A little bit of everything - Drama - Busy - Life

I haven't been posting a lot. Between work last week, my birthday and sister visiting, it was just too hectic!! Which is good :)

I can say that I do miss my sister. It was so awesome having her here! I really wish I could see her (and my niece and dad of course) more often, as in we lived closer to each other. I know that's not going to happen any time soon, because I don't think they will move to this general area and I know I don't want to live in CA.

Also: Coffee. Sheetz has the best caffeine kick (at least for me). I've had 2 3 cups of coffee from work and I am still sleeping as I type. Whereas, Sheetz gets me wide awake. Hmmm....

So I've started downloading my emails back into outlook, it's been forever since I've done that. Then sorting/deleting (which I need to do more of) and figuring out what I need to keep and what I should let go. I have some really freaking OLD emails. I see that I am a pack rat that way. I think it's time for those emails to go on the way side of things.

Drama last night: The Kid realized we had not seen Tiamet all day. This equaled an immediate freak out at 9 pm, a search of the house, a shake of the treat bags to coax any possible cat from a hiding/sleeping spot. No Tiamet. The Kid called his dad, after I attempted to reassure him that I would call the Humane Society and our vet in the morning to let them know she was missing...My very very good/awesome/amazing friend/bf was over and I guess checked my back yard to see where it was possible she could have gotten out at. Well, he found there was only 1 real spot by my side gate and he checked around front and saw her sitting on the porch!! He came in and told us, so I grabbed the bag of treats and went out front. She had gotten scared and darted under the neighbors porch. But my calling and the bag of treats shaking convinced her to come back inside. I fed her a hand full of them, then promptly gave her a bath. Because, yeah, no idea where she had gone. I don't think she has fleas, didn't see any on her. So, after a bath (btw, she was originally freaked out, but calmed down as it went on...and she really likes to be dried off!), she had food, water and lots of love. The Kid called his Dad and let him know and then went to bed. Diego is not at all happy with her smell and is growling/hissing at her and anything/one that walks by him. Good times...

I have also found out who the culprit is that has been pissing on my bath mat/towel/anything on the floor in front of the tub. Puck. He did it right in front of me. I am wondering if his caterwauling at night is because he CAN'T get into the bathroom to do his evil pissing. Now, I know that once a cat finds a spot, that is not always the easiest to get them to stop. So I will be bleaching that spot and then taking both him and Tiamet to the vet, since she had her little escape episode last night. Oh the joys!!

 The Kid has after school band practice this week and next week. Which means I will need to work some extra hours in order to leave early for those days. His first football game is coming up soon too, oh and 2 parades! Yikes! Busy kid this month!!

Also: I would like one of those Elusive Naps please. See, they even now get their own Capital Letters!!

It was awesome seeing my sister :) I know I already wrote that I miss her, but you know, sometimes just SEEING someone face-to-face, makes such a world of difference!!

I have my cruise coming up in just over a month. OMG, I have no real idea of what I'm wearing either. I need to go shopping...

And now working on cup of coffee # 4...

Back to shopping, I need some shorts. And maybe 1-3 tops for traipsing across foreign lands. And possibly some shoes for this as well. As for the more dressy gowns, I have a couple of those. One I need to try on and see if it still fits well though. It's one of those body hugger ones and shows off my back. Oh I wonder if I can get some pics and will post them :)

As I wrote before, I splatted my phone. I was originally expecting my new phone to come in by Thursday but Amazon notified me that it will be Tuesday. Hurray! See, at the AT&T store, the phone I liked was $99.99 plus all the associated fees. On Amazon, it was $19.99 (plus all the associated fees) - so yes, I will save $80 thank you very much. I will run another back up on my phone Tuesday, and download all the pictures off of it. Then start that fun fun fun process of getting my new phone up to warp speed. This sucker has a 13 mp camera! WOOT. It's bigger than my current phone, but really light. I am hoping my new(praying) indestructible case I bought to put on it doesn't add too much weight.

I think one of the reasons I have the dropsies right now (oh did I mention I dropped my coffee this morning? Not all of it, but hello!) is because I haven't been reading as much. Today, at lunch, I will - I WILL - read. Oh snap, that might be kinda hard WITHOUT A BOOK TO READ!! So, ummm, yeah scratch today off that option!! Ok, so tomorrow night. Tonight, I have to organize some shit from my dining room table and office desk at home. Because, yeah, that shit is a little bit (read: WAY) disheveled.

Ok, time to actually eat something (left overs from dinner the other night) and maybe read the news.

A few days worth of updates - Court - Crown - Bday

So - hmmm - where to start. Let's see, Wednesday I had to take my kid to Court, because he was a victim (and how I hate that young kids can and do get classified that way) of assault while at school. Yes, I pressed charges - though to be honest, it was all caught on video so *I* didn't really need to do anything as the school Police Officer was able to use that for the formal charges. I did let the VP know that I would if needed though. The kid that attacked him laid in wait - a very predatory action - and beat the crap out of him. Not so badly that there was major bruising or anything broken, but enough to probably scar him for a while (maybe life, he hasn't had that many traumatic things happen to him...so this will probably stand out). It turns out the kid that attacked him had 4 other cases and someone mentioned a total of 18 charges. Holy shit! This kid is only 13!! I mean, DAMN. It's just sad. My kid was most nervous just about seeing him again. We had received a Witness Subpoena to testify but the police officer said he would probably plead guilty and that my kid would not have to say anything. Which is basically what happened. The kid plead guilty to my son's case and a burglary and the other 3 cases were dismissed. It seems that these 2 will do the most damage/time and that this kid will more than likely end up in Juvie until he's 21. 21 years old. Maybe he will get out early, who knows. His lawyer asked for a delayed sentencing, something about his mother wanting him to have access to a land line. His grandmother was also offered as a possible place to stay, I assume that's if he is able to have a home arrest ??? No idea. It was an interesting, to say the least, experience. Not something I think any of us wants a repeat of.

Prior to us even entering the courthouse however, I ate a piece of gum and my temporary crown came out. Joys. I kept it in my pocket and felt very annoyed. A day before my birthday, while at court, is not the best time for dental issues! After court, I called my dentist and explained what happened. Scheduled an appointment for that afternoon. When I got there, I found out my permanent crown was in, so the dentist just did that of course. To say I was a bit nervous might not cover it. You see, several years ago I had a root canal done and the crown was put in right before my birthday. On my birthday I was hanging out with my BFF and noticed my teeth hurting. I got a headache as well. I figured something was in my teeth somewhere and went to floss. While flossing, one of my other teeth, one in the front portion of my mouth, BROKE. Trauma much? Yep. So me getting dental work, just before my birthday, smacks of deja vu. Ugh! Luckily, nothing has happened like that. Yet. I don't exactly have the bestest luck with my teeth.

I ended up taking a nap afterwards and not going to work at all on Wednesday, oppsie. Thursday I had scheduled off already, because of my birthday. You see, I am not all that fond of my birthday. It's basically been fucked up in one way or another so many times that I now just give up on it. I have no idea if that will change, and I know some people would like to see that change, and I am certainly open to things changing, but I just don't know. Yesterday, thankfully, it wasn't a bad birthday. Of course, I did cut my finger and burn my wrist a little bit while cooking, but that's not too bad! I also did 3 loads of laundry, cleaned, swept and just got some stuff done around the house. Things got better as the night wore on (minus the spider situation) which is a good thing. And minus the fact my period came in full force. At least I have plenty of left overs (lasagna and dump cake) for a few days!! YUM!!

Of course, today, I drop my phone and even though I seem to do this on a regular basis, today it was on concrete and my faithful protective case was not successful in preventing my screen from splatting and cracking all kinds of pretty. It still works. But it now needs to be replaced.

This is NOT my phone, just a similar enough cracked screen

So, with this in mind, I will be heading to the AT&T store and see what phones are there and how much. Amazon is pretty awesome in price shopping I've noticed, and yes, I've already started checking out what phones are available. Not an expense I was planning on, but with my luck, I'd cut a finger on the crack some how.

Since I was out for 2 days, I have a ton of shit to get done at work. However, the 3 glasses of wine last night are making me somewhat not all here enough to focus on work and not mindlessly wander around in my head and stare at the rain. It's another perfect day for lazing around in bed, reading, drinking hot tea and napping. I really need to do those things at some point! It just won't be any time soon. Next weekend I plan on painting the kids room and HOPEFULLY the office. Maybe I will drag my sister to Home Depot tonight (it's not exactly party central) to help me pick out the main color for my bedroom :) It will be some shade of purple. I am pretty sure about that. Pretty sure. Pret-ty sure. Hmmm....

Anyway! I've had no time to think straight today so far! Work has been non stop! Speaking of which, back to the grind!!!

Tuesday - Bleh

Busy busy busy!

Made mexican last night. Yum. Going out for dinner tonight though :) Then maybe shopping! If we're in the mood :)

I've come to the realization that one of my bosses does better with women who are cranky/mean. Since I am PMS'ing, and therefore in a somewhat cranky mood, he seems nicer and more light hearted. He said he felt like he was at home with his wife. Which makes me think 2 things. That he likes/used to crankier/bitchier women and that he will leave me alone after laughing at me curse my computer and mutter under my breath about stupid PC's. Ahem. It seems I am too nice all the time. Who knew!

