A late night thought...

Do you ever have a really bad moment, where you just want to cry and scream at the same time? And then you calm down, much later on. After smoking too much and punching a bag. And then you are able to logically or analytically review that one bad moment. And then you think to yourself - you know what? Fuck it. It is what it is. That you can't stress yourself out over something, even if it's something that's already been agreed upon before. It - just - is.

And then you hear this one song - this magically awesome song - and life is just 1,000 times better.

And you realize life is good. That life is a wondrously joyous thing. That there are millions of awesome moments just waiting to happen.

Yeah, that.

Freaky Friday

I was really good last night about not putting a lot of weight on my foot. Score me :)

Though I did make some Lemon Cupcakes :) I even saved some for the Kid :) The rest were given away :) I just felt like baking. And to be honest, I will be cooking some more this weekend. Not just cupcakes, but also making Cinnamon Raisin Bread (I need to check my levels of raisins at home) for some Bread Pudding on Sunday. Ohhhhh, wait a second. I am making that for a Pagan thingy on Sunday. I should warn them I busted my foot and will need help!!!

I am still resting my foot, putting ice on it and just taking it easy. It's going to be interesting trying to do ANYTHING this weekend, but oh well!

I did have some help putting the Kid's shower head in the downstairs bathroom, but it's done and used it this morning. I really did like having that large shower again. Makes me sorta think about my smaller one upstairs. Hmmmm. I am going to ask around about how much work it takes to make mine a wee bit larger. And if it's too much work, it can wait! If it's not though, then I might just do that. At least for right now, I have the bathroom downstairs that can be used :) Being clean is a good thing!!

Since I made a mess upstairs looking for my insurance card, I should probably take some time to get my filing done and at least clean that part up. And if I am working in the office, then I can at least get that room more organized without putting too much strain on my tootsie.

Also: how is that I just drank coffee and feel like I could fall asleep instead? And I am pretty sure I went to bed earlier last night than I have in a week. Hmmm.

Work, hahahaha, is quiet and I'm not doing as much as I should be. End times people, end times.

Ok, I am going to see if I can hobble around for a little bit and look productive :)

Talent = Sprain

I am seriously and quite conceivably the most talented I've ever been before. So, not only can I NOT walk, I can not walk and cause myself injury. Sure, it was late at night and I had had a drink HOURS before and sure I was tired. But seriously? Walking in my back yard last night, I somehow trip over my own feet, fall like some kind of giant engulfed tree and sprain my foot/ankle.

So, I ice my poor foot last night, realize I was so tired I was ready to fall asleep mid thought, and somehow pulled myself and the basket of laundry upstairs.

I woke up at 4:30 am, because of the trash truck, realized I FORGOT to put the damn trash out! Ugh. Also realized my foot was still swollen and in pain. Took 3 Advil at 5:30 am. Slept for an hour. The kid woke up all kinds of cranky. Complaining about his clothes and lack of fit and overall not a good morning for him or myself.

Also: It turns out the Kid needs more clothes...wait, remember when I had ASKED HIM REPEATEDLY to try on his fucking clothes to see what fit/didn't fit, and he refused AND then he refused to buy MORE clothes when Maryland was having that tax free week?? Well guess what Mr. Smarty Pants!!?? Now, we need to go clothes shopping and me who can barely walk. So, I've asked his Dad to see if he wouldn't mind taking him (and yes, I'm providing the money)

I email my boss, explaining I will be in late and why. I slowly get dressed and get what I need (ahem, I went searching for my insurance card, didn't find it, but made a mess) and carefully made my way downstairs, got my purse and keys and went to the car. OW owow ow owow. Went to Urgent Care at 8 am.

Neat thing: I downloaded my insurance company's app, registered and LOOKY HERE!! It created a card for me to email to the Urgent Care place, how awesome is that!?!

Yes, they asked questions, took X-rays. Nothing shows up on the X-rays which I think is a good thing. Of course, they go and say my nasty ass sprain is probably just as bad if not worse. Jeez, thanks! So, hopefully if I am REALLY GOOD about it, a couple days will take down the pain and swelling. Right now, I've got an Air splint on it and have to use crutches. Seriously, all because I can't seem to walk. But this means no Wine Festival this weekend. I just want to make sure I am healed up before the 28th, Renaissance Faire. That's what I am caring about right now! Work, well they can be nice and work things out so it's easier for me. Because, ummm, what else can be done??

