Oh my, I am exhausted. Work is B-U-S-Y! I'm ready to fall asleep as I attempt to actually write a post.
Also: New Favorite Word = WOW
My sinuses are being abused - there is a lot of dust related activities going on at work. Because, you know, breaking down card board is never dust free. Or moving equipment.
Hmmm, I had thoughts when I first started this post I wanted to share. But now they seem to be hiding from me. Don't you hate that!??!!
In other news, my ring sizes are getting smaller. Which is awesome and annoying. Awesome because I'm losing inches/weight but annoying because some of my cool ass rings might be too big to wear if this keeps up. My size 14 jeans are getting looser too. Not quite needing to go the next size down, but I will need to start using my belt :)
Oh, my big sister is coming to visit! I am soooooo excited about that! AND she's going to be here during my birthday = WAY AWESOME!!
Annoying fact I found out - I have poison oak growing in yard. JOYS! So, I attempted to spray some weed killer stuff but I might need to upgrade to the commercial grade version. Me and the kid have sensitive skin, no need to have that stuff around! I've been thinking of really ripping all the stuff out of the front and back yard, let everything fallow over winter and starting fresh in the spring. Except for a couple of the nice butterfly bushes that is. Because, yeah, I don't like the weeds and now poison oak stuff and I also don't like things too close to the AC unit or the house.
Another annoying fact - I have a crack in my shower upstairs. I am going to put in a newer shower head in the downstairs bathroom and use that until I pick up some epoxy to fix that one.
Also: WOW
Oh, maybe I should give Diego a bath tonight, I've been forgetting or putting it off and I REALLY should get that done. But I need to sweep first thing when I get home. I hate how my stairs collect dust and cat hair so easily! Oh and I need to do some laundry as well. It seems like tonight is going to be busy!! And I just want to sleep. Maybe I should make some coffee first when I get home.
Ok, whatever thoughts I had have seriously hidden themselves from me. So I am going to go search for them in some quiet corner and pretend to be productive while at it. Shhhh...
9.18.2013
9.16.2013
This Past Weekend = Awesome
So Friday. I went home early, rested, took one small elusive nap and felt better. Not like LOADS of better, but better. I was able to clean downstairs and do some laundry.
I was in great anticipation for Saturday. Because, Saturday, was Medieval Times! WOOT! We went with a friend and his 2 kids. Said kids are 2 years on either side of my son, and his son who is 10, loves and breathes the same the game as mine. Suffice it to say, they hit it off :) Honestly, I thought they would, but it's always always always a good thing when your kid makes a new friend :)
So, Medieval Times is located in a mall, a somewhat large mall that we got to walk around :) It was fun, the kids got some cool stuff and the memories are incredible. Not much else you can ask for a day out like that :)
I got a couple pics of the Kid, not a whole lot because the boy would not stand still!! And of course, it was too dark inside once the show started. And what a show! OMG, who knew! It was a lot of fun :) Can you sense the theme here?
I drove both ways, which was cool :) I liked driving and listening to the kids talk or my friend tell stories. And singing along with the music. Because, you know, I got that multitasking thing going on. LOL, ok but I did pay attention to driving :)
Now, with me missing a lot of work last week, today has been a bitch! I've been basically going non stop since my morning meeting til now. I am exhausted!! And of course I have a slew of things to do when I get home. My mind is almost boggling at that. I need more time in my days again! Yikes!
Good things: No more period, she's hiding for a few weeks :) That damned UTI seems to be gone as well. That bitch can stay gone! And my cold? Is on it's last legs as well :) I still have some sinus issues, but nothing like it was! Yay!!! Love feeling better :) Also: not smoking as much. Surprising in my mind, but a really good thing over all :^D
This week looks to be kinda busy. I almost miss those days that I didn't have stuff to do. Almost. Of course, there a ton of things I'd rather NOT being doing. AKA fixing house/furniture stuff. But, it is what it is!! I have plans to make, since my awesomeness of a sister will be coming for a visit!! Yay!! SO EXCITED about that! Oh my, I am almost beside myself with that one!!
My birthday is in less than a month, and I am planning on hiding in my bed that day. Or the couch. I am not a big fan of my birthday, and I am not sure if that's a normal thing, sad thing or just-as-you-get-older thing. I don't know. I'm not exactly dreading it per se, just not excited about it. Ohhh, maybe I will buy myself some more rings though! I've already pre-ordered books, but that wasn't as a bday present to myself. Hmmmm. Since I've lost weight, my ring sizes have gone down, which is awesome too.
Sunday, hmmm...I was tired, did some cleaning, minor grocery shopping. I was sorta cranky, I think from those last dregs of being sick. But Sunday night was good.
My brain is starting to shut down though. I need a nap, or at least a moment to NOT think for a brief moment !!!
I do have a couple projects to start, not already including those around the house (ahem, painting!) but I want to make some scarves, or a blanket, I want to make some jewelry.
Also: It's actually bit a tiny bit chilly lately - LOVE IT. Oh and it was raining this morning and I sooooo did not want to get out of bed! I was all curled up and snuggled in.
I was in great anticipation for Saturday. Because, Saturday, was Medieval Times! WOOT! We went with a friend and his 2 kids. Said kids are 2 years on either side of my son, and his son who is 10, loves and breathes the same the game as mine. Suffice it to say, they hit it off :) Honestly, I thought they would, but it's always always always a good thing when your kid makes a new friend :)
So, Medieval Times is located in a mall, a somewhat large mall that we got to walk around :) It was fun, the kids got some cool stuff and the memories are incredible. Not much else you can ask for a day out like that :)
I got a couple pics of the Kid, not a whole lot because the boy would not stand still!! And of course, it was too dark inside once the show started. And what a show! OMG, who knew! It was a lot of fun :) Can you sense the theme here?
I drove both ways, which was cool :) I liked driving and listening to the kids talk or my friend tell stories. And singing along with the music. Because, you know, I got that multitasking thing going on. LOL, ok but I did pay attention to driving :)
Now, with me missing a lot of work last week, today has been a bitch! I've been basically going non stop since my morning meeting til now. I am exhausted!! And of course I have a slew of things to do when I get home. My mind is almost boggling at that. I need more time in my days again! Yikes!
Good things: No more period, she's hiding for a few weeks :) That damned UTI seems to be gone as well. That bitch can stay gone! And my cold? Is on it's last legs as well :) I still have some sinus issues, but nothing like it was! Yay!!! Love feeling better :) Also: not smoking as much. Surprising in my mind, but a really good thing over all :^D
This week looks to be kinda busy. I almost miss those days that I didn't have stuff to do. Almost. Of course, there a ton of things I'd rather NOT being doing. AKA fixing house/furniture stuff. But, it is what it is!! I have plans to make, since my awesomeness of a sister will be coming for a visit!! Yay!! SO EXCITED about that! Oh my, I am almost beside myself with that one!!
My birthday is in less than a month, and I am planning on hiding in my bed that day. Or the couch. I am not a big fan of my birthday, and I am not sure if that's a normal thing, sad thing or just-as-you-get-older thing. I don't know. I'm not exactly dreading it per se, just not excited about it. Ohhh, maybe I will buy myself some more rings though! I've already pre-ordered books, but that wasn't as a bday present to myself. Hmmmm. Since I've lost weight, my ring sizes have gone down, which is awesome too.
Sunday, hmmm...I was tired, did some cleaning, minor grocery shopping. I was sorta cranky, I think from those last dregs of being sick. But Sunday night was good.
My brain is starting to shut down though. I need a nap, or at least a moment to NOT think for a brief moment !!!
I do have a couple projects to start, not already including those around the house (ahem, painting!) but I want to make some scarves, or a blanket, I want to make some jewelry.
Also: It's actually bit a tiny bit chilly lately - LOVE IT. Oh and it was raining this morning and I sooooo did not want to get out of bed! I was all curled up and snuggled in.
9.13.2013
Freaky Friday
I'm still sick. Slightly better, so am at work at least. The Kid is feeling completely normal (must be nice) and he's at school. I think I will be taking things s-l-o-w today. My boss even came by and asked me if I needed more time to rest. Holy shit I must look like death warmed over! I told him no, that I should be fine but am taking things slow. And seriously, if I start lagging something bad, will head home early.
I has plans tomorrow. Exciting plans, fun plans. Plans I am really looking forward to. So. I WILL BE BETTER DAMN IT!!! BWahahahahaha
Wednesday I killed me some spiders. Last night, I saw 2 of the bitches again though, but sprayed them. Because, yeah, those fuckers really really REALLY wig me out.
Ok, so I came home early, getting ready to take a nap and then clean up the house later on. I need to take my meds as well. I did have soup though, drank some tea. Which is always good. Soup did wonders for me I think. I always add in garlic and paprika to my chicken noodle soup, it just seems to make it yummier.
Right now I'm watching the kitten freak out over a fly or something outside. It's rather funny. She is so adorable, love it. She is so beautiful, and her fur is seriously soft.
My period is almost over, thank the gods. My UTI is still here though, but hopefully it will be done in a couple days. I am looking forward to not having all these things at once! LOL, it's been just lovely. At least I know my cold is due from allergies. I am not the only one at work that's sick and we all seem to have allergies.
I have to use or lost my remaining sick time and personal holiday. I will use my personal holiday for my bday next month. As for my remaining sick time, well...I have no idea. I do have a couple dentist appointments coming up, but they won't take up the 40+ hours. I think that's one of the reasons I didn't mind calling out yesterday or leaving early today. May as well...Maybe I will take off time for my period, whether I need or not, for the next couple of months and that will help drain those hours down.
OK, my brain is not quite functioning it seems. Meds, then sleep. Then cleaning. I have this thing it seems about cleaning my floors. Who knew.
I has plans tomorrow. Exciting plans, fun plans. Plans I am really looking forward to. So. I WILL BE BETTER DAMN IT!!! BWahahahahaha
Wednesday I killed me some spiders. Last night, I saw 2 of the bitches again though, but sprayed them. Because, yeah, those fuckers really really REALLY wig me out.
Ok, so I came home early, getting ready to take a nap and then clean up the house later on. I need to take my meds as well. I did have soup though, drank some tea. Which is always good. Soup did wonders for me I think. I always add in garlic and paprika to my chicken noodle soup, it just seems to make it yummier.
Right now I'm watching the kitten freak out over a fly or something outside. It's rather funny. She is so adorable, love it. She is so beautiful, and her fur is seriously soft.
My period is almost over, thank the gods. My UTI is still here though, but hopefully it will be done in a couple days. I am looking forward to not having all these things at once! LOL, it's been just lovely. At least I know my cold is due from allergies. I am not the only one at work that's sick and we all seem to have allergies.
I have to use or lost my remaining sick time and personal holiday. I will use my personal holiday for my bday next month. As for my remaining sick time, well...I have no idea. I do have a couple dentist appointments coming up, but they won't take up the 40+ hours. I think that's one of the reasons I didn't mind calling out yesterday or leaving early today. May as well...Maybe I will take off time for my period, whether I need or not, for the next couple of months and that will help drain those hours down.
OK, my brain is not quite functioning it seems. Meds, then sleep. Then cleaning. I have this thing it seems about cleaning my floors. Who knew.
9.11.2013
Wednesday's Woe
So, not only is my monthly little friend tormenting my poor uterus, my bladder had decided to punish me as well. Nothing quite like that burning sensation when you go pee first thing in the morning!!
Of course, I got my lovely UTI, at least more than likely, from my Brazilian wax starting to grow back in. This is one of the reasons why I went to get waxed again this past weekend...I was hoping to head it of. But, alas, it was not meant to be. See, I know this is why I got it because this happened to me the last time I had one as well. Me and my lovely fucking sensitive skin!! UGH.
Yesterday, I probably drank 100 oz of water and peed more often than office full of pregnant women.
I'm taking Uva Ursi for it. Yes, I know most people go to the Dr. and get antibiotics. I am just not a big fan of pharmaceuticals. And I've had these in the past and taken Uva Ursi and it's always worked for me. Just gotta remember to NOT drink or eat things that are acidic. Like cranberry juice, because that causes the Uva Ursi to not work. Learned that one the hard way!! Research people, always research!!
