Happy Pain

 You ever wake up, and know that before you do anything, Advil is going to be needed? 

Yep, that was me today! Before taking a shower, 2 Advil with water was definitely in order! I ache and have pains in all kinds of places!

But, it's happy pain really - because I am cleaning and packing and prepping.

Closing in on the holiday season

 I am trying to figure out how I feel about things. Which is not always easy, because life is never this x = 1, y = 2 and you don't know what each of those things represent half the time.

Right now for instance, I have a headache, probably from the weather and lack of caffeine or it could also have the 6 minutes of deep sleep I got last night. Not sure how I feel about my Fitbit telling me I had 6 MINUTES of deep sleep. I think I've been clenching my teeth again too. So I feel tired today, not motivated and my head hurts.

My hip hurts too, probably because I was tossing and turning last night. I am looking forward to my chiropractic appointment after work today! And I think tonight is a good night to go to bed early.

Also, Samhain is almost here and I want to put up Xmas decorations. How does that even work? This year has been one big cluster fuck and while I would normally feel that next year will be better, until Covid-19 is dealt with, I think it's going to be much of the same.

But the rest of this year, it's all about decluttering, figuring out future plans and making headway on cleaning/updating the house.

And, wait, there's more! The holiday season is ramping up. Thanksgiving and Yule and Christmas and New Years, oh my! I am glad I am taking off the last 2 weeks of the year for vacation, because that will be about cleaning/painting and preparing. Though I just realized as I typed that, that the tree will be out and that's gonna be interesting to paint around !

The holidays are going to be so different this year, in part due to Covid-19 but mostly because my kid is not here. Not sure if he will be at his FDS at that point or not, but travel is restricted. I freaking miss him. I am thankful he's doing good though.

My niece bought her own place, she's mostly moved in there now with just a few small items that will be picked up soon. My house is feeling very empty. And seriously fucking quiet, my gods, the silence is sometimes deafening and I start chatting with my cats to just have something going on! I am happy for her, because owning your own place is a blessing (and a curse), but I miss her too. Thankfully she lives like a mile away, so I get to see her easily enough, it's just different when someone doesn't live in the same house anymore. I'm happy for her, she really needed more space and so do her cats <3

So many changes in the last year, so many more to come. It's kinda wild!

Ok...so it wasn't the tooth per se...

It seems that in all that stressing leading up to court and then dealing with the body reactions after court, I have been grinding my teeth something awful. Excruciating awful. Excruciating is my new fave word.

I have a bottom mouth guard. It's sorta neat, in a painful way.

Dentist has me on muscle relaxers, Cyclobenzaprine. So far, it hasn't really helped. I'm taking the generic of Aleve to deal with the pain because I didn't want stronger meds. Because I am weird. At this moment however, I am really wish I got the stronger meds.

I slept maybe 2 hours and woke up. In pain.

The dentist said he knows its grinding because my bottom teeth can all move (and they are not supposed to) and the reason for my stronger sensitivity and pain on my upper teeth - well I have a root canal there and the seal/crown that was done is one of those awesome ones that don't shatter if you grind. You, however, grind to shit the poor teeth around them and then get slightly smaller and it makes it hit harder on the tooth below.

Ugh. Seriously, at this point maybe I should look into dentistry for my next lifetime or something. I am learning way too much about it through personal experience.

I am not exactly thrilled with this dentist. I don't think that once this issue is resolved or at least on the mend, that I am going to go back.

If I sit up, I'm in not as much pain. So...I will be in some pretty interesting sleeping positions this week.

Oh and he said to give it 3 days (ahem, 3 fucking pain drenched days) to see if things are working and blah blah blah.

Here's hoping that I get better, less grinding, sleep tonight!!

And at least I'm not eating as much. Let's hope that turns into weight loss that I can sustain!!

Focus on the positive :)

Monday Madness = Body Sore and multiple various things

Friday night was sorta rough. I attempted to move the kids room into an ordered chaos (ie, everything away from the walls with enough room to paint them) and also attempted to put painters tape around things like windows or doors. Yeah, that was somewhat successful. All the while half way drunk on JD Honey Whiskey (yum!) because it was Friday night and damn it, I wanted a drink.