Also: I am really needing a hug today. Ever get the feeling, that you just need to be hugged? Like, A lot? For a long long time? Yeah, my heart is sorta achy and needs hugs. I am blaming PMS emotions on that one...

There is a cricket, somewhere behind me, hiding in the cabinets. It's loud. Joys.

Back to the grind

It's a chilly, rainy Monday morning

I should have brought a scarf to work. I am wearing a cute knit beanie hat today, but it's not warm enough for this chilly morning. So, I'm drinking some hot tea and wearing a fleece jacket and trying to wake up. I don't like waking up. I'd much rather be asleep, in a warm cozy comfy bed. Curled up inside my nest of blankets and warm kitties. Diego alone is an awesome heat source, love it when he sleeps against my back.

This weekend, got waxed :) Yay :) Though I have 2 patches on my inner thighs that are NOT thanking me. I've been smearing some yummy lavender oil blend on them which is helping though.

My sister got in around lunch time on Saturday! YAY!!! SO EXCITED!!! It is so unbelievably AWESOME to see her and talk to her and just hang out! I mean, wow. I have really and truly missed her!

We went to Mom's Organic store yesterday and Martins to get some groceries. Mom's is always a huge treat for me :) Love shopping there :)

I want to take her to a couple different restaurants in the area, probably tomorrow and Wednesday. Thursday (my bday) I am making lasagna and dump cake. I have not had to best luck with my birthday in the past several years...so I am taking that day off from work and hoping to just kind of hide from the world, make some good food and celebrate with loved ones. Quiet, easy, fun. Maybe watch a movie.

Then there is Friday and Saturday we can still check out stuff. I want to take her to Shepherdstown at least one night :) And the Catina is on Tuesday :) After dinner :)

Western Maryland is such a different place from Southern California. I know it's a bit of a culture shock. And it's kinda neat to see someone else go through what I did when I first moved here. I mean, I lived in Southern CA for a good portion of my young life and was in South Florida for 10 years. It's just SO damn different!! Not bad, per se, but wow you gotta adjust! It's a different mentality, different perspective in a lot of ways...just because life is different - not that people don't do the same types of things like work, home life and everything else. It's just that here is so green, things are farther away from each other, the pace is different...among other things. It's actually hard for me to explain for some reason right now.

Oh and I ordered another cute ass hat the other day:

Can't wait until this one comes in :) I'm wearing a green knit beanie one today :) Looks very french, almost.

Ok, work is busy, shock. I need some more hot tea. Also: My period is thinking of starting, but it's just a minor thought at the moment. My lower back pain is starting though, which is always fun - not!

Freaky Friday's Thoughts....which are not that exciting...unless you count Sugar Walls

Yesterday, work kicked-my-ass. I barely sat down. A good thing, in some ways. Annoying in others. I has things to do!! So lunch time was taken up with Band Booster stuff, which it will again today.

I had a band boosters meeting last night, I got there early as I had more stuff to catch up on. I brought the kids laptop so I could work on things. It turns out that was REALLY helpful, because during the meeting I was able to get a lot of stuff done too.

PMS has only made a wee bit cranky, nothing bitch quality yet. But I've noticed my temper at work need to be reigned in more. Bloated/water weight has added a few pounds, which I hate but at least know it will go away. And still not smoking too. Weird. Very very weird. I am, of course, not reading as much, which is even more weird. I have a couple books I do want to finish, maybe I will get some time soon??? Maybe not! Too much stuff going on! :) Tonight, it's laundry, vacuuming and straightening up - no real big stuff. Tomorrow, my sister gets here!!! Yay!!! SO EXCITED!!!

Watched some TV last night, got distracted and finally went to bed. Even though I went to bed at a decent hour (hey, it was before 11 pm!!) I could NOT sleep. Thoughts just kept churning over and over at me.

Ok, so I woke up at like 5 am for some strange reason this morning. After falling back asleep though, I dreamed of sex. Like major-ly yummy hot sex. See, with PMS - the week before my period - my libido seems to go into over drive. And the books I am reading right now aren't exactly helping with that. So. Yes, dream sex. And for some reason during this dreamy sex marathon in my head, I hear Sheena Easton's song - Sugar Walls. Now, talk about a flash back! I remember when this was on the radio. Ahem. Loved it then, didn't quite understand it as I do now!! So. There you go

Wednesday Wickedness

Tonight, I am thinking of starting to put up some of my Halloween/Samhain decorations. I am thinking that I will head out tomorrow and see if I can get some more. Since I now have a house, I can really make things look cool or scary or just full of the awesomeness. And Wickedness. I hope.

Also, I will be cleaning. In some kind of wicked manner. Don't ask me how that is supposed to happen, I will figure it out. Hmmmm, I guess that might depend on ones definition of wicked.

My ankle is still annoying me. It's not so much my foot anymore, the pain now seems more focused on my ankle. I think this is because of how I re-injured it on Sunday at my cousins. Because, you know, I am just so damned special that way! It is slowing me down though, which really sucks because I have a lot of shit to get done! Did another load of laundry last night (I know, this is just to most exciting thing EVER to be posted on ones blog).

I've asked the Kid to vacuum every day this week. It has yet to happen. Which means I will be vacuuming tonight as part of my clean up. I will HOPEFULLY also complete (ha, or at least attempt to complete) the following:

• Finish clearing up the Library
• Finish hiding/stashing stuff I need to sort and then file in my Office and Bedroom
• Clean the bathrooms
• Do 1 more load of laundry, and put away
• Misc. clean up around the house (you know, just putting the junk away or in the trash)

Then on Thursday: Make mine and the kids bed (aka, fresh sheets, etc) and also see about straightening up anything that's left over.

Then pass out. In some form of drunken bliss. Maybe. Not sure about the drunken part! Bliss always sounds good though. And maybe order take out (again, it's been one of those weeks)

You see, I didn't quite forget that my Most Awesome Sister is coming here for a visit :) I just sorta realized that, DAMN THAT'S THIS SATURDAY!! late last night. Remember when I mentioned I was special? Well, there you go!

Friday night I will be heading the grocery store to stock on some things and then try to just relax and not fret over anything that hasn't been done yet. And rest my tootsie. I have a feeling it will need it at that point!

Oh and I haven't smoked, at all, since my last one early Monday morning. Haven't wanted to. Didn't have the urge to buy a pack this morning (at the local place I get my coffee, which is where I used to get my cigarettes). So...I have noticed my irritation levels rising with certain people I work with. I am not sure if it's the not smoking, the possible PMS that is due to start soon or a combination thereof. My monthly visitor is due late next week, so that would mean in the next few days my PMS will rise it's ugly head to snap at things. I think my punching bag will be getting more time. Plus, I want to burn some calories off (ahem, remember that carb over load and slight food coma? Yeah....that shit needs to burned off I think). Plus, smacking one of the managers probably isn't the best idea. Well...it could be, depending. But anyway, yeah I think that cleaning will help (it usually does when I get annoyed) and gods know I don't *like* being cranky or annoyed.

I miss sex. Really good yummy OMG sex. Oh and kissing, because I LOVE kissing. Missing that a lot right now too.

Anyway.

I need to go distract myself with work it seems!!

Not So Tired Tuesday

Last night, I had a slight food coma and went to be early. Early as in right before 9 pm. I was out. I did wake up up for a little while, thanks to Tiamet meowing for no apparent reason (ugh, hate it when she does this) but it was a good thing in this case :)

My ankle felt quite a bit better this morning. I think it's because I really wasn't on it at all last night. I did run a couple errands right after work, PetsMart and picked up chinese for dinner. Maybe it was all the carbs I had yesterday, no sure what was really up with that...I just was craving carbs like a zombie wants brains. I am doing much better on that front today, though I will admit there was too much sugar in my coffee this morning. That's what I get for not paying attention!!

I also ordered a slew of hats:


The reason for this, besides the butch lesbian hair cut, but also because all my baseball type of hats are all previous job related and not that cute. Also, my other beanie style ones, well, they are for hard core winter warmth. So, these at least are cute, I can wear when it's not freezing outside and cover up my butch lesbian hair cut. And also: Who doesn't want some cute hats? I know these are exactly all summery and whatnot, but since I tend to wear dark colors for the most part, they will fit in well. I think next year I will attempt to get more lighter hats. Also, by then I will have determined if my hair will be short another year or if I will grow it out.

Work is busy today, so this is a short post. I've gots lots to do ;)

Incredible Weekend And Wow-ness and Yikes

Ok, so Saturday at the Renaissance Festival = Incredible.