My allergies are acting up today too - I almost, ALMOST, feel like it's a cold. So bloody annoying. I swear to the gods, my body is just hating me at the moment!!
Work, is well, (shock) busy. Which is good :) Always good that :)
Hmmm....let's see. What else...tomorrow is the Band Boosters meeting. Joys.
I did not go to Lowe's yesterday, so I will attempt to do so today. Because, you know, those bitches still gotta go. In fact! This morning, I get in my car, put my hand on the steering wheel and felt something fuzzy. I should not be feeling something fuzzy. Me being fuzzy is completely different. And what was this fuzzy thing I felt, you ask? Oh, you know, just a little spider. To say I freaked the fuck out puts it mildly. I jumped out of my car and saw said spider dangling by one of it's threads. I gently moved the thread and the spider hit the side of that thingy that has the drive shaft. To which then I took my foot and smashed it. Dead. Yeah, now I have a dead spider partially on my shoe and in my car. Ewwwww.
I needed coffee, UTI or no UTI. I also got water though and started drinking it first. Spiders before coffee should NOT be allowed. Period. As in against the law or something.
Oh! That reminds me, some idiot fuckers in Western Maryland want 5 counties to secede and this quote killed me:
Oh the comments under the articles crack me up. Seriously, some people are just fucking stupid. As in scary stupid.
Of course, I doubt this will really happen. It's just annoying. For reals.
Link from CNN:
http://www.abc2news.com/dpp/news/region/carroll_county/group-calls-for-western-maryland-counties-to-secede?hpt=us_bn7
Local News Article:
http://www.herald-mail.com/news/local/hm-group-calls-for-western-md-counties-to-secede-20130909,0,5846199.story
Of course, I got my lovely UTI, at least more than likely, from my Brazilian wax starting to grow back in. This is one of the reasons why I went to get waxed again this past weekend...I was hoping to head it of. But, alas, it was not meant to be. See, I know this is why I got it because this happened to me the last time I had one as well. Me and my lovely fucking sensitive skin!! UGH.
Yesterday, I probably drank 100 oz of water and peed more often than office full of pregnant women.
I'm taking Uva Ursi for it. Yes, I know most people go to the Dr. and get antibiotics. I am just not a big fan of pharmaceuticals. And I've had these in the past and taken Uva Ursi and it's always worked for me. Just gotta remember to NOT drink or eat things that are acidic. Like cranberry juice, because that causes the Uva Ursi to not work. Learned that one the hard way!! Research people, always research!!
My allergies are acting up today too - I almost, ALMOST, feel like it's a cold. So bloody annoying. I swear to the gods, my body is just hating me at the moment!!
Work, is well, (shock) busy. Which is good :) Always good that :)
Hmmm....let's see. What else...tomorrow is the Band Boosters meeting. Joys.
I did not go to Lowe's yesterday, so I will attempt to do so today. Because, you know, those bitches still gotta go. In fact! This morning, I get in my car, put my hand on the steering wheel and felt something fuzzy. I should not be feeling something fuzzy. Me being fuzzy is completely different. And what was this fuzzy thing I felt, you ask? Oh, you know, just a little spider. To say I freaked the fuck out puts it mildly. I jumped out of my car and saw said spider dangling by one of it's threads. I gently moved the thread and the spider hit the side of that thingy that has the drive shaft. To which then I took my foot and smashed it. Dead. Yeah, now I have a dead spider partially on my shoe and in my car. Ewwwww.
I needed coffee, UTI or no UTI. I also got water though and started drinking it first. Spiders before coffee should NOT be allowed. Period. As in against the law or something.
Oh! That reminds me, some idiot fuckers in Western Maryland want 5 counties to secede and this quote killed me:
Carroll County resident Scott Strzelczyk, leader of the “Western Maryland Initiative,” says people are fed up with the liberal majority and want an "amicable divorce."That's right, because those liberals are such hard asses and because they vote and you don't like it, therefore you must have your own state. Ahem. If the majority of people felt the way these idiots did, then elections and alcohol taxes would have ended up different. But nooooo, you're upset because for once, you aren't majority and you're not getting your way and therefore must throw a tantrum! Listen assholes, there is always someone else getting what they want. Always. Times change, people and cultures change and either you are part of that change or you are what's changed. Life is just like that. Reality sucks, I know, but come on - either you realize it or live in some alternate version of things. And you know what? Liberals probably felt this way too, when YOU assholes were more in office. So what did they do? The worked the system and got the majority. It's always a fucking gamble with any form of politics. The whole thing gives me a headache.
Oh the comments under the articles crack me up. Seriously, some people are just fucking stupid. As in scary stupid.
Of course, I doubt this will really happen. It's just annoying. For reals.
Link from CNN:
http://www.abc2news.com/dpp/news/region/carroll_county/group-calls-for-western-maryland-counties-to-secede?hpt=us_bn7
Local News Article:
http://www.herald-mail.com/news/local/hm-group-calls-for-western-md-counties-to-secede-20130909,0,5846199.story
9.10.2013
Cramping My Style
Cramps, oh how I love thee and despise thee.
Cramps, you difficult bitch, thanks for the morning wake up call.
So, yeah as you can see my period is starting to get more friendly with me because she's a complete and utter whore who seems to think my poor uterus is her horrific playground.
Sorry, I didn't get as much sleep as usual last night and I think my brain is still working on fumes. Coffee has yet to really impact my blood stream and what blood I have is starting to leak out of me. Oh the fucking joys of the menstrual cycle.
But the upside of this? This is something like 6 months in a row of me getting my period - which is practically unheard of with me previously (stupid PCOS crap). I attribute some of it to losing weight, less stupidity/stress in my life and maybe my hormones are just starting to behave slightly normally. And the really possibly cool upside - if I'm getting my period, that POSSIBLY means I could at some point get pregnant. Of course, that would be later on, once I am divorced AND with someone for a while!! But it's nice to know that if I/we wanted a kid, it's a possibility. A better one than in years passed when my stupid period hated me. If I get to that point, of course I will see the Dr before even thinking of trying, just to make sure I still don't have those lovely cysts choking my ovaries. That's even if at that point in time I/we want kids. I might just be happy with how things are. Who knows! I'm shutting this part of my brain off now...
Laundry done last night. The kid wants to play a video game tonight when I get home. I might, depending on if I feel like puking my guts out or not.
Also: I absolutely LOVE having the dining room table done. It just makes this house feel more complete, more home than it already did. Now, if I could just start painting the kids room! Ohhhh, maybe I will just go in and clean his room out and get it done. I should probably order his curtains too...and that moon sticker for his ceiling. Curtains first. Will check with him this week to make sure he still likes them or if you justs longer black curtains.
So, I'm a wee bit tired today. Last night, I hit Sam's Club and Martins on the way home, and I was already tired. But damn, I was in both stores, shopped and on my way home in 35 minutes. That must be some kind of record!! And then it was chores, laundry and good conversation :) I couldn't believe how fast time sped by!!
Work is busy, some of it just pc stuff today. I don't know. I just want a nap!!!
Also: I might go to Lowe's at lunch time and buy bug spray. There are spiders, lots of them, surrounding my house like a fucking last stand. I don't like. Nope, not all at. Those fuckers gotta go!
Cramps, you difficult bitch, thanks for the morning wake up call.
So, yeah as you can see my period is starting to get more friendly with me because she's a complete and utter whore who seems to think my poor uterus is her horrific playground.
Sorry, I didn't get as much sleep as usual last night and I think my brain is still working on fumes. Coffee has yet to really impact my blood stream and what blood I have is starting to leak out of me. Oh the fucking joys of the menstrual cycle.
But the upside of this? This is something like 6 months in a row of me getting my period - which is practically unheard of with me previously (stupid PCOS crap). I attribute some of it to losing weight, less stupidity/stress in my life and maybe my hormones are just starting to behave slightly normally. And the really possibly cool upside - if I'm getting my period, that POSSIBLY means I could at some point get pregnant. Of course, that would be later on, once I am divorced AND with someone for a while!! But it's nice to know that if I/we wanted a kid, it's a possibility. A better one than in years passed when my stupid period hated me. If I get to that point, of course I will see the Dr before even thinking of trying, just to make sure I still don't have those lovely cysts choking my ovaries. That's even if at that point in time I/we want kids. I might just be happy with how things are. Who knows! I'm shutting this part of my brain off now...
Laundry done last night. The kid wants to play a video game tonight when I get home. I might, depending on if I feel like puking my guts out or not.
Also: I absolutely LOVE having the dining room table done. It just makes this house feel more complete, more home than it already did. Now, if I could just start painting the kids room! Ohhhh, maybe I will just go in and clean his room out and get it done. I should probably order his curtains too...and that moon sticker for his ceiling. Curtains first. Will check with him this week to make sure he still likes them or if you justs longer black curtains.
So, I'm a wee bit tired today. Last night, I hit Sam's Club and Martins on the way home, and I was already tired. But damn, I was in both stores, shopped and on my way home in 35 minutes. That must be some kind of record!! And then it was chores, laundry and good conversation :) I couldn't believe how fast time sped by!!
Work is busy, some of it just pc stuff today. I don't know. I just want a nap!!!
Also: I might go to Lowe's at lunch time and buy bug spray. There are spiders, lots of them, surrounding my house like a fucking last stand. I don't like. Nope, not all at. Those fuckers gotta go!
9.09.2013
Monday Madness
So this weekend -
Let's see, the dining room table is finally finished!! So unbelievably happy about this!!! I watched mostly, but I did help a little bit!! It's amazing how some people are just really good at that type of thing. I am coming to realize that I am not one of them!!! LOL - Mainly because the DVD/CD Media bookcase I put together? Well...it will get the job done but it sure ain't pretty!! LOL - It's almost kinda sad!! But, it's done. Right? Maybe...I'm still laughing about it so that should say something!!
Back to the dining room table, the kid and I actually ate at it last night - and let me tell you - it was so nice and wonderful and just felt good. Like family should be.
Saturday, that was when I did the DVD/CD thingy - while watching Pitch Perfect again. I also re-arranged my living room just a bit, and I like it so far. Not sure if it's going to stay that way, but will see :) I need to find some place for this mirror I have. If not, it might end up in the attic for a while. The walls in my living room, it's just kinda weird in a way because there is SO much of them, that I am having a hard time finding the right artwork that I want. Hmmm. I think I need to go shopping at Pier 1 or something.
Also: Cake
I cleaned a little bit on Saturday, though I should have probably done some laundry, I guess I will tonight after we go grocery shopping.
Oh I also laid out and got my pale ass some sun! That was sooooo nice. I put some music on my iPod nano, sprayed on some oil and took my pale self outside with a towel and pillow. I flipped sides every 5 songs (give or take) so that I wouldn't burn. I had a hat for covering my face. And it was sooo nice. I want to do this more often!!
Sunday, Sunday...I don't remember...oh that's right! I had this really weird/fucked up dream about my ex-stepsister-in-law. I need to text/email that to her. And since my period is just starting (it's being wishy washy on me today for some reason, stupid period) my hormones have been all over the place. Stupid hormones need to get a life. A good life.
Oh, I also got waxed last night. It's only been 3 weeks, however, in the past if I've had a Brazilian done and it's NOT up kept, UTI or yeast infections will ensue. Not something I want. I actually felt the very start of a UTI yesterday, so Uva Ursi regiment has already started. I think I will be able to head it off and flush it out of my system, especially considering how much fucking water I drink. I didn't get the legs waxed, those can wait another few weeks easy (besides it's not like they are that hairy, it just seems certain patches grow in faster - so weird). But I'm glad I got the Hu Ha done.
Also: hot wax down there feels good.
(the ripping of hair out, not so much, just focus on the yummy hot wax)
Work is going to be busy today, I can already tell. Which is good!! I'd rather be busy than bored, any day :)
Let's see, the dining room table is finally finished!! So unbelievably happy about this!!! I watched mostly, but I did help a little bit!! It's amazing how some people are just really good at that type of thing. I am coming to realize that I am not one of them!!! LOL - Mainly because the DVD/CD Media bookcase I put together? Well...it will get the job done but it sure ain't pretty!! LOL - It's almost kinda sad!! But, it's done. Right? Maybe...I'm still laughing about it so that should say something!!