Saturday, I got up late Saturday morning (see JD Honey Whiskey above), did the cat litter, dishes and took a shower. Then, prepped for painting. Got my music going and got to work. It was about 1 pm when I finally get cracking.

Ceiling was first. I'm surprised I don't have a kink in my neck from looking up. I just did 1 coat on the ceiling, since it's a dark color.

This first picture shows you the ceiling grey with the old blue walls (bright blue, that is). There was still good natural light coming in at this point. The paint is still sorta wet though in this shot.

That took about 1.5 hours. I stopped for a brief lunch, standing - because I had paint on my clothes and didn't want to sit on anything - and had a short phone conversation and then it was back to work.

EDIT: Removed broken pics/links

By the time I was done with the walls, it was dark out - which is why this picture isn't as bright. I ended up having to do 2 coats on the walls, since that color is a nice light grey - the bright blue was showing through making them look dirty. So, another short break to drink something and shove some kind of edible food into my mouth, then the 2nd coat was applied. I will say that on the last 3 little walls (I really really didn't want to finish Saturday, but I did! I have plans for Sunday and didn't want to change those) I just make it a thicker 1 coat - mainly because 1: I was running out of paint and 2: I was fucking tired. FUCKING TIRED.

It's not perfect, but it doesn't NEED to be. It will eventually get painted again - AND - if the kid/I want, I have enough paint for some (read: very very minor ones) touch ups.

I had to move furniture, more than once. I did a lot of stairs, bending, on my tippy toes for a good portion and crouching down to get the bottom of the walls.

At the end, I texted the picture to the kid, took another shower, attempted to get what paint out of things that I could, and plopped myself down on my couch. I was too tired to cook and too tired to actually put on more than panties and a tee-shirt to answer the door if I had bothered to order food in. It was close to 8 pm when the room was done and before I started the clean up process. It was about 9 pm when I sat down. It was about 10:30 pm when I finally said fuck it and took my tired ass up the stairs. Only to have to come down (and yes, back up) them 3 times after that because the fucking caterwauling cat Puck would not shut the hell up. I finally gave up and slept on the couch. It was past 3 am at this point. Seriously.

Sunday, I was up at 8:52 am. Hello sunshine, bite me. Fed the cats, did the dishes, the cat litter and made myself 2 eggs. And coffee. Coffee is my bestest of best friends. Coffee Rules.

Then I took a shower and got ready. Then realized I had more time than I thought, and cleaned some more, ie: sweeping - that never ending bitch that drives me. I hope I am burning calories with this shit. Organized some of CD's (read: moved them to the media case and shoved them into a slot) and did some of my finances. Stupid medical bills - they SUCK.

Anyways, then I was out all afternoon and early evening. I'm about 10 minutes from the house when my Kid calls me and tells me he took a dive down the stairs. It seems that they didn't like him or his socks for some reason and tossed him down. He was not happy. I was not happy. He's fine, nothing broken, bleeding or bruised (that I could see). His pads of his feet hurt but that calmed down as the night wore on. I'm hoping it's a growth spurt and not my clutz genetics at work here. This morning, he was 100% normal. Heart Attack for Mom - 1.

Busy ass weekend. Wonderful and awesome in many many ways. Accidental stair case maneuvers, notwithstanding.

Today, however. My body fucking ACHES. My knees - OH MY FUCKING GODS my knees HATE me and want me to keel over and die! Thankfully my arm that was hurting so bad Saturday night is movable again. But my hips and knees? They hate my sorry ass! I have been taking advil or aleve since Saturday night and they just scream bloody murder at me. And what do I do? Ignore it. Granted, today it seems to be worse. Today, it feels like someone is driving needles under my knee caps. That's a joyous feeling let me tell you.

I need to start doing yoga again. Seriously. Because this shit is NOT cool. Not cool AT ALL.

So, I am going to go walk around this lovely new storage building and figure out racks and shit and pretend that pain is my friend. A really unwanted, annoying friend - but there you go.

Incredible Weekend And Wow-ness and Yikes

Ok, so Saturday at the Renaissance Festival = Incredible.