We got to see soooo much. I really wish we had a 2nd day to go!! So much to look at it and take in! It was overwhelming!! Plus, I got to hear one of my favorite groups live = WOW. It was only a 30 minute show, but it was awesomeness to the Nth degree. I got their new CD as well (and no I didn't get it signed, I didn't want stand in line again and it's not that important to me, the music is). The kids had tons of fun. I think we should have left an hour earlier, they were all exhausted and a little bit cranky by the time we got to the car. It was still amazingly awesome though! I was at first thinking of looking for a new dress/skirts and bodice, but honestly, I just had way too much fun looking at everything!! Next time :) I ate a ton of food, my favorite being this apple/ice cream dessert that was way yummy. The Italian sausage was good too though. The Brat got a turkey leg - now this thing had some kind of bladder full of grease, because it looked like it was pissing the whole time he ate it. Very very funny. He was only a little bit of a brat while there. Much better than he was a few years back. He got a tail, which he loves. Lots of stones, a necklace and I don't remember what else.

I got an awesome little statue and another pot of this yummy smelling body oil/solid. Yay!!

If definitely made me want to schedule any trips I take to Florida or Southern California in the future, to coordinate the times with the local Renaissance Fairs. Or maybe see what other fairs are local, or at least within driving distance. That might be a neat thing to do for road trips in the future. Will see!

I got my hair cut yesterday. Ummm, suffice it to say I will be wearing a hat until it grows out some. I look like a butch lesbian, which isn't a bad thing I guess, if I was one. But I'm not. So....yes, hats will be my style for the next little while. I might go ahead and Henna dye it in the mean time. Not sure if that will help or make it worse though. Gods, it's almost funny if you think about it.

Went to my cousins, promptly tripped and re-injured my ankle/foot. See, it takes talent to do that. I think my ankle got weakened from all the walking on Saturday. We won't blame it on my overall clutz like abilities. We hung and talked for a little while, then I limped my way to my car and headed home.

Home, well, got there and had just a shit load of things to do and my brain sorta shut down on me. Suffice it to say I did get one load of laundry done and that was about it. I did keep off my ankle, so that's good at least. Hopefully tonight I can get my office done (that is going to be my focus at least) and just pray that I get it organized so that I don't want to scream at it.

Tonight, I have to go to PetsMart, so maybe I will swing by and get some stuff at home depot as well. More insect killer, that's for sure. More of those evil spiders appeared. These lovely fuckers are now dead - and I really really REALLY don't want anymore of them. I had found another one in the house, hiding on a door handle that goes out the side to where I have the trash. Yikes! I freaked! Killed that one with roach spray. And hey, I didn't even scream!! And I won't mention that one the hung down at eye level as we were trying to leave the house on Friday. OMG, that one freaked me out more...right at eye level. Not what I wanted to see!! Here is one picture of the spider, I have another but it's not wanting to load up for some reason. Will try again later.
ICK

 

Freaky Friday!

I am soooo excited! Tomorrow! Renaissance Festival! Yay!!! I plan on having a lot of fun this year :)

My ankle is doing ok. Just ok though. Should be interesting all the walking I will be doing tomorrow. I will be bringing my wrap with me, just in case it needs it.

Today, is just a beautiful day :)

It's actually kinda chilly out today too! I think the high is supposed to be 72 degrees, which is perfect.

An Inner Bitch Quote:

An Inner Bitch Reminder:

If you settle for less, that's exactly what you'll get. Is that what you want? I don't think so.

 I have no idea how busy today is going to be. I just know I'm sorta tired (got to bed late) and I am chugging my coffee like it's my life blood. Ok, what I really mean is that my subsisting on coffee period at the moment! LOL. It's my bestest friend. Well, that's Jackie, but right now she's in Florida and she doesn't exactly give me a caffeine fix!

I guess I should start thinking of what the hell I will be wearing on my vacation too. I should make a list of what's required and see what I can that might past muster. The awesome thing about losing weight is some of my old but still hot/cute clothes now fit again :) Oh and me wearing a size 12 jeans?? HOTNESS. My 14s are pretty comfy/loose now. I could wear 12s without a problem. I have a couple times and damn, I got some good reactions. But I am not sure if need every guy staring at my ass at work. Yeah, that's probably not what I need! What I need, is to clean my house though. Because dust bunnies seem to multiple on an hourly basis!! I blame the cats.

Damn it, I just had a thought and as I was about to write it, it ran away. Hate it when that happens...

 Anyway! It looks to be a busy weekend and next week as well :)

A Thursday Quick Note Thingy

It's a tad bit chilly this morning. I love the seasons changing! I always have :) There is something, so fresh, about each season. Almost like a reset button. Well, ok it really IS a reset button - but you know what I mean!

Also: How the fuck did September pass so damn fast? I mean, seriously?? It's the 26th already!! It felt like the 2nd yesterday! Yikes!!

I finished one scarf last night. Not sure if I like it. I made a couple silly mistakes, not the end of the world. But I almost, ALMOST, want to go back and re-do it. Will see if the person I made it for likes it. If not, I will re-do it. See, I much rather re-make/do something so that the person I am giving it to REALLY likes it. Not just a little bit and that it's ok. Nope. If I can make an change (easy or not, it's not really a stressful thing for me), then I much rather do that and have the person like it that much more. Yes, sometimes it's the thought and effort that count. But you know what? If I want to wear something not ONLY because someone I know made it for me, but also because it's pretty/beautiful/awesome/fill in your adjective here, then that is a WIN. Besides, crocheting a scarf is easy.

I have another one that I had started last year that I will be finishing next. It's this pretty beige and oatmeal colors one that I love. And with me having short hair now, scarves will certainly be my friends this winter!! I will probably make a couple more simple ones after that. I have a strong feeling I will have a pretty decent wardrobe of scarves!! Hmmm, I guess I should probably give some to family and donate some too. I like that idea!!

Work will be picking back up soon, it's had a nice little lull recently. I am ready for the real stuff to start though.

My ankle/foot - well. It's still getting better. I am going to try to stay off it more tonight. Work, I can't really help. I still have the wrap on it, but no air splint. If I could have kept that on longer, I would have. It really does help keep your ankle straight and from rolling or causing more harm. I do walk pretty carefully though. I am going to end up wearing my wrap when I go to the Renaissance Festival on Saturday though. I just want that extra support with all the walking we'll be doing. I can't wait for Saturday, it's going to be a lot of fun :)

My jeans are still loose, which is nice. I haven't changed weight at all for the last week or so. I think I need to mix up my routine or something and get it jump started again. Plus, I know I will be eating more when my sister comes to visit (can't wait!!!). I am planning on making lasagna for my birthday dinner :) And Dump Cake. And maybe some fresh bread! Talk about carb overload! But it's my bday, so why not!!! I haven't been drinking as much water as I should either. Bad Me! Well, working on it now.

Ok, time to get my ass in gear!!

Humpity Hump Hump

I always think of Digital Underground when I hear Hump Day

So!!

I am wearing shoes today, with my ankle still wrapped but no air splint. Hmmm. My ankle is thinking I'm a bit of a bitch due to this. Sometimes you just gotta do what you gotta do, whether you like it or not.

Sunday morning, I am getting my hair cut :) It's starting to grow out more and I really am loving this short style, so I think I am going to keep it until next summer and then decide if I want to grow it out or not. Which means I will need to make some more scarves. And maybe ones not as wide as I made the last couple of years. Especially if I'm not going to be smoking in 15 degree weather!!! So, I am hoping to really get through several of my yarn projects this winter :D

I really want to paint the kids room, this month though seems to be seriously busy!! Renaissance Festival (YESSSSS), my sister visiting (BEYOND AWESOME) so I was just looking at my friendly little Google Calendar (am loving that btw) and 10/19  - 10/20 looks to be the weekend for painting :) I will see if me and the Kid can at least organize the attic a little bit more (he's made a complete mess of it searching for things) so that I can put up there everything else he doesn't "need" right this moment. And then I might need to get a couple more paint brushes and 1 more gallon of white paint (for my office) and I'm basically all set. I think the biggest pain in the ass will be moving his furniture so that I can get to his walls!! The Kid will be with his Dad that weekend, so I will be playing some high energy music and get it done! I do know the office will probably take longer just because it's being sprayed on and not just painted.

Anyways, time to get my ass in gear :)

Inner Bitch Quotes

Inner Bitch Food for Thought:

When we suffer from Toxic Niceness, everyone else in our lives gets more out of our efforts than we do. Is that what we really want? I don't think so!

9/25/2013:

Today is "Anything is Possible Day." Because your Inner Bitch knows that every day is anything is possible day, but you have to start believing it sometime. 

Dental Fun Time & little updates

This morning, I didn't really get sleep in before my dental appointment. But whatever. Still, I was sitting in the dentist chair at about 8:30 am, waiting for the fun times to begin.

I got the impressions/molds done of upper/lower teeth and a temporary crown put on. Oh and my gums had to be cauterized a little bit. OW OW OW. I just took a couple Advil since the numbness is starting to wear off.

Speaking of numbness, it's a strange sensation to have your eyeball go numb. So 1/2 of my mouth, nose, cheek and 1 eyeball got that lovely feeling going on. And now that it's start to wean off, my teeth are aching in that itchy sorta way! I hate it when my gums/teeth feel itchy. I don't know quite how to explain it though.