Back to the dining room table, the kid and I actually ate at it last night - and let me tell you - it was so nice and wonderful and just felt good. Like family should be.
Saturday, that was when I did the DVD/CD thingy - while watching Pitch Perfect again. I also re-arranged my living room just a bit, and I like it so far. Not sure if it's going to stay that way, but will see :) I need to find some place for this mirror I have. If not, it might end up in the attic for a while. The walls in my living room, it's just kinda weird in a way because there is SO much of them, that I am having a hard time finding the right artwork that I want. Hmmm. I think I need to go shopping at Pier 1 or something.
Also: Cake
I cleaned a little bit on Saturday, though I should have probably done some laundry, I guess I will tonight after we go grocery shopping.
Oh I also laid out and got my pale ass some sun! That was sooooo nice. I put some music on my iPod nano, sprayed on some oil and took my pale self outside with a towel and pillow. I flipped sides every 5 songs (give or take) so that I wouldn't burn. I had a hat for covering my face. And it was sooo nice. I want to do this more often!!
Sunday, Sunday...I don't remember...oh that's right! I had this really weird/fucked up dream about my ex-stepsister-in-law. I need to text/email that to her. And since my period is just starting (it's being wishy washy on me today for some reason, stupid period) my hormones have been all over the place. Stupid hormones need to get a life. A good life.
Oh, I also got waxed last night. It's only been 3 weeks, however, in the past if I've had a Brazilian done and it's NOT up kept, UTI or yeast infections will ensue. Not something I want. I actually felt the very start of a UTI yesterday, so Uva Ursi regiment has already started. I think I will be able to head it off and flush it out of my system, especially considering how much fucking water I drink. I didn't get the legs waxed, those can wait another few weeks easy (besides it's not like they are that hairy, it just seems certain patches grow in faster - so weird). But I'm glad I got the Hu Ha done.
Also: hot wax down there feels good.
(the ripping of hair out, not so much, just focus on the yummy hot wax)
Work is going to be busy today, I can already tell. Which is good!! I'd rather be busy than bored, any day :)
8.28.2013
8.24.2013
Weekend Life
So today I actually made it out of the house (score!) and went to JC Penny and Target. At JC Penny I went bra shopping. I guess they are doing some redecorating though, which meant less changing rooms and re-arrangement of clothes. So, I finally found the lingere area (why is it right by the kids clothes? Really? Sexy panties and everything just sitting out there for 5 years to ogle??) So, I decided to pick a couple brands, try 2 bra sizes (40 B and 38 B) to see which ones would fit better. The 40 B was comfy, but just a shade large. Minor. Tried the 38 B, it FIT. YES. But the cup was too small. WTH? I thought that your cup size is your cup size, but I guess not. So, I went back and got a 38 C and that bitch fit perfectly! OMFG, NICE!!! So, how that fucking works I have no bloody idea, but I won't argue :)
I kinda ended up splurging. I mean, I've lost something like 21-22 lbs since March and they were freaking cute AND on sale. Win Win in my opinion. And do you have any idea HOW LONG it's been since I've been able to buy cute sexy bras?? YEARS. Stupid 40 and up sizes, just doesn't happen. Or at least, it's few and far between. And usually expensive. So, I ended up get something like 8 bras and 3 cute panties. And a blanket. Don't ask. I am a total blanket whore. I have this thing for textures, especially on my feet. Also: My kid keeps stealing MY blanket and leaves me his and damn it, I just want my own damned blanket!
Then I head downstairs to the bathing suits. Because, you know, I have this cruise coming up in a few months (SO EXCITED) and it's a Caribbean cruise, which means SUN and therefore I must have some bathing suits. Found a cute shorts and bikini top :)
Also, another thing I noticed is that I've gone down in sizes from XL to L, another huge plus :) Makes me feel good :D
Then I headed over to Target, got another bikini top, a skirt (nothing fancy) and some new sheets.
Then I went to the local Asian Market, picked up some snacks and Aloe juice and finally headed home. I was only out for 2 hours. It felt like a whole day.
So, home, did 2 loads of laundry, cleaned a little bit, read some and have been watching some TV. No nap, alas. Stupid naps fucking avoid me. I did organize some CDs though too, which I need to finish. About 75% done with that, and then I will probably go back or put them in alphabetical order or something. Because, well, I can.
Like how I seriously contemplated mowing my lawn. I really really did. Instead I put on one of my bikini tops, and hung out doing all the above. It's a cute bikini top :^D
Tomorrow, it's Lowe's and grocery shopping. And hopefully more cleaning. Maybe mowing the lawn. MAYBE. Again, it would have to be in a bikini top because I am so damned white I would probably scare a ghost.
Tonight, I might make some bread, pack up my beads. I got in a mood and made a bracelet for a friends daughter. She's a bit goth I think, not 100% sure, so it's all black and red. Pretty onyx and red tigers eye. And hopefully get to bed before 1 am, unlike last night. Right now I'm watching a Bruce Willis movie. Maybe make some popcorn. I don't know. Hmmm. I'm tired though. And I still have some things I need to clean up and really don't feel like it right now. Is it sad I'm tired from putting sheets on my bed?
Popcorn it is :)
EDIT: I am making cookies tomorrow. Almost forgot that!!
I kinda ended up splurging. I mean, I've lost something like 21-22 lbs since March and they were freaking cute AND on sale. Win Win in my opinion. And do you have any idea HOW LONG it's been since I've been able to buy cute sexy bras?? YEARS. Stupid 40 and up sizes, just doesn't happen. Or at least, it's few and far between. And usually expensive. So, I ended up get something like 8 bras and 3 cute panties. And a blanket. Don't ask. I am a total blanket whore. I have this thing for textures, especially on my feet. Also: My kid keeps stealing MY blanket and leaves me his and damn it, I just want my own damned blanket!
Then I head downstairs to the bathing suits. Because, you know, I have this cruise coming up in a few months (SO EXCITED) and it's a Caribbean cruise, which means SUN and therefore I must have some bathing suits. Found a cute shorts and bikini top :)
Also, another thing I noticed is that I've gone down in sizes from XL to L, another huge plus :) Makes me feel good :D
Then I headed over to Target, got another bikini top, a skirt (nothing fancy) and some new sheets.
Then I went to the local Asian Market, picked up some snacks and Aloe juice and finally headed home. I was only out for 2 hours. It felt like a whole day.
So, home, did 2 loads of laundry, cleaned a little bit, read some and have been watching some TV. No nap, alas. Stupid naps fucking avoid me. I did organize some CDs though too, which I need to finish. About 75% done with that, and then I will probably go back or put them in alphabetical order or something. Because, well, I can.
Like how I seriously contemplated mowing my lawn. I really really did. Instead I put on one of my bikini tops, and hung out doing all the above. It's a cute bikini top :^D
Tomorrow, it's Lowe's and grocery shopping. And hopefully more cleaning. Maybe mowing the lawn. MAYBE. Again, it would have to be in a bikini top because I am so damned white I would probably scare a ghost.
Tonight, I might make some bread, pack up my beads. I got in a mood and made a bracelet for a friends daughter. She's a bit goth I think, not 100% sure, so it's all black and red. Pretty onyx and red tigers eye. And hopefully get to bed before 1 am, unlike last night. Right now I'm watching a Bruce Willis movie. Maybe make some popcorn. I don't know. Hmmm. I'm tired though. And I still have some things I need to clean up and really don't feel like it right now. Is it sad I'm tired from putting sheets on my bed?
Popcorn it is :)
EDIT: I am making cookies tomorrow. Almost forgot that!!
7.05.2013
Habitat for Humanity Pick Up SUCKS
So, they did NOT call me before showing up at my house - not cool. They said they were going to!!
Instead, I got a call from my kid.
I then called them, and said I would be there in 10 minutes. And on my way there, literally a block from my house, I saw that they called and left a vm.
I called immediately, instead of listening to said vm, and the somewhat not so nice lady said they won't be able to pick it up today, literally 10 fucking minutes from when they were 1st there, for several weeks and that I should call Salvation Army.
I asked if they just couldn't turn around because you know, they just left, she said no.
Motherfuckers.
You know, if she was just a little bit nicer, I wouldn't be so damned pissed.
You know, if they had called me BEFORE they showed up, like they were supposed to, I wouldn't be so damned pissed.
Assholes.
So, I called Salvation Army, there will be at my place Monday - and yes they said they would call me before showing up so that I can actually be there!!
Let's hope it goes as planned.
I am going to try to clean up the couch a little bit, vacuum it and see if I can get those little spots out.
Ugh.
Instead, I got a call from my kid.
I then called them, and said I would be there in 10 minutes. And on my way there, literally a block from my house, I saw that they called and left a vm.
I called immediately, instead of listening to said vm, and the somewhat not so nice lady said they won't be able to pick it up today, literally 10 fucking minutes from when they were 1st there, for several weeks and that I should call Salvation Army.
I asked if they just couldn't turn around because you know, they just left, she said no.
Motherfuckers.
You know, if she was just a little bit nicer, I wouldn't be so damned pissed.
You know, if they had called me BEFORE they showed up, like they were supposed to, I wouldn't be so damned pissed.
Assholes.
So, I called Salvation Army, there will be at my place Monday - and yes they said they would call me before showing up so that I can actually be there!!
Let's hope it goes as planned.
I am going to try to clean up the couch a little bit, vacuum it and see if I can get those little spots out.
Ugh.
Inner Bitch Quotes
July 2nd 2013:
An Inner Bitch Reminder: Toxic Niceness, the Disease to Please - call it what you will, it's dangerous.
April 2nd 2013:
"Sugar and spice and everything nice, that's what little girls are made of" is the start of Toxic Niceness. Let's replace this silly slogan with something more empowering, like "Girls will be girls"
April 12th 2013:
Let's stop praising girls (and ourselves) only for being "nice" and encourage them to speak up for themselves - the truth is that girls need to be tough at least as often as they need to be agreeable.
May 18/19 2013:
"In passing, also, I would like to say that the first time Adam had a chance, he laid the blame on a woman." ~ Nancy Astor, first woman elected to Britain's House of Commons, born 5/19/1879
An Inner Bitch Reminder: Toxic Niceness, the Disease to Please - call it what you will, it's dangerous.
April 2nd 2013:
"Sugar and spice and everything nice, that's what little girls are made of" is the start of Toxic Niceness. Let's replace this silly slogan with something more empowering, like "Girls will be girls"
April 12th 2013:
Let's stop praising girls (and ourselves) only for being "nice" and encourage them to speak up for themselves - the truth is that girls need to be tough at least as often as they need to be agreeable.
May 18/19 2013:
"In passing, also, I would like to say that the first time Adam had a chance, he laid the blame on a woman." ~ Nancy Astor, first woman elected to Britain's House of Commons, born 5/19/1879
Donating to Habitat for Humanity and more things going on
Well, the couch we've had for the last several years is just going to have to go. And my old desk. Because, they don't fit well enough in the house.
So, I called Habitat for Humanity, and they will be coming to pick those up (hopefully today). Which I think is an awesome solution. I know they will go to a good home and make someone else happy and I don't have to worry about finding a way to get rid of them!!
My lawn mower is being delivered today (yay!) - Have I mentioned I love Amazon? It's a reel lawn mover, which means it's not electric or gas - just an old fashion push on. No carbon print, more hard work. Which suits me just fine for the little yard that I do have :) I've also ordered a trimmer on Amazon, because even with my 10% discount at Lowes, Amazon is still cheaper (and I have free 2 day shipping still).
