Grateful

I am not typically the happiest on my birthday, and while I know several reasons for this, it's just not something I look forward to each year. Now, my amazing bf has certainly made my last few birthdays wonderful on multiple levels and I am seriously grateful for that. This year, on top of my birthday I got my period, so I just was not having any ideas about anything other than not thinking about too much.

So when you have a day off to yourself and you're crying at Mary dying in Sherlock Holmes, you start to go, just wtf is going on here!! Ok, so a bit was the PMS and a bit just the normal tangle of life. I guess it just let some self-introspection and realization that, damn, I am a pretty good life and for that I am lucky and grateful. I have an awesome job, an awesome kid, an awesome boyfriend and my house, while a bit messy, is perfect for right and I'm going to school on top of everything else. There are minor issues, small annoyances, things to figure out for later and things to just get done now - but in the overall outlook, I am happy. Happy with myself and really almost everything.

Sometimes I need to just take a moment and realize these things and to let whatever does bother me, just go.