I am attempting to slurp coffee without drooling. It's not easy. Sometimes it's all about getting a good seal and just chugging it. I need me some caffeine though.

Lunch will be a late thing today, since work is having some 10 year party type of thing. At least I am pretty sure there will be food.

So, I think I am going to quit smoking soon. This whole week they've just tasted nasty. I don't know if it's because I am just happier now or me losing weight or what, but it's a good thing. I am going to finish out this week and then just keep a pack in reserve for any of those super stressful moments. Moments where the punching bag doesn't do enough that is.

I am also really excited about Saturday :D I can't wait to go to the Renaissance Festival, take in the sights, smells and delicious food! Have fun with the kids and enjoy the shows.

My foot/ankle is doing better. I still have it in the air splint and wrap. I will have to take the air splint off tomorrow because I just have too much at work going on that needs me fully functioning. Will keep the wrap on though. This will mean I will have to try to rest it as much as possible once I'm home. TRY being the operative word here.

Maryland Renaissance Festival

Just a quick note :)

So, just purchased the tickets for the Maryland Renaissance Festival :)

http://www.rennfest.com/

So excited! One of my favorite groups is performing, The Mediaeval Baebes! Love them!

Oh and I am having a moment of De Ja Vu

Weird.

Anyways, I think we're going to have a blast :)

Darkness Of Light by Stacey Marie Brown

Darkness Of Light by Stacey Marie Brown
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

I really and truly enjoyed this book. The author did an excellent job with the plot and writing. I must have read this book within 24 hours of downloading it!!

The main characters has great tension between them. It was full of intense moments with a wit that I absolutely loved. The characters were strong in themselves, the plot amazing and it really kept you on your toes and wanting to see what is going to happen.

Highly recommend, it was a great book to read and I look forward to the next one!

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Monday's Moorings

No crutches today. I am still wearing my ankle wrapped and with the air splint, and still not putting a lot of weight on it (in other words, staying off my feet) but when I do walk, I am just hobbling along!

Last night I got to meet some local pagans for a Pot Luck and Mabon celebration. It was nice. It's been SOOOOO long since I have done anything with any type of group. It's not a coven or anything formal. Which, honestly, was probably one of the best things. Because as with most situations when you have more than 2 people in a room, there is drama. At least with this particular group, I didn't get that vibe at all. Well, at least not from the first meeting. And it's just nice to talk to people! LOL, you know what I mean though? People who aren't coworkers and also that at least have SOME idea of similar thoughts. And the food was good too :) I made my bread pudding and it went over really well, which always makes me feel good! I love feeding people. It's not a huge group either, which is nice because I don't remember their names. Bad Me!

This means I got home at about 10 pm. Next time, I can bring my Kid and he can play video games and hang out with their kid(s), which will make things better. I've also offered up the use my backyard, because it would be nice to have some things done outside. Of course, with Winter coming, I doubt it will be a lot (and yes, I do want a fire pit at some point, just need to figure out where!) and I also need to get rid of that poison oak.

Also: I noticed something rather interesting Sunday afternoon. I tried to smoke a cigarette - and it was nasty. I didn't want it. I don't normally have that reaction. Soooo weird. Good, but weird! Not sure if it's just because I'm happier now days or changes in my weight or what. Whatever it is, it's a good thing!! Today, hmmm, I will see if I get the same reaction while at work. If so, well I guess that means my body is telling me to quit smoking for good (hopefully!!).

Edit: Ok, so I just smoked, and it was still gross. I think that I am going to wind down on my smoking, and just quit :) Wow. Who knew!! I will keep 1 pack in reserve for those moments that I want to punch someone's face in - you know - just in case! But at least with these cigarettes (Native American Organic ones) I don't have nic fits or cravings. Which will help in the long run. I think the hardest part will be reading while NOT smoking. I've always done those together (yes, even when it's 20 degrees outside) so that will be an interesting adjustment. Oh and another thought, to make sure I don't just substitute food for smoking as well. I don't want to gain weight from quitting! Maybe will see about more bag time....hmmm...will see what happens :)

I have tons of laundry to do when I get home. I have a dentist appointment early tomorrow morning, which means I can sleep in (yay!!). I am hoping to get some stuff down in the office this week. My main goal is to get my filing done!! And to get the rest of the crap at least sorted and hopefully stored. I also want to make a couple scarves and start on finishing this one baby blanket I've had for way too long. And of course, hopefully give it to someone :) Or maybe sell it. I have several things of yarn I would like to use up :D At least my winter will be productive if I can get that done!

Ok, time to pretend to be productive. Or maybe actually productive.

What an AWESOME weekend!

Friday night, well, was eh.

Saturday though! OMG, one of my good friends came to hang out :) So, of course I wasn't exactly the best of staying of my tootsie, but blah! I haven't see her in FOREVER it seems. I think she was a tad bit shocked by my hair and weight loss. But in good ways at least!!

So, I had her try on some of my old clothes that I can't wear anymore and she was able to take a good portion of them, which is awesome :) We then decided that starving was not a good idea, so headed to one of my favorite local Chinese restaurant :) It was drizzling out, so hot soup and tea were perfect :) We had a lot to catch up, and I will totally admit I would not shut up! I feel bad! I just kept babbling, but I guess that's normal when you haven't seen a friend in a while!!
 
Then I had to run to the Pennsylvania Dutch and pick up some small supplies (raisins for one). She had never been in there, so hey, new experiences are always good...well almost always good! I have had a few in the past that I totally could have skipped over. Totally.

We were originally going to go to the Wine Festival, but since I had hurt my foot, that was out. What we did do, was buy some wine and hung out some more though! It was very awesome :) I got 2 new wines and 1 had had before.

One is called "Bitch"
http://www.totalwine.com/eng/product/bitch-grenache-wine/16772750

Fruit forward, Intense, Medium Bodied

Aragon, Spain- Dark cherry and raspberry aromas are underpinned with spicy, peppery notes with hints of anise. Displays extraordinary natural acid balance, even at elevated ripeness levels. Conveys vibrant, juicy fruit with a very soft, sweet-fruited palate structure.

The 2nd one was from Red Heifer (Loved the name!)
http://www.redheiferwinery.com/
The one I got was:

Sweet Heifer750mL | 12% alcohol | $14 Delightfully sweet with a pleasant grape finish, our Sweet Heifer will remind you of the simple life at the farm.

Can't wait to try it :) Of course, I will need someone to try it with me :) Because it's never as fun trying new stuff unless you have a friend or loved one with you :)

We ended up drinking the one bottle I had already here and another from Linganore that I knew was good! Sweet red wines are awesome :)

Saturday night, went to the Tilted Kilt and had dinner. It was raining and wasn't too busy :) Had some good food and headed home to put my foot up and relax. I was not cleaning or doing anything that would annoy said foot. Well, at least not too much! I must say that it's nice I can actually put weight on it and not be in instant pain. Though honestly, taking the stairs as slow as I do is getting on my nerves!

Sunday :) I made a yummy if simple breakfast. Bacon, fried eggs, coffee. Cleaned up around the house (dishes, so far 1 load of laundry, dishwasher, swept the stairs and downstairs) and then made some Cinnamon Raisin Bread. It looks and smells seriously good. It's in the oven right now. Once it's out and cooled off, I will be making my Bread Pudding for tonight's get together. I have never met these people before, but from what I can gather it seems like a nice group :) I haven't done anything like this in such a long time either! I am not nervous per se, but I am curious :) Plus, my foot is still healing so I want to make sure I take it easy. Especially since I didn't quite do that yesterday!

Also: I gave Diego a mini bath. Which means I cleaned up his rear-end and that's it. I am too tired to do a whole bath.

Right now, I would love to take a nap and then a shower. Or a shower then a nap. Ugh, kinda hard to nap when I am waiting on bread and then have to make something more. Blah. Oh and I should probably map the place and have a clue of where I am going and how long it will take. I seriously doubt it will take too long.

Hmmm, it was a really good weekend :) Gotta love that :D Yay - Happiness is loving life :^D

A late night thought...

Do you ever have a really bad moment, where you just want to cry and scream at the same time? And then you calm down, much later on. After smoking too much and punching a bag. And then you are able to logically or analytically review that one bad moment. And then you think to yourself - you know what? Fuck it. It is what it is. That you can't stress yourself out over something, even if it's something that's already been agreed upon before. It - just - is.

And then you hear this one song - this magically awesome song - and life is just 1,000 times better.

And you realize life is good. That life is a wondrously joyous thing. That there are millions of awesome moments just waiting to happen.

Yeah, that.

Freaky Friday

I was really good last night about not putting a lot of weight on my foot. Score me :)

Though I did make some Lemon Cupcakes :) I even saved some for the Kid :) The rest were given away :) I just felt like baking. And to be honest, I will be cooking some more this weekend. Not just cupcakes, but also making Cinnamon Raisin Bread (I need to check my levels of raisins at home) for some Bread Pudding on Sunday. Ohhhhh, wait a second. I am making that for a Pagan thingy on Sunday. I should warn them I busted my foot and will need help!!!