I've put together the 2 end tables and coffee table - they were bigger than I thought! Wow. Only 1 of them wobbles a little bit, but will figure out how to fix that. I also put together one of the cat litter disguises, which was fun. Love me some drill action ;) I was going to do my dining room table, but my brain just rebelled against the idea so I did some laundry, put the empty & broken down cardboard boxes into my car (and put in recycling at work this morning), put away some clothes, and watched TV. Oh and I hung up (badly) 1 too short black out curtain in the Kid's room, but it's only temporary anyways until his room is painted and we get the curtains he really wants in it. But I could tell it at least made the room less hot. His gets FULL sunlight all morning long, so I hope to get the 2nd curtain up this weekend. I should also do my room - am trying to figure out what I want in there. I am definitely going to paint it, just need to figure out a good color :) Maybe a pale violet? And have an accent wall painted something else? Not sure yet!! I am also researching how to how to paint to that faded look - for the office and the kids room. He wants a moon on his ceiling, and we've talked about a using a semi dark twilight color. He said he wants it to fade lighter though. So, I will paint the office first, trying to see if I can get it fade from dark to light well enough to do that in his room.
My jeans are still a little bit loose, which is nice :)
I need a freaking nap though.
Oh, last night - July 4th?? Well, we're about a block or so over from a large park where they do fireworks every year. You could totally see them from our front porch! It was awesome! And because of how the wind was blowing, it looked like they were aimed directly for our house! OMG, I wish I had taken pictures. And then we noticed, it sounded like it was raining...Well it wasn't raining, it was just the blown up pieces of fireworks!! It was a trip. Inside the house, the booming was super loud, some of the windows rattled a little bit and the cats - awww the poor kitties - hid until it was over and then were still a bit freaked. Next year, I am soooo taking pictures though!
We have these Evergreen scrubs along out fence and by the side of the house. I've read that they are poisonous to cats and they certainly attract a lot of freaking flies - I am going to cut them back a lot (once my trimmer is here) and then see what I can do to replace them with something else - you know, something maybe berry/edible that would also look nice? or at least flowery and provides shade? I don't mind bees, but I don't like flies.
Last night I put out the trash, thank the gods. It is supposed to normally go out on Wednesdays, but due to the holiday it was last night. I had plenty from moving and unpacking so now I am looking for a large outdoor trash bin to shove it in every week. And work gloves. And a step ladder for inside (will need a larger ladder for outside, but later) and pad locks and a hose! So much to do!! I need a nap!
I am not sure if we're going to make it to IKEA this weekend. Am dropping off the twin mattress to my cousin tomorrow afternoon and I really need to get some more stuff put away/together before I add even more furniture/stuff to the place. But I don't want to go alone next weekend (the Ex has the kid and it's a 1 1/2 hour drive each way). So, hmmm. I will figure something out. I also need to go grocery shopping so we have real food and not just snacks in the house.
So tonight, after heading over to Lowes for some minor stuff, I need to change out one of the shower heads to mine, put in a shower liner in the downstairs bathroom (oh and change that shower head when I find the freaking thing - also need to figure how to switch from bath to shower!), and see if I can get my internet up and running. That is a must.
Good times!!
So, I called Habitat for Humanity, and they will be coming to pick those up (hopefully today). Which I think is an awesome solution. I know they will go to a good home and make someone else happy and I don't have to worry about finding a way to get rid of them!!
My lawn mower is being delivered today (yay!) - Have I mentioned I love Amazon? It's a reel lawn mover, which means it's not electric or gas - just an old fashion push on. No carbon print, more hard work. Which suits me just fine for the little yard that I do have :) I've also ordered a trimmer on Amazon, because even with my 10% discount at Lowes, Amazon is still cheaper (and I have free 2 day shipping still).
I've put together the 2 end tables and coffee table - they were bigger than I thought! Wow. Only 1 of them wobbles a little bit, but will figure out how to fix that. I also put together one of the cat litter disguises, which was fun. Love me some drill action ;) I was going to do my dining room table, but my brain just rebelled against the idea so I did some laundry, put the empty & broken down cardboard boxes into my car (and put in recycling at work this morning), put away some clothes, and watched TV. Oh and I hung up (badly) 1 too short black out curtain in the Kid's room, but it's only temporary anyways until his room is painted and we get the curtains he really wants in it. But I could tell it at least made the room less hot. His gets FULL sunlight all morning long, so I hope to get the 2nd curtain up this weekend. I should also do my room - am trying to figure out what I want in there. I am definitely going to paint it, just need to figure out a good color :) Maybe a pale violet? And have an accent wall painted something else? Not sure yet!! I am also researching how to how to paint to that faded look - for the office and the kids room. He wants a moon on his ceiling, and we've talked about a using a semi dark twilight color. He said he wants it to fade lighter though. So, I will paint the office first, trying to see if I can get it fade from dark to light well enough to do that in his room.
My jeans are still a little bit loose, which is nice :)
I need a freaking nap though.
Oh, last night - July 4th?? Well, we're about a block or so over from a large park where they do fireworks every year. You could totally see them from our front porch! It was awesome! And because of how the wind was blowing, it looked like they were aimed directly for our house! OMG, I wish I had taken pictures. And then we noticed, it sounded like it was raining...Well it wasn't raining, it was just the blown up pieces of fireworks!! It was a trip. Inside the house, the booming was super loud, some of the windows rattled a little bit and the cats - awww the poor kitties - hid until it was over and then were still a bit freaked. Next year, I am soooo taking pictures though!
We have these Evergreen scrubs along out fence and by the side of the house. I've read that they are poisonous to cats and they certainly attract a lot of freaking flies - I am going to cut them back a lot (once my trimmer is here) and then see what I can do to replace them with something else - you know, something maybe berry/edible that would also look nice? or at least flowery and provides shade? I don't mind bees, but I don't like flies.
Last night I put out the trash, thank the gods. It is supposed to normally go out on Wednesdays, but due to the holiday it was last night. I had plenty from moving and unpacking so now I am looking for a large outdoor trash bin to shove it in every week. And work gloves. And a step ladder for inside (will need a larger ladder for outside, but later) and pad locks and a hose! So much to do!! I need a nap!
I am not sure if we're going to make it to IKEA this weekend. Am dropping off the twin mattress to my cousin tomorrow afternoon and I really need to get some more stuff put away/together before I add even more furniture/stuff to the place. But I don't want to go alone next weekend (the Ex has the kid and it's a 1 1/2 hour drive each way). So, hmmm. I will figure something out. I also need to go grocery shopping so we have real food and not just snacks in the house.
So tonight, after heading over to Lowes for some minor stuff, I need to change out one of the shower heads to mine, put in a shower liner in the downstairs bathroom (oh and change that shower head when I find the freaking thing - also need to figure how to switch from bath to shower!), and see if I can get my internet up and running. That is a must.
Good times!!
6.20.2013
Karma
So I was reading some comments on a facebook post about what Karma is. So, I know how I think of it but wanted to google it and see what else is out there...
http://www.buddhanet.net/e-learning/karma.htm
Some parts stuck out to me, like:
I do believe in soul journeys. That we experience things right here, right now, to either learn something or teach something. Whether we necessarily understand that or not, our soul is absorbing and disbursing knowledge, etc as we cycle through.
Ok, deep enough for the moment!! I need to do laundry :)
http://www.buddhanet.net/e-learning/karma.htm
Some parts stuck out to me, like:
In other words, it is the result of our own past actions and our own present doings. We ourselves are responsible for our own happiness and misery. We create our own Heaven. We create our own Hell. We are the architects of our own fate.and
"We are the heirs of our own actions."and
Karma does not necessarily mean past actions. It embraces both past and present deeds. Hence in one sense, we are the result of what we were; we will be the result of what we are. In another sense, it should be added, we are not totally the result of what we were; we will not absolutely be the result of what we are. The present is no doubt the offspring of the past and is the present of the future, but the present is not always a true index of either the past or the future; so complex is the working of Karma.I didn't read all of it, but once I move I'm going to. Very interesting...
I do believe in soul journeys. That we experience things right here, right now, to either learn something or teach something. Whether we necessarily understand that or not, our soul is absorbing and disbursing knowledge, etc as we cycle through.
Ok, deep enough for the moment!! I need to do laundry :)
6.04.2013
Not quite Pearls of Wisdom
So, as I was making myself dinner (ahem, egg sandwich - breakfast for dinner) I had some funny thoughts...about well I guess with Life Changes that have been going on and whatnot.
Edit: Ok, they were WAY funnier in my head...
Edit: Ok, they were WAY funnier in my head...
- If you can't quite figure out how to cook for less people than you're used to, cook breakfast for dinner. Still healthy, filling and easy. Especially Egg Sandwiches
- Also: If you don't use a lot of bread, put it in the frig, it will stay fresher longer.
- You don't always have to do the dishes that day, it can wait. But no more than 2 days and only if it's a little bit. Especially when you've had a long and/or shitty day.
- If you get angry, or upset, clean or go take a shower. Either one will make you feel better...a clean house/clean me always makes me feel better. And more clear headed too.
- Reward yourself for staying sane. You're allowed.
- Kittens are amazing.
- Pictures can be fun to take and sometimes makes you get a different perspective on things.
- Vinegar is GREAT for cleaning, anything and everything.
- Boiled eggs are a great snack.
- Vacuum. A lot. Even if it is to piss off your shitty neighbors.
- If someone is being an asshole, remember Karma goes both ways! It's nice to remember you don't have to do or say anything and know that at some point, they will get their own (this also applies to you if you're the one being an asshole, which means don't!). And, of course, if you help someone else, then good things will come your way. Remember that can sometimes help take off that pressure we didn't know we had from bad people/moments.
OK, now my brain is rotting and it's time to go read for a little bit!
5.22.2013
Books, Authors and those who give Reviews
So, since I've joined GoodReads, I have read quite a bit, started writing reviews (and is it sad that I never realized how important it is for authors to have reviews!?!?) and reading what others wrote, learning the whole writing/publishing process, winning/entering giveaways, reading ARCs, etc. You sorta get the picture right?
I have read an authors 1st attempt at writing something to be published, some have been phenomenal and some, left me wanting to wash my eyes out but I can't un-read something. Damn. On those, I have always tried to give value-added suggestions/critique without being a bitch. Because there is no point in being mean or bitchy when someone is TRYING to get their ideas/story/characters to behave!! And not everyone is lucky to have friends or family or whatever that can assist with editing and proofing shit. And honestly, if I think it's in dire need of some sort of actual plot, I am sure others are and it's painful when you invest so much into something to have someone else arbitrarily smash it to itty bitty dots left scattered across the world. And I'm not the only nice one, not saying I am! Just that I have seen some pretty damn harsh reviews and comments on books. Different opinions and perspectives... doesn't mean you have to be mean about it.
No person is perfect. Period. Some of my favorite authors have had grammar mistakes, typos or just written a bad book or 2. It happens! It's not the end of the fucking world. They have dead lines and I don't really think anyone with a lick of creative energy can exactly say "Sure, I will have this 4th installment of my incredibly complicated series done for you by June 30th" never mind that most authors have real jobs, or are stay at home parents, or have a life on top it (sometimes). And let's not even discuss dealing with the whole publishing/self publishing process. Yikes!! You can't force creativity. You can't force your characters to do what you think you want them to do. And even if an author isn't given a specific deadline per se, I think there is that pressure of "I gotta get this done!" and then comes that long line of frustration, agitation, despair, resignation, and hopefully at some point in the swirly twirly miasma, ideas start flowing and things start moving again.
And yes, of course us readers WANT MORE. Because, you know, we're absolutely bored and must have the next installment of your amazing writing capabilities...while in the meantime we're having that same conversation with 20 other of our favorite authors. I have a LONG ASS LIST of favorite authors. LONG ASS LIST!!! And yes, I love so many of the series I've been reading, but that doesn't mean I won't read 150 books while waiting a year or so for the next to come out either. So if there's a couple (or more) months before I get my greedy little eyes on those awesome words, then well...my greedy little eyes will read some other words in the meantime while I wait. Simple, yes?
I have a point, let me see if I can remember it...Shit...
Oh, so I am re-reading a book from a while back. The author commented to me, since he's emailed me in the past, that some people love it and some people hate it. And I can honestly say I see both points. But I don't look at the 1st book in the series are the sole indicator. I have read really crappy 1st books and yes went on to read the 2nd, and you know what? The 2nd books was a LOT better. The 3rd even more so. People grow. They learn. And, I think, their characters and stories evolve, the author evolves with them. It's kinda like you teaching your kids and at the same time, your kids teaching you. And for me, some characters are just assholes or whiny or annoying (oh wait, just like in real life!) and sometimes it takes a while for a plot(s) to unfold or for something to really get the juices going. Sometimes it's from the first freaking page. And sometimes it's the last 4 chapters (thank the gods I'm patient!). I remember reading Tommyknockers by Stephen King and wish he had cut out 50% of the book because it was either too random or repetitive of what he had already written. The idea still intrigued me, but the damn, did it really have to be THAT long.