We got to see soooo much. I really wish we had a 2nd day to go!! So much to look at it and take in! It was overwhelming!! Plus, I got to hear one of my favorite groups live = WOW. It was only a 30 minute show, but it was awesomeness to the Nth degree. I got their new CD as well (and no I didn't get it signed, I didn't want stand in line again and it's not that important to me, the music is). The kids had tons of fun. I think we should have left an hour earlier, they were all exhausted and a little bit cranky by the time we got to the car. It was still amazingly awesome though! I was at first thinking of looking for a new dress/skirts and bodice, but honestly, I just had way too much fun looking at everything!! Next time :) I ate a ton of food, my favorite being this apple/ice cream dessert that was way yummy. The Italian sausage was good too though. The Brat got a turkey leg - now this thing had some kind of bladder full of grease, because it looked like it was pissing the whole time he ate it. Very very funny. He was only a little bit of a brat while there. Much better than he was a few years back. He got a tail, which he loves. Lots of stones, a necklace and I don't remember what else.

I got an awesome little statue and another pot of this yummy smelling body oil/solid. Yay!!

If definitely made me want to schedule any trips I take to Florida or Southern California in the future, to coordinate the times with the local Renaissance Fairs. Or maybe see what other fairs are local, or at least within driving distance. That might be a neat thing to do for road trips in the future. Will see!

I got my hair cut yesterday. Ummm, suffice it to say I will be wearing a hat until it grows out some. I look like a butch lesbian, which isn't a bad thing I guess, if I was one. But I'm not. So....yes, hats will be my style for the next little while. I might go ahead and Henna dye it in the mean time. Not sure if that will help or make it worse though. Gods, it's almost funny if you think about it.

Went to my cousins, promptly tripped and re-injured my ankle/foot. See, it takes talent to do that. I think my ankle got weakened from all the walking on Saturday. We won't blame it on my overall clutz like abilities. We hung and talked for a little while, then I limped my way to my car and headed home.

Home, well, got there and had just a shit load of things to do and my brain sorta shut down on me. Suffice it to say I did get one load of laundry done and that was about it. I did keep off my ankle, so that's good at least. Hopefully tonight I can get my office done (that is going to be my focus at least) and just pray that I get it organized so that I don't want to scream at it.

Tonight, I have to go to PetsMart, so maybe I will swing by and get some stuff at home depot as well. More insect killer, that's for sure. More of those evil spiders appeared. These lovely fuckers are now dead - and I really really REALLY don't want anymore of them. I had found another one in the house, hiding on a door handle that goes out the side to where I have the trash. Yikes! I freaked! Killed that one with roach spray. And hey, I didn't even scream!! And I won't mention that one the hung down at eye level as we were trying to leave the house on Friday. OMG, that one freaked me out more...right at eye level. Not what I wanted to see!! Here is one picture of the spider, I have another but it's not wanting to load up for some reason. Will try again later.
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Dental Fun Time & little updates

This morning, I didn't really get sleep in before my dental appointment. But whatever. Still, I was sitting in the dentist chair at about 8:30 am, waiting for the fun times to begin.

I got the impressions/molds done of upper/lower teeth and a temporary crown put on. Oh and my gums had to be cauterized a little bit. OW OW OW. I just took a couple Advil since the numbness is starting to wear off.

Speaking of numbness, it's a strange sensation to have your eyeball go numb. So 1/2 of my mouth, nose, cheek and 1 eyeball got that lovely feeling going on. And now that it's start to wean off, my teeth are aching in that itchy sorta way! I hate it when my gums/teeth feel itchy. I don't know quite how to explain it though.

I am attempting to slurp coffee without drooling. It's not easy. Sometimes it's all about getting a good seal and just chugging it. I need me some caffeine though.

Lunch will be a late thing today, since work is having some 10 year party type of thing. At least I am pretty sure there will be food.

So, I think I am going to quit smoking soon. This whole week they've just tasted nasty. I don't know if it's because I am just happier now or me losing weight or what, but it's a good thing. I am going to finish out this week and then just keep a pack in reserve for any of those super stressful moments. Moments where the punching bag doesn't do enough that is.

I am also really excited about Saturday :D I can't wait to go to the Renaissance Festival, take in the sights, smells and delicious food! Have fun with the kids and enjoy the shows.

My foot/ankle is doing better. I still have it in the air splint and wrap. I will have to take the air splint off tomorrow because I just have too much at work going on that needs me fully functioning. Will keep the wrap on though. This will mean I will have to try to rest it as much as possible once I'm home. TRY being the operative word here.