1.21.2021

Excited and Nervous

 So. This weekend is going to be it. It's going to be energy drinks, Advil and whatever is needed to get through it and get shit done.

The house needs to be finished - and this means cleaning everything I haven't cleaned. It means carpet cleaning upstairs. It means painting the last 2 rooms after they are patched. Oy.

It means the yard needs to be cleaned up and all the trash taken away.

That is the nervous part, being done and ready enough. 

Then, then my house, my home - will be listed for sale.

It's kinda mind boggling in one sense. I've lived here almost 8 years, a lot of memories are from here. With Raven, with my love, with my niece and others. I'm not attached, not in the sense that I am re-thinking the decision to move (because, not I am ready to move on) but so many significant things have happened here. And I am thankful for having such a warm house, one that has been filled with loud voices and loud love. Life.

And this weekend doesn't even include the work that needs to fix the porch. Or that cost. Nor does it include fixing the fence. Or that cost/hard work.

Jesus, selling a house is an expensive endeavor. 

BUT, one that I need to do. Which makes me excited. I want to sell, and change living situations. And it will be the first time that I don't have school, a kid, or a house, that needs me. I will have TIME.

Don't get me wrong, I fucking miss my son like no ones fucking business, but he's an adult and figuring his own self out. He is also amazing. I hope I get to see him at some point and hug him and enough spending TIME with him.

I am excited for a LOT of reasons :) But the overall joy is about shifting and moving forward. Forward is good. Forward is not stagnant or paused and I like forward for a lot of different reasons.

After this weekend, it's all about tackling the attic and getting that situated :) Not a horrible thing to get accomplished in the next couple weeks.

I am so lucky. And thankful. And happy. Life is good!

The Drama of My Drivers License Saga

 Part 1:

I had to schedule an appointment, because of Covid-19 and the earliest date was 2 months away.

Ok, did that.

Part 2: Good gods, I needed my divorce paperwork, had it. My marriage certificate - DID NOT HAVE IT. Sent in the request. X wrong answer. All the other info needed, I had = Yay for that.

Rescheduled my appointment

Called directly to the place we had married and requested it.

Waiting.

Rescheduled my appointment again because I didn't want to not have my old certificate.

Part 3: Appointment day.

I'm prepped and ready. Get there, wait only like 20 minutes.

But wait, there's a problem.

ARIZONA says I surrendered my license to them in 2017. What the what?? I've been here since 2009/2010. I have license here. The lady legit said no I don't have a MD license. Bwhahaha, she was HOLDING IT as she said this. 

I have not lived in AZ since 1995. That is literally 25 years ago. 25 mother fucking years and they are holding me up from getting my drivers license renewed. 

I was told I would be charged for an out of state license. I own a fucking house here. I have been here for 11 years. Dude!

So. If I had my OLD AZ license, from 1995, which I have seen ironically seen sometime in the last few years as I've been cleaning out my attic and finding old and sometimes interesting things.

This is just insane, not horribly so, but it's super annoying and frustrating to say the least.

The 1st lady at the local DMV had said I could have renewed my license 6 months before it expired. Ahem, hello - Covid 19 kinda made that difficult. Which is why mine expired in the first place. 

She was nice, but confused because she's telling me that I don't have a MD license, when I do, because of the system is telling her. So we have to fix the system in order for this to move forward. Which means I have to call AZ and get them to send a letter to Glenn Burnie and I'm like...LET ME CHECK FIRST for my old license.

Part 4: I drive back to Frederick, TRAFFIC ISSUES, dash to the apartment and look where I had thought I this thing. NOPE. Fucking hell. Ok. Drive BACK to the house, go to the attic and check the safe. NOPE AGAIN. 

Damn it.

I start to go back to the DMV and side tracked to my nieces because I am storing a lot of stuff with her, like old pics and whatnot and MAYBE I had left it with those.

NOPE. Couldn't even find that box so it may still be up in the attic.

Part 5: I call AZ and left a vm.

Part 6: Wow, I got a call back like in literally 10 minutes. Sad news, the super nice lady was not the one who handles this (no access) but is forwarding my information to her Director and I should have a call back no later than tomorrow afternoon. If I don't have a call, super nice lady asked me to call her again.

So. Good gods, so much driving and talking and I need a drink. 

Part 7 - Coming up next

Happy Pain

 You ever wake up, and know that before you do anything, Advil is going to be needed? 

Yep, that was me today! Before taking a shower, 2 Advil with water was definitely in order! I ache and have pains in all kinds of places!

But, it's happy pain really - because I am cleaning and packing and prepping.