I have had few books that I will never ever read again, and few authors I feel the same way. There are only 2 that come to mind, and both of them mixed straight out Christianity with Fantasy that made me want to scream until the windows shattered. I guess that's my line in the sand. I have NO problem with religion in books, nasty or not, mixed in with fantasy/magic/whatever. But when it's screaming obvious it's Christianity and some really fucked up wanna be "God will Save you, but you must repent your sins and be re-born" shit, it's just the biggest fucking turn off for me. That's just, to me at least, has no place whatsoever in a fantasy book. Ugh //vent
Ok, back to this. So, I am only like a 100 pages into the book right now, don't forget, I keep switching between books still for some unknown freaky deaky reason, but I'm not thinking - this sucks - so, at least that's good right :)
And I might reserve judgment until I read the 2nd and 3rd books. I can usually tell once I'm a little bit more into the series.
Also: Writing styles. Sometimes I am not IN THE DAMN MOOD for certain writing styles. I might not want to read books next in a series that I loved reading in the past, because my mood is just...not with it. Doesn't mean the book(s) are bad or anything. It's all me on that part. And other times, I will devour every book for in a series for weeks on end, and then get burnt out on them for a year or 2. Sometimes I am craving a good hot urban fantasy with some serious sexy stuff in it. Other times, I want straight up fantasy with no hint of sex. Or I want shifters. Or I want Sci-Fi. It really can depend on what the mood calls for. I guess, just like authors, the readers have to be a receptive mood for things to work as well!!
Anyway! I am starting yet another book (I think I read my library books first because I feel obligated so that others who are waiting to read them, don't have to wait too long...does that make sense?), and this one I am nervous about reading. The 1st book was a fucking trip. This one, Unwholly by Neal Shusterman, I am just a little freaked out over. The 1st book was not something I would ever have thought of and this author has a fascinatingly dark mind, so I guess that why I have some trepidation in starting this one. But it's a library book and someone else probably wants to it.
Breathe!!! Just read, damn it!
Ok, I have more thoughts on people who comment on books for later on (hope I don't forget) because it somewhat amazes me how nasty people can be. ~TTYL
I have read an authors 1st attempt at writing something to be published, some have been phenomenal and some, left me wanting to wash my eyes out but I can't un-read something. Damn. On those, I have always tried to give value-added suggestions/critique without being a bitch. Because there is no point in being mean or bitchy when someone is TRYING to get their ideas/story/characters to behave!! And not everyone is lucky to have friends or family or whatever that can assist with editing and proofing shit. And honestly, if I think it's in dire need of some sort of actual plot, I am sure others are and it's painful when you invest so much into something to have someone else arbitrarily smash it to itty bitty dots left scattered across the world. And I'm not the only nice one, not saying I am! Just that I have seen some pretty damn harsh reviews and comments on books. Different opinions and perspectives... doesn't mean you have to be mean about it.
No person is perfect. Period. Some of my favorite authors have had grammar mistakes, typos or just written a bad book or 2. It happens! It's not the end of the fucking world. They have dead lines and I don't really think anyone with a lick of creative energy can exactly say "Sure, I will have this 4th installment of my incredibly complicated series done for you by June 30th" never mind that most authors have real jobs, or are stay at home parents, or have a life on top it (sometimes). And let's not even discuss dealing with the whole publishing/self publishing process. Yikes!! You can't force creativity. You can't force your characters to do what you think you want them to do. And even if an author isn't given a specific deadline per se, I think there is that pressure of "I gotta get this done!" and then comes that long line of frustration, agitation, despair, resignation, and hopefully at some point in the swirly twirly miasma, ideas start flowing and things start moving again.
And yes, of course us readers WANT MORE. Because, you know, we're absolutely bored and must have the next installment of your amazing writing capabilities...while in the meantime we're having that same conversation with 20 other of our favorite authors. I have a LONG ASS LIST of favorite authors. LONG ASS LIST!!! And yes, I love so many of the series I've been reading, but that doesn't mean I won't read 150 books while waiting a year or so for the next to come out either. So if there's a couple (or more) months before I get my greedy little eyes on those awesome words, then well...my greedy little eyes will read some other words in the meantime while I wait. Simple, yes?
I have a point, let me see if I can remember it...Shit...
Oh, so I am re-reading a book from a while back. The author commented to me, since he's emailed me in the past, that some people love it and some people hate it. And I can honestly say I see both points. But I don't look at the 1st book in the series are the sole indicator. I have read really crappy 1st books and yes went on to read the 2nd, and you know what? The 2nd books was a LOT better. The 3rd even more so. People grow. They learn. And, I think, their characters and stories evolve, the author evolves with them. It's kinda like you teaching your kids and at the same time, your kids teaching you. And for me, some characters are just assholes or whiny or annoying (oh wait, just like in real life!) and sometimes it takes a while for a plot(s) to unfold or for something to really get the juices going. Sometimes it's from the first freaking page. And sometimes it's the last 4 chapters (thank the gods I'm patient!). I remember reading Tommyknockers by Stephen King and wish he had cut out 50% of the book because it was either too random or repetitive of what he had already written. The idea still intrigued me, but the damn, did it really have to be THAT long.
I have had few books that I will never ever read again, and few authors I feel the same way. There are only 2 that come to mind, and both of them mixed straight out Christianity with Fantasy that made me want to scream until the windows shattered. I guess that's my line in the sand. I have NO problem with religion in books, nasty or not, mixed in with fantasy/magic/whatever. But when it's screaming obvious it's Christianity and some really fucked up wanna be "God will Save you, but you must repent your sins and be re-born" shit, it's just the biggest fucking turn off for me. That's just, to me at least, has no place whatsoever in a fantasy book. Ugh //vent
Ok, back to this. So, I am only like a 100 pages into the book right now, don't forget, I keep switching between books still for some unknown freaky deaky reason, but I'm not thinking - this sucks - so, at least that's good right :)
And I might reserve judgment until I read the 2nd and 3rd books. I can usually tell once I'm a little bit more into the series.
Also: Writing styles. Sometimes I am not IN THE DAMN MOOD for certain writing styles. I might not want to read books next in a series that I loved reading in the past, because my mood is just...not with it. Doesn't mean the book(s) are bad or anything. It's all me on that part. And other times, I will devour every book for in a series for weeks on end, and then get burnt out on them for a year or 2. Sometimes I am craving a good hot urban fantasy with some serious sexy stuff in it. Other times, I want straight up fantasy with no hint of sex. Or I want shifters. Or I want Sci-Fi. It really can depend on what the mood calls for. I guess, just like authors, the readers have to be a receptive mood for things to work as well!!
Anyway! I am starting yet another book (I think I read my library books first because I feel obligated so that others who are waiting to read them, don't have to wait too long...does that make sense?), and this one I am nervous about reading. The 1st book was a fucking trip. This one, Unwholly by Neal Shusterman, I am just a little freaked out over. The 1st book was not something I would ever have thought of and this author has a fascinatingly dark mind, so I guess that why I have some trepidation in starting this one. But it's a library book and someone else probably wants to it.
Breathe!!! Just read, damn it!
Ok, I have more thoughts on people who comment on books for later on (hope I don't forget) because it somewhat amazes me how nasty people can be. ~TTYL
4.11.2013
Inner Bitch Quote
I liked today's quote, so I thought I'd share!
Many small people, in many small places, do many small things, that can alter the face of the world.
~ Anonymous
- Your Inner Bitch knows that a simple "I don't think so" may seem small, but it has the power to alter your world. -
4.01.2013
Inner Bitch Quotes
"It's not what you are, it's what you don't become that hurts"
- Oscar Levant
"Sometimes the girl who's always there for everyone needs someone to be there for her"
-Anonymous
An Inner Bitch Reminder:
If you don't know where you want to go, how will you ever get there? Plan your work - and your life - and work your plan. Adjust that plan as necessary, but always ask yourself, "What am I thinking?"
"It's the strong ones who ask for help"
-Anonymous
"It takes a might good man to be better than no man at all"
-Dixie Carter
- Oscar Levant
"Sometimes the girl who's always there for everyone needs someone to be there for her"
-Anonymous
An Inner Bitch Reminder:
If you don't know where you want to go, how will you ever get there? Plan your work - and your life - and work your plan. Adjust that plan as necessary, but always ask yourself, "What am I thinking?"
"It's the strong ones who ask for help"
-Anonymous
"It takes a might good man to be better than no man at all"
-Dixie Carter
3.07.2013
3.01.2013
Fuck It Friday
You know, some days you just need to say Fuck It.
So, no slim fast this morning. This morning, it's McDonald's all the way. Coffee - Check. Egg McMuffin - Check.
I have been craving it all week. I think my memories and cravings turned it into some divine food of the gods. It was good, don't get me wrong, but it was just an Egg McMuffin. I wonder if it's going to keep me going until lunch the way slim fast has been.
Somehow I gained that lovely 1 lbs back, the little fucker. And since it's Chinese food for dinner tonight, I am going to need to work on exercising this weekend and get over, once and for all, this damn fucking number.
Stupid number
Have I mentioned I hate my job? It pays the most I've ever been paid, but really, it's just not my cup of tea. I'm bored. Bored, not that there isn't things I could be doing (ahem, stupid XML for example) but because it's just not enough. I need something TO DO, that at least requires more of my attention. I don't have ADD or ADHD (gods, definitely not that one - hyper is not me) but if the shit is boring, well the shit is boring. I just need something that's at least interesting. And granted, I have 1 or 2 reports that are interesting to me (ok, I am Data Analyst and I really do like creating reports, slicing and dicing, figuring shit out) but those don't take long.
And it's not just the construction, with it's noises, workers conversations or attempts at singing either.
There seems to be this underlining tension between 2 of my coworkers who I deal with the most. Honestly, that doesn't even bother me, there is always something going on at any work place (whether it's affairs, hatreds, religious crap, competitions or what) - I always try to keep away from that crap, because I just don't give a shit.
HONEY BADGER!!!
Some of it is management, but management is typically a crap shoot anyways. It's a job, I'm happy I'm getting paid (the only happy thought for the moment) but I hope that something else can come along and give me something to do.
Anyways!!
Saturday, I might take a drive to West Virginia, just to check out a few things. I have some calls to make, reservations (storage and uhaul) to make so that we can move out stuff out of the FIL's house. I need to cash out my left over 401K as well. Busy bee on Saturday. I want to vacuum the house as well and maybe clean the kitchen. I should charge up my headset so I can talk on the phone while I meander around.
Oh, speaking of kitchens :) I got my new stainless steel pots and pans in :) Quite excited about these, already washed them and cleaned out all the old pans from the cabinets. We even got rid of the wok (it was losing some kind of finishing on it) and so if we ever venture into learning to cook with one again, it will need to be stainless steel as well. But I don't think that will be for a short while, too much shit going on. So, another thing this weekend, will be learning to cook and not burn everything on these :) I've been reading about that, SHOCK I KNOW! and basically low to medium heat, use oil and pay attention to when you're cooking. I can handle that, I hope.
Sunday is one of our anniversary's. See, we got married twice. The first time, was legal and the on the Spring Equinox. The 2nd time was religious (pagan) and for friends/family almost a full year later. Of course, the 2nd one I was also 7 months pregnant which was fun and exhausting. But the date of the month of the 2nd one is earlier than the 1st/legal one. So, did I confuse anyone yet? heehee. We don't usually celebrate both, whichever one has a weekend closest to it.
So, Sunday - I want hibachi and a movie. The movie will probably come first so we can get matinee prices :) We're bring the Brat with us so it will be a fun family day out :^D Thinking of seeing Jack the Giant Killer. Hopefully it's a good movie...
I guess this means I should shave my legs. Ugh.
That's all for now...
