So with all the Life Changer stuff going on, us growing more together and trying to make our relationship better...passwords are a-changin'. Which I'm not quite sure is the right thing to be doing. But there are still trust issues and if that makes him feel better, than I can go along with that and match it.
Changing passwords and not letting me see things just makes me think - well that there are things that are hidden and not wanted me to see. Which, of course, makes me wonder thoughts.
Deep Thoughts by Jack Handy
Trust is a very hard thing. I broke part of that trust by reading his emails in the first place. He broke that trust by what was written in those emails and intentions. It's kinda a fucked up situation.
But everyone wants privacy right? Even in a marriage/relationship. So, where is the line between privacy adn trust? I was reading some others thoughts on this on different forums and whatnot and to be honest, it's hard to take in so many different opinions and not just want to walk away and say forget it.
We ended up having a somewhat long discussion regarding this, the feelings, why's and whatnots. He said he's going to change his PC password back to what it was and I said I won't go and change all my passwords in response. We talked about the phone passwords, but those aren't changing yet and we still aren't sharing those with the other either.
I didn't even realize he had changed his PC password again until he told me when we were talking about this. I haven't been on his computer since my 1st therapy session.
It's hard though, this not knowing and wondering. Something for me to work on.