I am still resting my foot, putting ice on it and just taking it easy. It's going to be interesting trying to do ANYTHING this weekend, but oh well!

I did have some help putting the Kid's shower head in the downstairs bathroom, but it's done and used it this morning. I really did like having that large shower again. Makes me sorta think about my smaller one upstairs. Hmmmm. I am going to ask around about how much work it takes to make mine a wee bit larger. And if it's too much work, it can wait! If it's not though, then I might just do that. At least for right now, I have the bathroom downstairs that can be used :) Being clean is a good thing!!

Since I made a mess upstairs looking for my insurance card, I should probably take some time to get my filing done and at least clean that part up. And if I am working in the office, then I can at least get that room more organized without putting too much strain on my tootsie.

Also: how is that I just drank coffee and feel like I could fall asleep instead? And I am pretty sure I went to bed earlier last night than I have in a week. Hmmm.

Work, hahahaha, is quiet and I'm not doing as much as I should be. End times people, end times.

Ok, I am going to see if I can hobble around for a little bit and look productive :)

Talent = Sprain

I am seriously and quite conceivably the most talented I've ever been before. So, not only can I NOT walk, I can not walk and cause myself injury. Sure, it was late at night and I had had a drink HOURS before and sure I was tired. But seriously? Walking in my back yard last night, I somehow trip over my own feet, fall like some kind of giant engulfed tree and sprain my foot/ankle.

So, I ice my poor foot last night, realize I was so tired I was ready to fall asleep mid thought, and somehow pulled myself and the basket of laundry upstairs.

I woke up at 4:30 am, because of the trash truck, realized I FORGOT to put the damn trash out! Ugh. Also realized my foot was still swollen and in pain. Took 3 Advil at 5:30 am. Slept for an hour. The kid woke up all kinds of cranky. Complaining about his clothes and lack of fit and overall not a good morning for him or myself.

Also: It turns out the Kid needs more clothes...wait, remember when I had ASKED HIM REPEATEDLY to try on his fucking clothes to see what fit/didn't fit, and he refused AND then he refused to buy MORE clothes when Maryland was having that tax free week?? Well guess what Mr. Smarty Pants!!?? Now, we need to go clothes shopping and me who can barely walk. So, I've asked his Dad to see if he wouldn't mind taking him (and yes, I'm providing the money)

I email my boss, explaining I will be in late and why. I slowly get dressed and get what I need (ahem, I went searching for my insurance card, didn't find it, but made a mess) and carefully made my way downstairs, got my purse and keys and went to the car. OW owow ow owow. Went to Urgent Care at 8 am.

Neat thing: I downloaded my insurance company's app, registered and LOOKY HERE!! It created a card for me to email to the Urgent Care place, how awesome is that!?!

Yes, they asked questions, took X-rays. Nothing shows up on the X-rays which I think is a good thing. Of course, they go and say my nasty ass sprain is probably just as bad if not worse. Jeez, thanks! So, hopefully if I am REALLY GOOD about it, a couple days will take down the pain and swelling. Right now, I've got an Air splint on it and have to use crutches. Seriously, all because I can't seem to walk. But this means no Wine Festival this weekend. I just want to make sure I am healed up before the 28th, Renaissance Faire. That's what I am caring about right now! Work, well they can be nice and work things out so it's easier for me. Because, ummm, what else can be done??

And in other news - I has a crack in my upstairs shower stall. I noticed this morning ANOTHER crack in it. I spoke to a guy at work, who does facilities and he says it sounds like there is no support under it. Which means I will need to replace said shower. Lovely. Again, wonderful timing. But, you know what? It is what it is. At least now I can replace it and know it will be a good long while before I need to do that again :)

Wednesday's Wooing Woe

Oh my, I am exhausted. Work is B-U-S-Y! I'm ready to fall asleep as I attempt to actually write a post.

Also: New Favorite Word = WOW

My sinuses are being abused - there is a lot of dust related activities going on at work. Because, you know, breaking down card board is never dust free. Or moving equipment.

Hmmm, I had thoughts when I first started this post I wanted to share. But now they seem to be hiding from me. Don't you hate that!??!!

In other news, my ring sizes are getting smaller. Which is awesome and annoying. Awesome because I'm losing inches/weight but annoying because some of my cool ass rings might be too big to wear if this keeps up. My size 14 jeans are getting looser too. Not quite needing to go the next size down, but I will need to start using my belt :)

Oh, my big sister is coming to visit! I am soooooo excited about that! AND she's going to be here during my birthday = WAY AWESOME!!

Annoying fact I found out - I have poison oak growing in yard. JOYS! So, I attempted to spray some weed killer stuff but I might need to upgrade to the commercial grade version. Me and the kid have sensitive skin, no need to have that stuff around! I've been thinking of really ripping all the stuff out of the front and back yard, let everything fallow over winter and starting fresh in the spring. Except for a couple of the nice butterfly bushes that is. Because, yeah, I don't like the weeds and now poison oak stuff and I also don't like things too close to the AC unit or the house.

Another annoying fact - I have a crack in my shower upstairs. I am going to put in a newer shower head in the downstairs bathroom and use that until I pick up some epoxy to fix that one.

Also: WOW

Oh, maybe I should give Diego a bath tonight, I've been forgetting or putting it off and I REALLY should get that done. But I need to sweep first thing when I get home. I hate how my stairs collect dust and cat hair so easily! Oh and I need to do some laundry as well. It seems like tonight is going to be busy!! And I just want to sleep. Maybe I should make some coffee first when I get home.

Ok, whatever thoughts I had have seriously hidden themselves from me. So I am going to go search for them in some quiet corner and pretend to be productive while at it. Shhhh...

This Past Weekend = Awesome

So Friday. I went home early, rested, took one small elusive nap and felt better. Not like LOADS of better, but better. I was able to clean downstairs and do some laundry.

I was in great anticipation for Saturday. Because, Saturday, was Medieval Times! WOOT! We went with a friend and his 2 kids. Said kids are 2 years on either side of my son, and his son who is 10, loves and breathes the same the game as mine. Suffice it to say, they hit it off :) Honestly, I thought they would, but it's always always always a good thing when your kid makes a new friend :)

So, Medieval Times is located in a mall, a somewhat large mall that we got to walk around :) It was fun, the kids got some cool stuff and the memories are incredible. Not much else you can ask for a day out like that :)

I got a couple pics of the Kid, not a whole lot because the boy would not stand still!! And of course, it was too dark inside once the show started. And what a show! OMG, who knew! It was a lot of fun :) Can you sense the theme here?

I drove both ways, which was cool :) I liked driving and listening to the kids talk or my friend tell stories. And singing along with the music. Because, you know, I got that multitasking thing going on. LOL, ok but I did pay attention to driving :)

Now, with me missing a lot of work last week, today has been a bitch! I've been basically going non stop since my morning meeting til now. I am exhausted!! And of course I have a slew of things to do when I get home. My mind is almost boggling at that. I need more time in my days again! Yikes!

Good things: No more period, she's hiding for a few weeks :) That damned UTI seems to be gone as well. That bitch can stay gone! And my cold? Is on it's last legs as well :) I still have some sinus issues, but nothing like it was! Yay!!! Love feeling better :) Also: not smoking as much. Surprising in my mind, but a really good thing over all :^D

This week looks to be kinda busy. I almost miss those days that I didn't have stuff to do. Almost. Of course, there a ton of things I'd rather NOT being doing. AKA fixing house/furniture stuff. But, it is what it is!!  I have plans to make, since my awesomeness of a sister will be coming for a visit!! Yay!! SO EXCITED about that! Oh my, I am almost beside myself with that one!!

My birthday is in less than a month, and I am planning on hiding in my bed that day. Or the couch. I am not a big fan of my birthday, and I am not sure if that's a normal thing, sad thing or just-as-you-get-older thing. I don't know. I'm not exactly dreading it per se, just not excited about it. Ohhh, maybe I will buy myself some more rings though! I've already pre-ordered books, but that wasn't as a bday present to myself. Hmmmm. Since I've lost weight, my ring sizes have gone down, which is awesome too.

Sunday, hmmm...I was tired, did some cleaning, minor grocery shopping. I was sorta cranky, I think from those last dregs of being sick. But Sunday night was good.

My brain is starting to shut down though. I need a nap, or at least a moment to NOT think for a brief moment !!!

I do have a couple projects to start, not already including those around the house (ahem, painting!) but I want to make some scarves, or a blanket, I want to make some jewelry.

Also: It's actually bit a tiny bit chilly lately - LOVE IT. Oh and it was raining this morning and I sooooo did not want to get out of bed! I was all curled up and snuggled in.

Freaky Friday

I'm still sick. Slightly better, so am at work at least. The Kid is feeling completely normal (must be nice) and he's at school. I think I will be taking things s-l-o-w today. My boss even came by and asked me if I needed more time to rest. Holy shit I must look like death warmed over! I told him no, that I should be fine but am taking things slow. And seriously, if I start lagging something bad, will head home early.