So, no slim fast this morning. This morning, it's McDonald's all the way. Coffee - Check. Egg McMuffin - Check.
I have been craving it all week. I think my memories and cravings turned it into some divine food of the gods. It was good, don't get me wrong, but it was just an Egg McMuffin. I wonder if it's going to keep me going until lunch the way slim fast has been.
Somehow I gained that lovely 1 lbs back, the little fucker. And since it's Chinese food for dinner tonight, I am going to need to work on exercising this weekend and get over, once and for all, this damn fucking number.
Stupid number
Have I mentioned I hate my job? It pays the most I've ever been paid, but really, it's just not my cup of tea. I'm bored. Bored, not that there isn't things I could be doing (ahem, stupid XML for example) but because it's just not enough. I need something TO DO, that at least requires more of my attention. I don't have ADD or ADHD (gods, definitely not that one - hyper is not me) but if the shit is boring, well the shit is boring. I just need something that's at least interesting. And granted, I have 1 or 2 reports that are interesting to me (ok, I am Data Analyst and I really do like creating reports, slicing and dicing, figuring shit out) but those don't take long.
And it's not just the construction, with it's noises, workers conversations or attempts at singing either.
There seems to be this underlining tension between 2 of my coworkers who I deal with the most. Honestly, that doesn't even bother me, there is always something going on at any work place (whether it's affairs, hatreds, religious crap, competitions or what) - I always try to keep away from that crap, because I just don't give a shit.
HONEY BADGER!!!
Some of it is management, but management is typically a crap shoot anyways. It's a job, I'm happy I'm getting paid (the only happy thought for the moment) but I hope that something else can come along and give me something to do.
Anyways!!
Saturday, I might take a drive to West Virginia, just to check out a few things. I have some calls to make, reservations (storage and uhaul) to make so that we can move out stuff out of the FIL's house. I need to cash out my left over 401K as well. Busy bee on Saturday. I want to vacuum the house as well and maybe clean the kitchen. I should charge up my headset so I can talk on the phone while I meander around.
Oh, speaking of kitchens :) I got my new stainless steel pots and pans in :) Quite excited about these, already washed them and cleaned out all the old pans from the cabinets. We even got rid of the wok (it was losing some kind of finishing on it) and so if we ever venture into learning to cook with one again, it will need to be stainless steel as well. But I don't think that will be for a short while, too much shit going on. So, another thing this weekend, will be learning to cook and not burn everything on these :) I've been reading about that, SHOCK I KNOW! and basically low to medium heat, use oil and pay attention to when you're cooking. I can handle that, I hope.
Sunday is one of our anniversary's. See, we got married twice. The first time, was legal and the on the Spring Equinox. The 2nd time was religious (pagan) and for friends/family almost a full year later. Of course, the 2nd one I was also 7 months pregnant which was fun and exhausting. But the date of the month of the 2nd one is earlier than the 1st/legal one. So, did I confuse anyone yet? heehee. We don't usually celebrate both, whichever one has a weekend closest to it.
So, Sunday - I want hibachi and a movie. The movie will probably come first so we can get matinee prices :) We're bring the Brat with us so it will be a fun family day out :^D Thinking of seeing Jack the Giant Killer. Hopefully it's a good movie...
I guess this means I should shave my legs. Ugh.
That's all for now...
2.27.2013
Book Review: The Silvered by Tanya Huff
The Silvered by Tanya HuffMy rating: 5 of 5 stars
I know I've read Tanya Huff in the past but it's been years. At first, the cover and title drew me to this book and I am really really happy that they did.
This story was absolutely amazing. The lead heroine, Mirian, was quick witted, smart and amazingly resolute. Loved her character. I also loved how the Alpha Mage, Danika, was able to keep her group secure and thinking even in the mist of their own personal hell.
For the male leads, I almost wish so many of them didn't go in the beginning, but that would have changed the story too much. Losing them, really built the rest of what was to happen. And those remaining, Thomas (specifically), was young and fresh but also battle worn and instinctive. He is such a good balance to Mirian, even though a lot of it was frustrating! But in a good way.
I really want to read what happens next. It was heart breaking and inspiring, fast paced and non stop pulling towards the unfolding of events. This was a complicated story with many emotions and moving parts.
Loved it
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Book Review: Dying Bites (The Bloodhound Files #1) by D.D. Barant
Dying Bites by D.D. BarantMy rating: 3 of 5 stars
This is a unique take on the whole vampire/were/other type of novel. Loved the updated inclusion of golems to boot. In fact, I think one of my favorite characters was the golem, Charlie. For having no real face to speak of, his personality came through quite amazingly.
There is a lot of potential, (which is always good with a 1st book in a series) and I hope that there is more consistency with the next novels. I had a bit of a hard time on how the main character, Jace, was able to just fall right into relationships/life in a completely new universe, parallel or not. Yes, she had struggles adapting but at the same time, not enough.
Some of the other characters, Cassius and Gretchen, seemed ok, and I hope that in the following books in the series their characters get more definition. In this book, the associated positon of the characters vs. personality didn't quite line up.
It kept my interest enough that I do want to read the next book, and hopefully that one leads into another.
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Book Review: The Many Sins of Lord Cameron (Highland Pleasures #3) by Jennifer Ashley
The Many Sins of Lord Cameron by Jennifer AshleyMy rating: 4 of 5 stars
This was one of my favorites of the Highland Pleasures series.
It was slightly more complicated in the plot, between the rumors, politics, royal love interests and the life of the ton always keeping tabs. This book felt better paced than the last one.
The twist on how, in this particular case, the man was abused in a relationship was well written. It's not something most people would ever hear of let alone think about. It changes Cameron, all his relationships and views on them, making him more roguish and less at the same time.
At the same time, Ainsley I loved because she was so clear sighted about many things. Not to mention patient.
It's a great series, all of the Mackenzie's brothers are yummy to read about.
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Book Review: Red Country (The First Law World) by Joe Abercrombie
Red Country by Joe AbercrombieMy rating: 4 of 5 stars
Western themed tied into Epic fantasy - I honestly thought it couldn't be done well. I was wrong. This was amazing. Having read most of Joe Abercrombie's works, I knew he was a great author. This book just reinforced that.
It was gritty, painfully bloody and intense. I felt an itch between my shoulder blades through out the entire thing.
This was solid, stark and great for one you're in one of those moods to just punch someone in the face. Not to mention, it dealt with moral issues, decisions that are not easy and basic determination to get back what's yours and right.
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2.22.2013
Book Review: Battle: The House War: Book Five by Michelle Sagara West
Battle: The House War: Book Five by Michelle Sagara WestMy rating: 5 of 5 stars
4.75 Stars
This author, this series (and to be honest, her others as well) are some of my favorites.
I don't agree when people have said that this is mis-named. There were plenty of battles going on through out this book. Granted, they might not all been physical-bloody-sword-wielding battles, but battles they were. Battles, internal in the house, internal to the characters and positions, between the need for protection and the lesser of 2 possible outcomes. Battles of trust and knowledge and fear.
The only things that somewhat annoyed me were that Jewel, or even Finch (to a much lesser degree), had so many descriptions of getting ready (I guess this could be read as gearing up for a battle, in it's own way) that I found the almost a distraction. Almost. As well as the continous repeat of stating where Jewel and her den are from (aka the 25th holding) that, at this point, if the readers aren't concrete in this fact, they are not reading the books. One or two mentions I can understand, especially if spaced far enough apart. Repeating conversations are not my favorite things to read and this novel had several different ones going on. But you can't always get all of your characters into 1 room and give everyone the same details at the same time.
Overall, this book was amazing. I did not want to stop reading it until it was done. I loved how many of the questions in my mind were answered, only to have more come into play. The writing, was descriptive and was able to pull me into the book to experience along with the characters. It was engrossing, the characters are growing more into themselves and their positions.
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2.21.2013
Book Review: My Irresistible Earl (The Inferno Club #3) by Gaelen Foley
My Irresistible Earl by Gaelen FoleyMy rating: 4 of 5 stars
I really enjoyed this novel in the Inferno series. It ramped up well from the first 2 books.
This book felt a little bit more put together, it had additional complications in the plots that I thought blended the action and heart pounding emotions into a great story.
Very entertaining!
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Book Review: Wolfishly Yours (Westfield Wolves #6) by Lydia Dare
Wolfishly Yours by Lydia DareMy rating: 4 of 5 stars
This light, charming and funny installment in the Westfield Wolves series was wonderful to read.
The writing style is so easy and amusing and feels natural that this series has become one of my favorites in the paranormal/historical romances.
I loved how the leading heroine was considered more wild then the wolves of Westfield, she was more daring and will not settle for less than what she truly wants. And Grayson, so handsome and dashing and completely lost about Liviana.
Can't wait for the next one!
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2.20.2013
Depth Perception
Do you ever just sit somewhere and pretend that you belong? Pretend that life is not driving you down that road with multiple forks, and each branching fork is pitted in some soulless shadow of where you want to be...?
Do you ever wonder what the point is? I don't mean, what's the point of life, no one really knows that one. I mean, what's the point of this particular life experience. Why this, why now, why period.
How hard do you have to think, to speak, to do - to get the message across that there is more. So much more than we realize, because we get so trapped and warped by life, our jobs, our stresses that we stop even bothering to glimpse out the window and notice the skies are full.
When is the right time to take that deep breath and breathe out all the garbled nuances that chain us? How do we realize that those pitiful little hooks are not helping...and that it's painful to remove them but not life threatening and thus freeing?
There are moments, while I sit and gaze sadly at cubicle walls, knowing I am wasting my time, my energy for an unseen value.
And values, those shockingly pesky ideas. A value is only valued by the one valuing it. What I value, others would despair at or waste away on or perhaps just mock. Still, there are the remote few or several who value some of the generalities that I value. Those of like minds and all that.
I'm may be saddened and annoyed at the moments inability to reflect what I want and need. However, that fickle bitch Time will eventually release her restrictions thusly causing rapid changes in reality again.
Do you ever wonder what the point is? I don't mean, what's the point of life, no one really knows that one. I mean, what's the point of this particular life experience. Why this, why now, why period.
How hard do you have to think, to speak, to do - to get the message across that there is more. So much more than we realize, because we get so trapped and warped by life, our jobs, our stresses that we stop even bothering to glimpse out the window and notice the skies are full.
When is the right time to take that deep breath and breathe out all the garbled nuances that chain us? How do we realize that those pitiful little hooks are not helping...and that it's painful to remove them but not life threatening and thus freeing?
There are moments, while I sit and gaze sadly at cubicle walls, knowing I am wasting my time, my energy for an unseen value.
And values, those shockingly pesky ideas. A value is only valued by the one valuing it. What I value, others would despair at or waste away on or perhaps just mock. Still, there are the remote few or several who value some of the generalities that I value. Those of like minds and all that.
I'm may be saddened and annoyed at the moments inability to reflect what I want and need. However, that fickle bitch Time will eventually release her restrictions thusly causing rapid changes in reality again.
~~and this is not directed at/about/etc anyone I know or care about...I am just sitting in a conference room, bored out of my skull and avoiding the necessary process of working~~
2.19.2013
Book Review: Always a Witch (Witch #2) by Carolyn MacCullough
Always a Witch by Carolyn MacCulloughMy rating: 3 of 5 stars
3.75 Stars
I enjoyed reading Always a Witch, a fast paced sequal to Once a Witch. I think I would have given it 4 stars (or more) if it felt forward. It read very similar to the first book. It was quite gripping, action packed and incredible. It's a great book to read. I just wanted it to take more of a leap with the characters, have them grow more and not just take a couple of smaller steps instead.
Of course, that being said, there was some serious awesome-ness in this book. The romance factor kicked in a bit more, which just made me grin. I love how Tamsin is so strong in herself, knowing what the right thing to do, even if it's hard. I was nail biting the entire time Tamsin was a "lady's maid".
I really would like to see more of some of the other characters, especially now. I want to know what else is going to happen, even if it's 20 years later and it's Tamsin's kids (just happy wishing). I even want to know what led La Spider's family to it's predicament.
The author is such a great writer, that you have to read the entire book and then you still want more.
