6.21.2025

Surgery, Projects and Changes - oh my!

Holy fuck I haven't written in a long time!! There have been a couple moments in the last year where I've thought about and even came here to write but I just...didn't.

OK, so some quick updates then! 

 I had a double mastectomy with an immediate Diep Flap reconstruction in February. I was off for 2 months and while for the most part it was a good and non complicated recovery, there was some minor issues once I got home from the hospital. I don't know if it was a reaction to the surgical tape used or if one of my 4 drains kinked at some point in the 1.5 hour drive home or whatever, but I ended up with some lovely blisters on both breasts which necessitated daily wound treatment. My boyfriend did absolutely an awesome job in assisting with that. And I loved the overall results! I will say, the resulting size was somewhat larger that I was anticipating...and I won't argue if they go down a little bit.

Another side of effect of a 13 hour surgery and 3 days in the hospital, I came over literally 11 lbs heavier. That was wild. I swear it's all in my thighs. I gained another 7-8 lbs in the proceeding months. I was not stressing over this, I know that it's temporary and I'll lose the weight again. It is annoying.

Then I just had another surgery last week, it was an outpatient surgery and again it was for the breasts and the dog ears on my hips from the Diep Flap. Minor reconstruction to fix some of the typical things that need to be fixed once the healing is mostly done and the swelling is resolved. And holy fuck there was some lipo involved and that shit, THAT fucking hurts. 

I will eventually lose the weight and once that is stable, I would definitely like to get these puppies lifted. I do hope they also go down in size as I lose weight but if they don't, it's what it is.

And when I look in the mirror, it's absolutely crazy to see how skinny I look. I do not recognize myself. I will eventually buy new clothes and whatnot, right now I am fitting in my older clothes and I've gotten some hand me downs to tide me over and I have bought a couple of new shirts and things that I needed for surgery anyways. And oh wow, having to find things that don't bother my abdomen has been wild! 

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Yarn - I have SO MUCH YARN! When I hear about Joann's going out of business in January, I absolutely panic bought a shit ton of yarn. So. I decided to open a small business, Stitch & Cuddle. At some point I will get my website updated. I've made several items so far this year already, see below.

 




 There are more I've made and I need to get more pictures done. I need to get some of my finances updated with the state with what's already been done but otherwise, I seem to be stress crocheting a lot. Thankfully I have quite a few projects that will benefit because of this. Suffice it to say, everyone is getting home made gifts this year for the holidays and birthdays. 

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 And both of these things are part of the changes. Another change - potentially - is work. We are being acquired rather soon and I'll find if I have a job still. No stress, none at all (insert eye roll here). Part of the reason I am stress crocheting. Especially with this market, political environment and everything else. The world is only slightly insane right now. This is very, very stressful. I really don't like this timeline to be honest and I hope to wake up to a better world at some point. If I am let go, I will do what I do and figure it out and life will be okay. 

 That's my quick update for the hot moment.