I has plans tomorrow. Exciting plans, fun plans. Plans I am really looking forward to. So. I WILL BE BETTER DAMN IT!!! BWahahahahaha

Wednesday I killed me some spiders. Last night, I saw 2 of the bitches again though, but sprayed them. Because, yeah, those fuckers really really REALLY wig me out.

Ok, so I came home early, getting ready to take a nap and then clean up the house later on. I need to take my meds as well. I did have soup though, drank some tea. Which is always good. Soup did wonders for me I think. I always add in garlic and paprika to my chicken noodle soup, it just seems to make it yummier.

Right now I'm watching the kitten freak out  over a fly or something outside. It's rather funny. She is so adorable, love it. She is so beautiful, and her fur is seriously soft.

My period is almost over, thank the gods. My UTI is still here though, but hopefully it will be done in a couple days. I am looking forward to not having all these things at once! LOL, it's been just lovely. At least I know my cold is due from allergies. I am not the only one at work that's sick and we all seem to have allergies.

I have to use or lost my remaining sick time and personal holiday. I will use my personal holiday for my bday next month. As for my remaining sick time, well...I have no idea. I do have a couple dentist appointments coming up, but they won't take up the 40+ hours. I think that's one of the reasons I didn't mind calling out yesterday or leaving early today. May as well...Maybe I will take off time for my period, whether I need or not, for the next couple of months and that will help drain those hours down.

OK, my brain is not quite functioning it seems. Meds, then sleep. Then cleaning. I have this thing it seems about cleaning my floors. Who knew.

Wednesday's Woe

So, not only is my monthly little friend tormenting my poor uterus, my bladder had decided to punish me as well. Nothing quite like that burning sensation when you go pee first thing in the morning!!

Of course, I got my lovely UTI, at least more than likely, from my Brazilian wax starting to grow back in. This is one of the reasons why I went to get waxed again this past weekend...I was hoping to head it of. But, alas, it was not meant to be. See, I know this is why I got it because this happened to me the last time I had one as well. Me and my lovely fucking sensitive skin!! UGH.

Yesterday, I probably drank 100 oz of water and peed more often than office full of pregnant women.

I'm taking Uva Ursi for it. Yes, I know most people go to the Dr. and get antibiotics. I am just not a big fan of pharmaceuticals. And I've had these in the past and taken Uva Ursi and it's always worked for me. Just gotta remember to NOT drink or eat things that are acidic. Like cranberry juice, because that causes the Uva Ursi to not work. Learned that one the hard way!! Research people, always research!!

My allergies are acting up today too - I almost, ALMOST, feel like it's a cold. So bloody annoying. I swear to the gods, my body is just hating me at the moment!!

Work, is well, (shock) busy. Which is good :) Always good that :)

Hmmm....let's see. What else...tomorrow is the Band Boosters meeting. Joys.

I did not go to Lowe's yesterday, so I will attempt to do so today. Because, you know, those bitches still gotta go. In fact! This morning, I get in my car, put my hand on the steering wheel and felt something fuzzy. I should not be feeling something fuzzy. Me being fuzzy is completely different. And what was this fuzzy thing I felt, you ask? Oh, you know, just a little spider. To say I freaked the fuck out puts it mildly. I jumped out of my car and saw said spider dangling by one of it's threads. I gently moved the thread and the spider hit the side of that thingy that has the drive shaft. To which then I took my foot and smashed it. Dead. Yeah, now I have a dead spider partially on my shoe and in my car. Ewwwww.

I needed coffee, UTI or no UTI. I also got water though and started drinking it first. Spiders before coffee should NOT be allowed. Period. As in against the law or something.

Oh! That reminds me, some idiot fuckers in Western Maryland want 5 counties to secede and this quote killed me:

Carroll County resident Scott Strzelczyk, leader of the “Western Maryland Initiative,” says people are fed up with the liberal majority and want an "amicable divorce."

That's right, because those liberals are such hard asses and because they vote and you don't like it, therefore you must have your own state. Ahem. If the majority of people felt the way these idiots did, then elections and alcohol taxes would have ended up different. But nooooo, you're upset because for once, you aren't majority and you're not getting your way and therefore must throw a tantrum! Listen assholes, there is always someone else getting what they want. Always. Times change, people and cultures change and either you are part of that change or you are what's changed. Life is just like that. Reality sucks, I know, but come on - either you realize it or live in some alternate version of things. And you know what? Liberals probably felt this way too, when YOU assholes were more in office. So what did they do? The worked the system and got the majority. It's always a fucking gamble with any form of politics. The whole thing gives me a headache.

Oh the comments under the articles crack me up. Seriously, some people are just fucking stupid. As in scary stupid.

Of course, I doubt this will really happen. It's just annoying. For reals.

Link from CNN:
http://www.abc2news.com/dpp/news/region/carroll_county/group-calls-for-western-maryland-counties-to-secede?hpt=us_bn7

Local News Article:
http://www.herald-mail.com/news/local/hm-group-calls-for-western-md-counties-to-secede-20130909,0,5846199.story

Cramping My Style

Cramps, oh how I love thee and despise thee.

Cramps, you difficult bitch, thanks for the morning wake up call.

So, yeah as you can see my period is starting to get more friendly with me because she's a complete and utter whore who seems to think my poor uterus is her horrific playground.

Sorry, I didn't get as much sleep as usual last night and I think my brain is still working on fumes. Coffee has yet to really impact my blood stream and what blood I have is starting to leak out of me. Oh the fucking joys of the menstrual cycle.

But the upside of this? This is something like 6 months in a row of me getting my period - which is practically unheard of with me previously (stupid PCOS crap). I attribute some of it to losing weight, less stupidity/stress in my life and maybe my hormones are just starting to behave slightly normally. And the really possibly cool upside - if I'm getting my period, that POSSIBLY means I could at some point get pregnant. Of course, that would be later on, once I am divorced AND with someone for a while!! But it's nice to know that if I/we wanted a kid, it's a possibility. A better one than in years passed when my stupid period hated me. If I get to that point, of course I will see the Dr before even thinking of trying, just to make sure I still don't have those lovely cysts choking my ovaries. That's even if at that point in time I/we want kids. I might just be happy with how things are. Who knows! I'm shutting this part of my brain off now...

Laundry done last night. The kid wants to play a video game tonight when I get home. I might, depending on if I feel like puking my guts out or not.

Also: I absolutely LOVE having the dining room table done. It just makes this house feel more complete, more home than it already did. Now, if I could just start painting the kids room! Ohhhh, maybe I will just go in and clean his room out and get it done. I should probably order his curtains too...and that moon sticker for his ceiling. Curtains first. Will check with him this week to make sure he still likes them or if you justs longer black curtains.

So, I'm a wee bit tired today. Last night, I hit Sam's Club and Martins on the way home, and I was already tired. But damn, I was in both stores, shopped and on my way home in 35 minutes. That must be some kind of record!! And then it was chores, laundry and good conversation :) I couldn't believe how fast time sped by!!

Work is busy, some of it just pc stuff today. I don't know. I just want a nap!!!

Also: I might go to Lowe's at lunch time and buy bug spray. There are spiders, lots of them, surrounding my house like a fucking last stand. I don't like. Nope, not all at. Those fuckers gotta go!

Monday Madness

So this weekend -

Let's see, the dining room table is finally finished!! So unbelievably happy about this!!! I watched mostly, but I did help a little bit!! It's amazing how some people are just really good at that type of thing. I am coming to realize that I am not one of them!!! LOL -  Mainly because the DVD/CD Media bookcase I put together? Well...it will get the job done but it sure ain't pretty!! LOL - It's almost kinda sad!! But, it's done. Right? Maybe...I'm still laughing about it so that should say something!!

Back to the dining room table, the kid and I actually ate at it last night - and let me tell you - it was so nice and wonderful and just felt good. Like family should be.

Saturday, that was when I did the DVD/CD thingy - while watching Pitch Perfect again. I also re-arranged my living room just a bit, and I like it so far. Not sure if it's going to stay that way, but will see :) I need to find some place for this mirror I have. If not, it might end up in the attic for a while. The walls in my living room, it's just kinda weird in a way because there is SO much of them, that I am having a hard time finding the right artwork that I want. Hmmm. I think I need to go shopping at Pier 1 or something.

Also: Cake

I cleaned a little bit on Saturday, though I should have probably done some laundry, I guess I will tonight after we go grocery shopping.

Oh I also laid out and got my pale ass some sun! That was sooooo nice. I put some music on my iPod nano, sprayed on some oil and took my pale self outside with a towel and pillow. I flipped sides every 5 songs (give or take) so that I wouldn't burn. I had a hat for covering my face. And it was sooo nice. I want to do this more often!!

Sunday, Sunday...I don't remember...oh that's right! I had this really weird/fucked up dream about my ex-stepsister-in-law. I need to text/email that to her. And since my period is just starting (it's being wishy washy on me today for some reason, stupid period) my hormones have been all over the place. Stupid hormones need to get a life. A good life.