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Book Review: To Tame A Highland Warrior (Highlander #2) by Karen Marie Moning
To Tame A Highland Warrior by Karen Marie MoningMy rating: 4 of 5 stars
I thought that this 2nd installment in the Highland series was really good.
The angst over long held emotions from both the main characters was intense. The leading hero, Grimm, in denial about so many things, has to face the facts. He felt so, soulful and real, that I was able to really appreciate his character all the more. He did frustrate me a bit, male stubborn-ness, in not listening (to himself and others) and dealing with things. The leading heroine, Jillian, was smart and kind and I really loved how she just did what was in her heart.
It was really rewarding to see the characters come to their respective realizations, all the while dealing with the mayhem of marriage and fueds and family.
The author, I think, outdid herself in this novel. It was not cookie cutter formulae but still held that intense intrigue that kept me glued to the book, having to read it or else.
Can't wait to read the next one!
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Book Review: Feral Magic by Robin D. Owens
Feral Magic by Robin D. OwensMy rating: 4 of 5 stars
I thoroughly enjoyed this novella. Having read most of the authors other works, I was not surprised at how incredible this story turned out to be. To be honest, I hope that it turns into it's own series.
Being Novella, it's a glimpse into a Urban-Fantasy setting, where a shape-changing panther child accidently comes to earth. The leading heroine, of course, is unluckily blessed with telepathic abilities - with cats. Throw in a hunky leading alpha male looking for his charge and you have an opportunity for some heated moments. Action, life changing decisions and romance.
Who could ask for more!!
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Book Review: Soulless (Parasol Protectorate #1) by Gail Carriger
Soulless by Gail CarrigerMy rating: 3 of 5 stars
I was surprised by this book. I did enjoy reading it quite a bit and I wasn't expecting that.
Being that it's the first book in a series, the author did a good job in the world building as well as the character development. Even the repeated mention of Alexia's Italian heritage and her nose seemed to flow pretty well. Normally, that type of repitition would annoy me, however, since the time frame is more of that historical Victorian, I would not have been surprised by this to actually happen.
I particularly liked the witty and sharp banter between the characters. The plot was different and original; even how the state of affairs for those of the supernatural I found intriguing. Not to mention that so many different aspects of genres was woven into this novel. It was well put together, which is not an easy feat.
It was an easy and light read, something that you could enjoy but not become engrossed in (as compared to Michelle Sagara West for instance).
I am looking forward to reading the rest of the novels in this series.
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2.12.2013
Book Review: Demon King's Desire by J.L. Sheppard
Demon King's Desire by J.L. SheppardMy rating: 3 of 5 stars
**I received this book in exchange for an honest review via GoodReads**
I liked all the details, that helps me to a better picture in my head of the story. Though there are couple where it was almost like the same details applied to all the demons (or any male character), it would have been nice if they varied a bit more.
Some of the dialog/reactions came off as choppy, which made it harder for me to wrap their moods/actions and conversations into a smooth flow.
I really liked how the Demons were the on the side of good, though still reviled because others couldn't see past their one aspect. It was nice to see their relationships, as brothers, come out in the story. I am hoping the next book in the series gives us more of the other immortals as well :)
I wish there was a bit more development, earlier on, on how the whole Guardian/Council worked, the Demons place in it and also maybe more on Lucas's brother/warriors. More lead into the whole story. This could have provided more development opportunities with Lucas as well. For a Demon King, he actually could have been a bit cooler (granted he's a Demon) in his abilities to control his emotions, attitudes and reactions. He felt very young to me, not quite mature yet. Clyde, for an Angel, he just fell pretty easily in love with his charge and I sorta wanted to smack him whenever he spoke. Which means (at least to me) that his character was well written enough gather a response.
To be honest, this is a pretty strong start to a series. I am looking forward to reading the next one :)
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Book Review: Imager's Battalion (Imager Portfolio #6) by L.E. Modesitt Jr.
Imager's Battalion by L.E. Modesitt Jr.My rating: 4 of 5 stars
The action was not just military in this installment of the Imager Portfolio series, it was some of the relationship building and internal struggling that this author is well known for.
Though this particular novel isn't mind blowing in revelations or catching you off guard with a huge plot twist, you feel yourself get drawn into it the more you read it. You need to see what happens as the story builds up.
And of course, right where this book ends is what I wanted more of. That build up felt like it had a minor hiccup and now the next novel is the one that blows your socks off. I can't wait to read that one.
Like most of his other novels, this was exciting and enjoyable to read.
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Book Review: Marked (Eternal Guardians #1) by Elisabeth Naughton
Marked by Elisabeth NaughtonMy rating: 3 of 5 stars
3.5 Stars
This novel was a good step in the right direction. I liked many of the characters, especially Theron because he was just so conflicted. I do wish there was more interaction, more details perhaps, of the secondary characters - but hopefully I get those as I read more in the series.
The world building was good. It was different and interesting than the typical formula that a lot of urban fantasy books have.
I did get frustrated, in a good way, in the sexual tensions between Casey and Theron.
I think that this was just a little bit better written, I would have given it higher stars. For the most part, it was really good story line and I look forward to reading more from this author.
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Book Review Dark Currents (Agent of Hel #1) by Jacqueline Carey
Dark Currents by Jacqueline CareyMy rating: 4 of 5 stars
This was a truly Urban Fantasy blend of a tale by a very talented writer. I've read most of Jacqueline Carey's other books so I was excited to see this new novel, especially in an Urban Fantasy setting.
The intriguing mystery story merged with Carey's world building skills, with some dark under tones. But this is a really solid world, that while reading it, you can feel like you're part of the story. Always a trade mark for me when I find an author who writes to the readers.
The characters were strong, well defined. The story line was complicated enough that you certainly don't get bored.
The main female character was young, but strong. Smart but realistic. She's a great blend of life flinging you the hard stuff and you keep on going, because that's just what you do.
Really enjoyed reading this!
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2.06.2013
Book Review: Aurelia by Anne Osterlund
Aurelia by Anne OsterlundMy rating: 4 of 5 stars
This was such a sweet and lovely book to read. It had intrigue, mystery and just a very little bit of romance. Hopefully that is something that will be delved into more in the next novel.
It was well written and a wonderful story to read. It's good for when you're in the mood for something innocent but interesting.
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Book Review: Magic without Mercy (Allie Beckstom #8) by Devon Monk
Magic Without Mercy by Devon MonkMy rating: 4 of 5 stars
Like the previous novels in this series, this one was action packed. It was also had a lot more of the character development, which I noticed more because 1. Allie has stopped whining/complaining and 2. You got to know more about the other characters.
The situation just keeps on getting more intense, more potent and harder to fix. Love it!
The one thing that still bothers me is about the Authority. You would think that suck an old organization would have better abilities to make sure everyone and everything is as it should be. Granted, magic was never known thing for the entire civilian population, but I would think they would have ways to track if one of the heads in the organization was losing it or changed dramatically.
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Book Review: Touch of the Demon (Kara Gillian #5) by Diana Rowland
Touch of the Demon by Diana RowlandMy rating: 4 of 5 stars
This latest and amazing book in the Kara Gillian series was *awesome*. I really enjoyed the trickiness in this installment. Nothing was what Kara though it was, things changed and it was utterly brilliant. Loved how it flowed, the twists and full of painful (poor Kara) action.
There is so much going on in this book, I am still processing the repercussions of what was revealed.
The only thing that bugged me was how Kara so quickly took up the passionate side of things with Rhyzkahl (and never questioned him - I mean, he's a Demon Lord, she always questioned things with him...) and then later on with Mzatal. I think she's (obviously) better off with Mzatal, but wow, way to sleep with whoever your Demon Lord is I guess.
Overall though, loved it. Did not put it down until I was done.
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Book Review: Dreamspinner by Lynn Kurland
Dreamspinner by Lynn KurlandMy rating: 4 of 5 stars
I really enjoyed reading this book. This whole series is a nice fantasy romance with a bit of action thrown into the mix.
This particular book in the Nine Kingdoms series, I thought at least, was one of the better ones. There was more going on behind the scenes, things the reader was to flow with or figure out. There were also points where I was caught off guard, which is a good thing! It was not predictable in the details at all. Yes, the author has a theme with this series, but that is what draws me to it.
I loved the "there is no such as magic" from the lead heroine in this tale. It was so funny, how that just made all the other characters - blink - and nicely move on to a safer subject.
This book also leaves you with a major cliff hanger. I can't wait to read the next novel in this series.
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2.05.2013
Why do you read??
During my therapy session last night, we talked in part about my reading and what it means to me. I don't know how it can affects others, at least for the most part.
I know at what age I got truly interested in reading. I was 12 years old, living in San Fernando Valley in Southern California. I was in 6th grade. My sister had just read this book and said I should read it. It was Pawn of Prophecy by David Eddings. It was also a revelation.
At this point in my young life, I was happy and miserable at the same time. I was super tall for my age (and then stopped growing for several years) so the start of middle school wasn't as bad as it could have been. School life really wasn't the issue, home was. Both my brothers were in and out, they were drug addicts and gods only knew when/where/what they were working (though then it was mostly construction), my sister starting high school, so world of difference between us there, Jean (aka mother) was working in South Central LA as a teacher on emergency credentials. We were Mormon, which meant church on Sundays, baby sitting and pretending my Dad was "working" somewhere in Arizona while we barely surviving. Don't get me wrong, the church helped us like you could not believe in those years. It was hard because we could never talk about what was really going on and pretend everything was normal, ok, nothing to worry about. Not to mention my mother was not exactly the best at parenting.
We had 3 dogs, 2 females and 1 male, that we breed. This helped keep us afloat, because we would get $400+ per puppy (Bichons). I hated the boy dog, Fred, though. He was too fucking smart and a total ass. We had several cats, which Jean named after her fave actor at the time, Sylvester Stallone - so we had Rocky, Rambo and I think Sylvester. Rocky wasn't quite right in the head (different story, different post)
Ok, so onto why I got so into reading. Back then, and for many years, it was an escape. Not just any escape either, it was safe. Safe to be close to the characters, to live through them, experience what they did and feel what they did. To learn - so many things. My life really wasn't that bad and could have been so much worse. I was lucky to be living during the times that women have value and to know it's ok to fight for that value. To know that they are good people, bad people, and people in between. It was ok to be happy, angry, fight for what you believed in, to protect others and yourself. It was ok to be yourself.
It gave me peace. It helped me figure out who I wanted to be, and not just succumb to same old shit everyone else did.
As I grew up and older, I didn't take those qualities as much because I didn't need them as much. Reading then challenged me, to think more and deeper. It gave me pleasure and stress relief. It gave me reasons to ignore assholes and to not take some things personally. It gave me perspective.
There is nothing quite like reading a novel that ramped you up so much, broke your heart along the way and then ended so satisifying you just wanted to bask for a little while in the thoughts of it. (Melanie Rawn's Sunrunner series comes to mind)
And as I became an adult, working and paying bills, reading became more and less at the same time. I didn't always have the resources to buy books, which meant they became that much more valuable in my mind set. I do wish I was more aware of the library systems back then!! I also didn't have as much time to read. So I would read in chunks of time, mainly on the weekends or later in the evenings. Then came marriage and with marriage you totally forget about everything and everyone else for a time :^D
But reading, it's certainly changed me, helped me grow and just BE as a person.
How I read books now, is much different from how I started out. Now, it's pleasure and me time. Sure, there are sometimes it's a stress relief from work, or a brief glimpse of a different reality (because that violence isn't as close to home as the news on TV) but for the most part, it's because I enjoy the story. Some stories are amazing and I love getting that rush off a good plot/plots. I love getting pulled into something, some amazing world or characters that I wish I knew in real life or even the humor behind the banter going on. Now, I am entering the book, whereas before the good was a gateway to someplace else.
I am not using the books to escape from an unhappy life, not anymore. I am reading a good story. Some books and characters I get more attached to, which means their authors are the ones I keep watch out for more (and ok, it's like 100 authors at this point...). I just love reading and the joy it brings me.
Why do you read?
I know at what age I got truly interested in reading. I was 12 years old, living in San Fernando Valley in Southern California. I was in 6th grade. My sister had just read this book and said I should read it. It was Pawn of Prophecy by David Eddings. It was also a revelation.
