my headphones and turned up the volume. Love listening to P!nk.  Because, she's the bestest for a cranky white witch chic in a mood for love and pain types of music. I think I have all of her albums and to be honest, she has been my favorite for the last several years. My husband said that she sounds like an Angry White Woman in this particular CD, but this is P!nk. For me at least, she shoots straight to the heart of matters. The good, the bad, the ugly and the fun.

So I'm sitting here, switching between work, talking to a coworker (which I don't normally do because we all sit somewhat isolated), writing a book review, blogging some frustrations, writing this blog post and seeing if my phone has signal. Oh and chugging coffee. Coffee = sanity.

I think I must have jinx'd myself yesterday when I said I was going to bed early. Because I did NOT go to bed early, in fact, it was past when I normally pass out. I-am-fucking-tired. I am in the mood to not care about anything, people can just go fuck themselves, because I need a fucking nap. Today is a Fuck Day it seems. Wah. I'm in a snit, I know. I just don't care right now. Fuck it all. Fuck. No jinxing today's bed time. Not doing it - nope.

Oh, so here's a vent.

If you're an adult - act like it. I have friends/family/whatever you want to call the people you care and love about (and no Husband, it's not ALL about you), that I wish would act like an adult. Seriously. And we all know or have someone like that in our life. That person (or persons) that just don't ever get over the high school drama. DRAMA is for theatre, not work. Not relationships. I hear it on the radio, on the news and basically anywhere. WTF is wrong with people?? I get it that you don't like xx political views, or xx laws, or xx life choices. We ALL have opinions about shit. But, act like a fucking adult - show some maturity - and there is no harm in being respectful about it. Get a job, take responsibility for your actions, think ahead, and don't expect other people to pick up your shit. I love my friends/family/whatever, a lot, so it makes that much more frustrating when a person doesn't focus. And yes, I KNOW that not everything is within their control - I'm not saying that sometimes life doesn't sucker punch you because I know it can and does - what I am saying is that I just fucking wished people would think and make more astute choices.

Ok, will try to end the vent there...

And in other news...well shit. I'm thinking and nothings coming. I finished a book last night? Not quite sure if that is news worthy. I am clueless still about XML? Not news worthy. My laptop space bar squeaks which I am sure is annoying my coworkers - ahem but I don't really care about that right now. Hmmm, what else. I need more coffee, probably doesn't count.

I am trying to catch up on reading some blogs and I'm working on doing those book reviews I mentioned the other day. My left nipple itches - which I hate because it's sorta hard to scratch that itch at work. I think my allergies are all irritated - with the lovely asbestos dust that is covering most all surfaces at work. You know, I hate allergies and I didn't get them until I was an adult. How fucked up is that?!? Stupid fucking allergies.

Life is still in a quandary. Which is annoying. Really annoying. So annoying I want to take that quandary and introduce it to someone I don't like and laugh evilly as said quandary torments them. Because this quandary really sucks. Can I just skip the next several months and jump to a point in my life where things are better, people are happy and the future looks want-able?? Is that too much to ask for? Ugh, I just want things to be good. Why can't things be good?? I am getting so tired of ...of...well how to phrase this - hmmm - I am tired of always being on guard or always having to be strong. Whether at the job or home or where ever - because I am tired. Maybe it's the lack of sleep that's fucking with me today. Funk Mood. I just need a break, some time to breath and not want to hurt people. Where the fuck is Utopia??

Well I suppose I should get cracking on these things, work; book reviews; not hurting people.