Oh, I also got waxed last night. It's only been 3 weeks, however, in the past if I've had a Brazilian done and it's NOT up kept, UTI or yeast infections will ensue. Not something I want. I actually felt the very start of a UTI yesterday, so Uva Ursi regiment has already started. I think I will be able to head it off and flush it out of my system, especially considering how much fucking water I drink. I didn't get the legs waxed, those can wait another few weeks easy (besides it's not like they are that hairy, it just seems certain patches grow in faster - so weird). But I'm glad I got the Hu Ha done.

Also: hot wax down there feels good.
(the ripping of hair out, not so much, just focus on the yummy hot wax)

Work is going to be busy today, I can already tell. Which is good!! I'd rather be busy than bored, any day :)

Good mood music :)

I'm in the mood for some Mediaeval Baebes tonight :)

Weekend Life

So today I actually made it out of the house (score!) and went to JC Penny and Target. At JC Penny I went bra shopping. I guess they are doing some redecorating though, which meant less changing rooms and re-arrangement of clothes. So, I finally found the lingere area (why is it right by the kids clothes? Really? Sexy panties and everything just sitting out there for 5 years to ogle??) So, I decided to pick a couple brands, try 2 bra sizes (40 B and 38 B) to see which ones would fit better. The 40 B was comfy, but just a shade large. Minor. Tried the 38 B, it FIT. YES. But the cup was too small. WTH? I thought that your cup size is your cup size, but I guess not. So, I went back and got a 38 C and that bitch fit perfectly! OMFG, NICE!!! So, how that fucking works I have no bloody idea, but I won't argue :)

I kinda ended up splurging. I mean, I've lost something like 21-22 lbs since March and they were freaking cute AND on sale. Win Win in my opinion. And do you have any idea HOW LONG it's been since I've been able to buy cute sexy bras?? YEARS. Stupid 40 and up sizes, just doesn't happen. Or at least, it's few and far between. And usually expensive. So, I ended up get something like 8 bras and 3 cute panties. And a blanket. Don't ask. I am a total blanket whore. I have this thing for textures, especially on my feet. Also: My kid keeps stealing MY blanket and leaves me his and damn it, I just want my own damned blanket!

Then I head downstairs to the bathing suits. Because, you know, I have this cruise coming up in a few months (SO EXCITED) and it's a Caribbean cruise, which means SUN and therefore I must have some bathing suits. Found a cute shorts and bikini top :)

Also, another thing I noticed is that I've gone down in sizes from XL to L, another huge plus :) Makes me feel good :D

Then I headed over to Target, got another bikini top, a skirt (nothing fancy) and some new sheets.

Then I went to the local Asian Market, picked up some snacks and Aloe juice and finally headed home. I was only out for 2 hours. It felt like a whole day.

So, home, did 2 loads of laundry, cleaned a little bit, read some and have been watching some TV. No nap, alas. Stupid naps fucking avoid me. I did organize some CDs though too, which I need to finish. About 75% done with that, and then I will probably go back or put them in alphabetical order or something. Because, well, I can.

Like how I seriously contemplated mowing my lawn. I really really did. Instead I put on one of my bikini tops, and hung out doing all the above. It's a cute bikini top :^D

Tomorrow, it's Lowe's and grocery shopping. And hopefully more cleaning. Maybe mowing the lawn. MAYBE. Again, it would have to be in a bikini top because I am so damned white I would probably scare a ghost.

Tonight, I might make some bread, pack up my beads. I got in a mood and made a bracelet for a friends daughter. She's a bit goth I think, not 100% sure, so it's all black and red. Pretty onyx and red tigers eye. And hopefully get to bed before 1 am, unlike last night. Right now I'm watching a Bruce Willis movie. Maybe make some popcorn. I don't know. Hmmm. I'm tired though. And I still have some things I need to clean up and really don't feel like it right now. Is it sad I'm tired from putting sheets on my bed?

Popcorn it is :)

EDIT: I am making cookies tomorrow. Almost forgot that!!

Habitat for Humanity Pick Up SUCKS

So, they did NOT call me before showing up at my house - not cool. They said they were going to!!

Instead, I got a call from my kid.

I then called them, and said I would be there in 10 minutes. And on my way there, literally a block from my house, I saw that they called and left a vm.

I called immediately, instead of listening to said vm, and the somewhat not so nice lady said they won't be able to pick it up today, literally 10 fucking minutes from when they were 1st there, for several weeks and that I should call Salvation Army.

I asked if they just couldn't turn around because you know, they just left, she said no.

Motherfuckers.

You know, if she was just a little bit nicer, I wouldn't be so damned pissed.

You know, if they had called me BEFORE they showed up, like they were supposed to, I wouldn't be so damned pissed.

Assholes.

So, I called Salvation Army, there will be at my place Monday - and yes they said they would call me before showing up so that I can actually be there!!

Let's hope it goes as planned.

I am going to try to clean up the couch a little bit, vacuum it and see if I can get those little spots out.

Ugh.

Inner Bitch Quotes

July 2nd 2013:
An Inner Bitch Reminder: Toxic Niceness, the Disease to Please - call it what you will, it's dangerous.

April 2nd 2013:
"Sugar and spice and everything nice, that's what little girls are made of" is the start of Toxic Niceness. Let's replace this silly slogan with something more empowering, like "Girls will be girls"

April 12th 2013:
Let's stop praising girls (and ourselves) only for being "nice" and encourage them to speak up for themselves - the truth is that girls need to be tough at least as often as they need to be agreeable.

May 18/19 2013:
"In passing, also, I would like to say that the first time Adam had a chance, he laid the blame on a woman."  ~ Nancy Astor, first woman elected to Britain's House of Commons, born 5/19/1879

Donating to Habitat for Humanity and more things going on

Well, the couch we've had for the last several years is just going to have to go. And my old desk. Because, they don't fit well enough in the house.

So, I called Habitat for Humanity, and they will be coming to pick those up (hopefully today). Which I think is an awesome solution. I know they will go to a good home and make someone else happy and I don't have to worry about finding a way to get rid of them!!

My lawn mower is being delivered today (yay!) - Have I mentioned I love Amazon? It's a reel lawn mover, which means it's not electric or gas - just an old fashion push on. No carbon print, more hard work. Which suits me just fine for the little yard that I do have :) I've also ordered a trimmer on Amazon, because even with my 10% discount at Lowes, Amazon is still cheaper (and I have free 2 day shipping still).

I've put together the 2 end tables and coffee table - they were bigger than I thought! Wow. Only 1 of them wobbles a little bit, but will figure out how to fix that. I also put together one of the cat litter disguises, which was fun. Love me some drill action ;) I was going to do my dining room table, but my brain just rebelled against the idea so I did some laundry, put the empty & broken down cardboard boxes into my car (and put in recycling at work this morning), put away some clothes, and watched TV. Oh and I hung up (badly) 1 too short black out curtain in the Kid's room, but it's only temporary anyways until his room is painted and we get the curtains he really wants in it. But I could tell it at least made the room less hot. His gets FULL sunlight all morning long, so I hope to get the 2nd curtain up this weekend. I should also do my room - am trying to figure out what I want in there. I am definitely going to paint it, just need to figure out a good color :) Maybe a pale violet? And have an accent wall painted something else? Not sure yet!! I am also researching how to how to paint to that faded look - for the office and the kids room. He wants a moon on his ceiling, and we've talked about a using a semi dark twilight color. He said he wants it to fade lighter though. So, I will paint the office first, trying to see if I can get it fade from dark to light well enough to do that in his room.

My jeans are still a little bit loose, which is nice :)

I need a freaking nap though.

Oh, last night - July 4th?? Well, we're about a block or so over from a large park where they do fireworks every year. You could totally see them from our front porch! It was awesome! And because of how the wind was blowing, it looked like they were aimed directly for our house! OMG, I wish I had taken pictures. And then we noticed, it sounded like it was raining...Well it wasn't raining, it was just the blown up pieces of fireworks!! It was a trip. Inside the house, the booming was super loud, some of the windows rattled a little bit and the cats - awww the poor kitties - hid until it was over and then were still a bit freaked. Next year, I am soooo taking pictures though!

We have these Evergreen scrubs along out fence and by the side of the house. I've read that they are poisonous to cats and they certainly attract a lot of freaking flies - I am going to cut them back a lot (once my trimmer is here) and then see what I can do to replace them with something else - you know, something maybe berry/edible that would also look nice? or at least flowery and provides shade? I don't mind bees, but I don't like flies.

Last night I put out the trash, thank the gods. It is supposed to normally go out on Wednesdays, but due to the holiday it was last night. I had plenty from moving and unpacking so now I am looking for a large outdoor trash bin to shove it in every week. And work gloves. And a step ladder for inside (will need a larger ladder for outside, but later) and pad locks and a hose! So much to do!! I need a nap!

I am not sure if we're going to make it to IKEA this weekend. Am dropping off the twin mattress to my cousin tomorrow afternoon and I really need to get some more stuff put away/together before I add even more furniture/stuff to the place. But I don't want to go alone next weekend (the Ex has the kid and it's a 1 1/2 hour drive each way). So, hmmm. I will figure something out. I also need to go grocery shopping so we have real food and not just snacks in the house.