At this point in my young life, I was happy and miserable at the same time. I was super tall for my age (and then stopped growing for several years) so the start of middle school wasn't as bad as it could have been. School life really wasn't the issue, home was. Both my brothers were in and out, they were drug addicts and gods only knew when/where/what they were working (though then it was mostly construction), my sister starting high school, so world of difference between us there, Jean (aka mother) was working in South Central LA as a teacher on emergency credentials. We were Mormon, which meant church on Sundays, baby sitting and pretending my Dad was "working" somewhere in Arizona while we barely surviving. Don't get me wrong, the church helped us like you could not believe in those years. It was hard because we could never talk about what was really going on and pretend everything was normal, ok, nothing to worry about. Not to mention my mother was not exactly the best at parenting.
We had 3 dogs, 2 females and 1 male, that we breed. This helped keep us afloat, because we would get $400+ per puppy (Bichons). I hated the boy dog, Fred, though. He was too fucking smart and a total ass. We had several cats, which Jean named after her fave actor at the time, Sylvester Stallone - so we had Rocky, Rambo and I think Sylvester. Rocky wasn't quite right in the head (different story, different post)
Ok, so onto why I got so into reading. Back then, and for many years, it was an escape. Not just any escape either, it was safe. Safe to be close to the characters, to live through them, experience what they did and feel what they did. To learn - so many things. My life really wasn't that bad and could have been so much worse. I was lucky to be living during the times that women have value and to know it's ok to fight for that value. To know that they are good people, bad people, and people in between. It was ok to be happy, angry, fight for what you believed in, to protect others and yourself. It was ok to be yourself.
It gave me peace. It helped me figure out who I wanted to be, and not just succumb to same old shit everyone else did.
As I grew up and older, I didn't take those qualities as much because I didn't need them as much. Reading then challenged me, to think more and deeper. It gave me pleasure and stress relief. It gave me reasons to ignore assholes and to not take some things personally. It gave me perspective.
There is nothing quite like reading a novel that ramped you up so much, broke your heart along the way and then ended so satisifying you just wanted to bask for a little while in the thoughts of it. (Melanie Rawn's Sunrunner series comes to mind)
And as I became an adult, working and paying bills, reading became more and less at the same time. I didn't always have the resources to buy books, which meant they became that much more valuable in my mind set. I do wish I was more aware of the library systems back then!! I also didn't have as much time to read. So I would read in chunks of time, mainly on the weekends or later in the evenings. Then came marriage and with marriage you totally forget about everything and everyone else for a time :^D
But reading, it's certainly changed me, helped me grow and just BE as a person.
How I read books now, is much different from how I started out. Now, it's pleasure and me time. Sure, there are sometimes it's a stress relief from work, or a brief glimpse of a different reality (because that violence isn't as close to home as the news on TV) but for the most part, it's because I enjoy the story. Some stories are amazing and I love getting that rush off a good plot/plots. I love getting pulled into something, some amazing world or characters that I wish I knew in real life or even the humor behind the banter going on. Now, I am entering the book, whereas before the good was a gateway to someplace else.
I am not using the books to escape from an unhappy life, not anymore. I am reading a good story. Some books and characters I get more attached to, which means their authors are the ones I keep watch out for more (and ok, it's like 100 authors at this point...). I just love reading and the joy it brings me.
Why do you read?
2.04.2013
Passive Aggressive Part 2
Wow, I posted about this lovely and fun subject in January of 2011. I thought it'd be nice to offer up a refresher and see what new information is out there now...
If you want to read my original post, please check it out here
I realize most of us, especially in relationships, will show passive aggressive traits at some point. When we get so angry and don't want to really hurt the other person, we might instead do it in a not so obvious way. Personally, when I have done this I was overt about it. And I know that with me personally, I tend to do this when I am still processing something in my head and know I'm upset but unable to comunicate that. It can be amazing that a simple little sentence or two, like "You really pissed me off by saying xyz..." can be so hard to verbalize.
No one is perfect, we're all working on things, but communication is key.
Below are some things I found on the net (not my written words) so please see the resources for where I gathered this info.
Signs/Examples of Passive Aggressive behavior:
Consequences of Passive Aggressive Behaviour
Passive Aggressive Behavior Is a Habit
Living with the Passive-Aggressive Man **This could also apply to women**
NOTE: This is the "condensed" version. For the expanded version please see Dr. Wetzler's book, pages 35-37......
And if I could, I would re-post the entire blog about:
I think that if you realize that you have Passive Aggressive as a personality trait, counseling would be the first place to start.
Resources:
http://www.counselling-directory.org.uk/counsellor-articles/what-is-passive-aggressive-behaviour
http://www.psychologytoday.com/basics/passive-aggression
http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/passive-aggressive-diaries/201105/2-reasons-why-passive-aggressive-behavior-thrives-in-relation
http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/passive-aggressive-behavior/AN01563
http://health.nytimes.com/health/guides/disease/passive-aggressive-personality-disorder/overview.html
http://passiveaggressive.homestead.com/PATraits.html
http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/evolution-the-self/200806/afraid-rage-the-origins-passive-aggressive-behavior
If you want to read my original post, please check it out here
I realize most of us, especially in relationships, will show passive aggressive traits at some point. When we get so angry and don't want to really hurt the other person, we might instead do it in a not so obvious way. Personally, when I have done this I was overt about it. And I know that with me personally, I tend to do this when I am still processing something in my head and know I'm upset but unable to comunicate that. It can be amazing that a simple little sentence or two, like "You really pissed me off by saying xyz..." can be so hard to verbalize.
No one is perfect, we're all working on things, but communication is key.
Below are some things I found on the net (not my written words) so please see the resources for where I gathered this info.
Signs/Examples of Passive Aggressive behavior:
Non-Communication when there is clearly something problematic to discuss
Avoiding/Ignoring when you are so angry that you feel you cannot speak calmly
Evading problems and issues, burying an angry head in the sand
Procrastinating intentionally putting off important tasks for less important ones
Obstructing deliberately stalling or preventing an event or process of change
Fear of Competition Avoiding situations where one party will be seen as better at something
Ambiguity Being cryptic, unclear, not fully engaging in conversations
Sulking Being silent, morose, sullen and resentful in order to get attention or sympathy.
Chronic Lateness A way to put you in control over others and their expectations
Chronic Forgetting Shows a blatant disrespect and disregard for others to punish in some way
Fear of Intimacy Often there can be trust issues with passive aggressive people and guarding against becoming too intimately involved or attached will be a way for them to feel in control of the relationship
Making Excuses Always coming up with reasons for not doing things
Victimisation Unable to look at their own part in a situation will turn the tables to become the victim and will behave like one
Self-Pity the poor me scenario
Blaming others for situations rather than being able to take responsibility for your own actions or being able to take an objective view of the situation as a whole.
Withholding usual behaviours or roles for example sex, cooking and cleaning or making cups of tea, running a bath etc. all to reinforce an already unclear message to the other party
Learned Helplessness where a person continually acts like they can’t help themselves – deliberately doing a poor job of something for which they are often explicitly responsible
Consequences of Passive Aggressive Behaviour
In being passive aggressive you are not giving yourself or others an opportunity to listen to what you think or feel
When on the receiving end of passive aggression, you can feel confused, upset, offended, guilty and frustrated. You may think you’ve done something wrong, but have no clear idea what it was
It avoids communication in a very negative way
It creates insecurity in all parties
It creates a bad atmosphere between people
It is a form of conflict where either both or one party cannot engage sensibly in the issues
It avoids the real issues
It creates negative feelings and resentments in an unassertive way
In marriages, husbands and wives often use passive aggressive behavior as the path of least resistance. In other words, a person wants to say "no" to a request, but realizes that doing so will likely result in an immediate disagreement or confrontation. To avoid the temporary unpleasantness, a partner verbally agrees to a request but behaviorally delays its completion or-more crafty yet-carries out the task according to unacceptable standards in hopes of not being asked to carry out the request in the future. Fortunately, situation-specific passive aggressive behavior in a marriage, though infuriating in the moment, is usually quite manageable when confronted directly and consistently.
Passive Aggressive Behavior Is a Habit
For some, passive aggressive behavior is not just a situational choice, but rather a deeply ingrained personality type. When a child is raised in an environment in which the expression of angry feelings is not tolerated, he learns to use indirect, passive aggressive means to express himself. In marriage, this adult child overgeneralizes and responds to his spouse as if she were the parent who stifled his emotional expression. Genuinely-loved partners become undeserving targets of ingrained passive aggressive habits and are especially hurt, confused, and frustrated to receive it. The relationship is often brought to the boiling point.
Another aspect that makes passive aggression particularly toxic in a marriage is how it is modeled to the next generation. Children of passive aggressive parents learn the indirect expression of anger as a way of life. They grow up with the belief that "anger = bad" and that hiding anger is the right, healthy, proper thing to do. Chronic passive aggression can be just as damaging to a marriage and family as outward aggression and requires focused efforts at long-term behavioral change.
Living with the Passive-Aggressive Man **This could also apply to women**
NOTE: This is the "condensed" version. For the expanded version please see Dr. Wetzler's book, pages 35-37......
FEAR OF DEPENDENCY - Unsure of his autonomy & afraid of being alone, he fights his dependency needs - usually by trying to control you.
FEAR OF INTIMACY - Guarded & often mistrusful, he is reluctant to show his emotional fragility. He's often out of touch with his feelings, reflexively denying feelings he thinks will "trap" or reveal him, like love. He picks fights to create distance.
FEAR OF COMPETITION - Feeling inadequate, he is unable to compete with other men in work and love. He may operate either as a self-sabotaging wimp with a pattern of failure, or he'll be the tyrant, setting himself up as unassailable and perfect, needing to eliminate any threat to his power.
OBSTRUCTIONISM - Just tell a p/a man what you want, no matter how small, and he may promise to get it for you. But he won't say when, and he"ll do it deliberately slowly just to frustrate you. Maybe he won't comply at all. He blocks any real progress he sees to your getting your way.
FOSTERING CHAOS - The p/a man prefers to leave the puzzle incomplete, the job undone.
FEELING VICTIMIZED - The p/a man protests that others unfairly accuse him rather than owning up to his own misdeeds. To remain above reporach, he sets himself up as the apparently hapless, innocent victim of your excessive demands and tirades.
MAKING EXCUSES & LYING - The p/a man reaches as far as he can to fabricate excuses for not fulfilling promises. As a way of withholding information, affirmation or love - to have power over you - the p/a man may choose to make up a story rather than give you a straight answer.
PROCRASTINATION - The p/a man has an odd sense of time - he believes that deadlines don't exist for him.
CHRONIC LATENESS & FORGETFULNESS - One of the most infuriating & inconsiderate of all p/a traits is his inability to arrive on time. By keeping you waiting, he sets the ground rules of the relationship. And his selective forgetting - used only when he wants to avoid an obligation.
AMBIGUITY - He is master of mixed messages and sitting on fences. When he tells you something, you may still walk away wondering if he actually said yes or no.
SULKING - Feeling put upon when he is unable to live up to his promises or obligations, the p/a man retreats from pressures around him and sulks, pouts and withdraws.
A passive-aggressive man won't have every single one of these traits, but he'll have many of them. He may have other traits as well, which are not passive-aggressive.
And if I could, I would re-post the entire blog about:
Afraid to Rage: The Origins of Passive-Aggressive Behavior
Read it, it's worth it.I think that if you realize that you have Passive Aggressive as a personality trait, counseling would be the first place to start.
Resources:
http://www.counselling-directory.org.uk/counsellor-articles/what-is-passive-aggressive-behaviour
http://www.psychologytoday.com/basics/passive-aggression
http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/passive-aggressive-diaries/201105/2-reasons-why-passive-aggressive-behavior-thrives-in-relation
http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/passive-aggressive-behavior/AN01563
http://health.nytimes.com/health/guides/disease/passive-aggressive-personality-disorder/overview.html
http://passiveaggressive.homestead.com/PATraits.html
http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/evolution-the-self/200806/afraid-rage-the-origins-passive-aggressive-behavior
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