So tonight, after heading over to Lowes for some minor stuff, I need to change out one of the shower heads to mine, put in a shower liner in the downstairs bathroom (oh and change that shower head when I find the freaking thing - also need to figure how to switch from bath to shower!), and see if I can get my internet up and running. That is a must.

Good times!!

Karma

So I was reading some comments on a facebook post about what Karma is. So, I know how I think of it but wanted to google it and see what else is out there...

http://www.buddhanet.net/e-learning/karma.htm

Some parts stuck out to me, like:

 In other words, it is the result of our own past actions and our own present doings. We ourselves are responsible for our own happiness and misery. We create our own Heaven. We create our own Hell. We are the architects of our own fate.

and

"We are the heirs of our own actions." 

and

Karma does not necessarily mean past actions. It embraces both past and present deeds. Hence in one sense, we are the result of what we were; we will be the result of what we are. In another sense, it should be added, we are not totally the result of what we were; we will not absolutely be the result of what we are. The present is no doubt the offspring of the past and is the present of the future, but the present is not always a true index of either the past or the future; so complex is the working of Karma. 

 I didn't read all of it, but once I move I'm going to. Very interesting...

I do believe in soul journeys. That we experience things right here, right now, to either learn something or teach something. Whether we necessarily understand that or not, our soul is absorbing and disbursing knowledge, etc as we cycle through.

Ok, deep enough for the moment!! I need to do laundry :)

Not quite Pearls of Wisdom

So, as I was making myself dinner (ahem, egg sandwich - breakfast for dinner) I had some funny thoughts...about well I guess with Life Changes that have been going on and whatnot.

Edit: Ok, they were WAY funnier in my head...

• If you can't quite figure out how to cook for less people than you're used to, cook breakfast for dinner. Still healthy, filling and easy. Especially Egg Sandwiches
• Also: If you don't use a lot of bread, put it in the frig, it will stay fresher longer.
• You don't always have to do the dishes that day, it can wait. But no more than 2 days and only if it's a little bit. Especially when you've had a long and/or shitty day.
• If you get angry, or upset, clean or go take a shower. Either one will make you feel better...a clean house/clean me always makes me feel better. And more clear headed too.
• Reward yourself for staying sane. You're allowed.
• Kittens are amazing.
• Pictures can be fun to take and sometimes makes you get a different perspective on things.
• Vinegar is GREAT for cleaning, anything and everything. 
• Boiled eggs are a great snack.
• Vacuum. A lot. Even if it is to piss off your shitty neighbors.
• If someone is being an asshole, remember Karma goes both ways! It's nice to remember you don't have to do or say anything and know that at some point, they will get their own (this also applies to you if you're the one being an asshole, which means don't!). And, of course, if you help someone else, then good things will come your way. Remember that can sometimes help take off that pressure we didn't know we had from bad people/moments.

OK, now my brain is rotting and it's time to go read for a little bit!

Books, Authors and those who give Reviews

So, since I've joined GoodReads, I have read quite a bit, started writing reviews (and is it sad that I never realized how important it is for authors to have reviews!?!?) and reading what others wrote, learning the whole writing/publishing process, winning/entering giveaways, reading ARCs, etc. You sorta get the picture right?

I have read an authors 1st attempt at writing something to be published, some have been phenomenal and some, left me wanting to wash my eyes out but I can't un-read something. Damn. On those, I have always tried to give value-added suggestions/critique without being a bitch. Because there is no point in being mean or bitchy when someone is TRYING to get their ideas/story/characters to behave!! And not everyone is lucky to have friends or family or whatever that can assist with editing and proofing shit. And honestly, if I think it's in dire need of some sort of actual plot, I am sure others are and it's painful when you invest so much into something to have someone else arbitrarily smash it to itty bitty dots left scattered across the world. And I'm not the only nice one, not saying I am! Just that I have seen some pretty damn harsh reviews and comments on books. Different opinions and perspectives... doesn't mean you have to be mean about it.

No person is perfect. Period. Some of my favorite authors have had grammar mistakes, typos or just written a bad book or 2. It happens! It's not the end of the fucking world. They have dead lines and I don't really think anyone with a lick of creative energy can exactly say "Sure, I will have this 4th installment of my incredibly complicated series done for you by June 30th" never mind that most authors have real jobs, or are stay at home parents, or have a life on top it (sometimes). And let's not even discuss dealing with the whole publishing/self publishing process. Yikes!! You can't force creativity. You can't force your characters to do what you think you want them to do. And even if an author isn't given a specific deadline per se, I think there is that pressure of "I gotta get this done!" and then comes that long line of frustration, agitation, despair, resignation, and hopefully at some point in the swirly twirly miasma, ideas start flowing and things start moving again.

And yes, of course us readers WANT MORE. Because, you know, we're absolutely bored and must have the next installment of your amazing writing capabilities...while in the meantime we're having that same conversation with 20 other of our favorite authors. I have a LONG ASS LIST of favorite authors. LONG ASS LIST!!! And yes, I love so many of the series I've been reading, but that doesn't mean I won't read 150 books while waiting a year or so for the next to come out either. So if there's a couple (or more) months before I get my greedy little eyes on those awesome words, then well...my greedy little eyes will read some other words in the meantime while I wait. Simple, yes?

I have a point, let me see if I can remember it...Shit...

Oh, so I am re-reading a book from a while back. The author commented to me, since he's emailed me in the past, that some people love it and some people hate it. And I can honestly say I see both points. But I don't look at the 1st book in the series are the sole indicator. I have read really crappy 1st books and yes went on to read the 2nd, and you know what? The 2nd books was a LOT better. The 3rd even more so. People grow. They learn. And, I think, their characters and stories evolve, the author evolves with them. It's kinda like you teaching your kids and at the same time, your kids teaching you. And for me, some characters are just assholes or whiny or annoying (oh wait, just like in real life!) and sometimes it takes a while for a plot(s) to unfold or for something to really get the juices going. Sometimes it's from the first freaking page. And sometimes it's the last 4 chapters (thank the gods I'm patient!). I remember reading Tommyknockers by Stephen King and wish he had cut out 50% of the book because it was either too random or repetitive of what he had already written. The idea still intrigued me, but the damn, did it really have to be THAT long.

I have had few books that I will never ever read again, and few authors I feel the same way. There are only 2 that come to mind, and both of them mixed straight out Christianity with Fantasy that made me want to scream until the windows shattered. I guess that's my line in the sand. I have NO problem with religion in books, nasty or not, mixed in with fantasy/magic/whatever. But when it's screaming obvious it's Christianity and some really fucked up wanna be "God will Save you, but you must repent your sins and be re-born" shit, it's just the biggest fucking turn off for me. That's just, to me at least, has no place whatsoever in a fantasy book. Ugh //vent

Ok, back to this. So, I am only like a 100 pages into the book right now, don't forget, I keep switching between books still for some unknown freaky deaky reason, but I'm not thinking - this sucks - so, at least that's good right :)

And I might reserve judgment until I read the 2nd and 3rd books. I can usually tell once I'm a little bit more into the series.

Also: Writing styles. Sometimes I am not IN THE DAMN MOOD for certain writing styles. I might not want to read books next in a series that I loved reading in the past, because my mood is just...not with it. Doesn't mean the book(s) are bad or anything. It's all me on that part. And other times, I will devour every book for in a series for weeks on end, and then get burnt out on them for a year or 2. Sometimes I am craving a good hot urban fantasy with some serious sexy stuff in it. Other times, I want straight up fantasy with no hint of sex. Or I want shifters. Or I want Sci-Fi. It really can depend on what the mood calls for. I guess, just like authors, the readers have to be a receptive mood for things to work as well!!

Anyway! I am starting yet another book (I think I read my library books first because I feel obligated so that others who are waiting to read them, don't have to wait too long...does that make sense?), and this one I am nervous about reading. The 1st book was a fucking trip. This one, Unwholly by Neal Shusterman, I am just a little freaked out over. The 1st book was not something I would ever have thought of and this author has a fascinatingly dark mind, so I guess that why I have some trepidation in starting this one. But it's a library book and someone else probably wants to it.

Breathe!!! Just read, damn it!

Ok, I have more thoughts on people who comment on books for later on (hope I don't forget) because it somewhat amazes me how nasty people can be. ~TTYL

Inner Bitch Quote

I liked today's quote, so I thought I'd share!

Many small people, in many small places, do many small things, that can alter the face of the world. 

~ Anonymous

- Your Inner Bitch knows that a simple "I don't think so" may seem small, but it has the power to alter your world. -

Inner Bitch Quotes

"It's not what you are, it's what you don't become that hurts"
- Oscar Levant

"Sometimes the girl who's always there for everyone needs someone to be there for her"
-Anonymous

An Inner Bitch Reminder:
If you don't know where you want to go, how will you ever get there? Plan your work - and your life - and work your plan. Adjust that plan as necessary, but always ask yourself, "What am I thinking?"

"It's the strong ones who ask for help"
-Anonymous


"It takes a might good man to be better than no man at all"
-Dixie Carter