And in other news - I has a crack in my upstairs shower stall. I noticed this morning ANOTHER crack in it. I spoke to a guy at work, who does facilities and he says it sounds like there is no support under it. Which means I will need to replace said shower. Lovely. Again, wonderful timing. But, you know what? It is what it is. At least now I can replace it and know it will be a good long while before I need to do that again :)

Wednesday's Wooing Woe

Oh my, I am exhausted. Work is B-U-S-Y! I'm ready to fall asleep as I attempt to actually write a post.

Also: New Favorite Word = WOW

My sinuses are being abused - there is a lot of dust related activities going on at work. Because, you know, breaking down card board is never dust free. Or moving equipment.

Hmmm, I had thoughts when I first started this post I wanted to share. But now they seem to be hiding from me. Don't you hate that!??!!

In other news, my ring sizes are getting smaller. Which is awesome and annoying. Awesome because I'm losing inches/weight but annoying because some of my cool ass rings might be too big to wear if this keeps up. My size 14 jeans are getting looser too. Not quite needing to go the next size down, but I will need to start using my belt :)

Oh, my big sister is coming to visit! I am soooooo excited about that! AND she's going to be here during my birthday = WAY AWESOME!!

Annoying fact I found out - I have poison oak growing in yard. JOYS! So, I attempted to spray some weed killer stuff but I might need to upgrade to the commercial grade version. Me and the kid have sensitive skin, no need to have that stuff around! I've been thinking of really ripping all the stuff out of the front and back yard, let everything fallow over winter and starting fresh in the spring. Except for a couple of the nice butterfly bushes that is. Because, yeah, I don't like the weeds and now poison oak stuff and I also don't like things too close to the AC unit or the house.

Another annoying fact - I have a crack in my shower upstairs. I am going to put in a newer shower head in the downstairs bathroom and use that until I pick up some epoxy to fix that one.

Also: WOW

Oh, maybe I should give Diego a bath tonight, I've been forgetting or putting it off and I REALLY should get that done. But I need to sweep first thing when I get home. I hate how my stairs collect dust and cat hair so easily! Oh and I need to do some laundry as well. It seems like tonight is going to be busy!! And I just want to sleep. Maybe I should make some coffee first when I get home.

Ok, whatever thoughts I had have seriously hidden themselves from me. So I am going to go search for them in some quiet corner and pretend to be productive while at it. Shhhh...

This Past Weekend = Awesome

So Friday. I went home early, rested, took one small elusive nap and felt better. Not like LOADS of better, but better. I was able to clean downstairs and do some laundry.

I was in great anticipation for Saturday. Because, Saturday, was Medieval Times! WOOT! We went with a friend and his 2 kids. Said kids are 2 years on either side of my son, and his son who is 10, loves and breathes the same the game as mine. Suffice it to say, they hit it off :) Honestly, I thought they would, but it's always always always a good thing when your kid makes a new friend :)

So, Medieval Times is located in a mall, a somewhat large mall that we got to walk around :) It was fun, the kids got some cool stuff and the memories are incredible. Not much else you can ask for a day out like that :)

I got a couple pics of the Kid, not a whole lot because the boy would not stand still!! And of course, it was too dark inside once the show started. And what a show! OMG, who knew! It was a lot of fun :) Can you sense the theme here?

I drove both ways, which was cool :) I liked driving and listening to the kids talk or my friend tell stories. And singing along with the music. Because, you know, I got that multitasking thing going on. LOL, ok but I did pay attention to driving :)

Now, with me missing a lot of work last week, today has been a bitch! I've been basically going non stop since my morning meeting til now. I am exhausted!! And of course I have a slew of things to do when I get home. My mind is almost boggling at that. I need more time in my days again! Yikes!

Good things: No more period, she's hiding for a few weeks :) That damned UTI seems to be gone as well. That bitch can stay gone! And my cold? Is on it's last legs as well :) I still have some sinus issues, but nothing like it was! Yay!!! Love feeling better :) Also: not smoking as much. Surprising in my mind, but a really good thing over all :^D

This week looks to be kinda busy. I almost miss those days that I didn't have stuff to do. Almost. Of course, there a ton of things I'd rather NOT being doing. AKA fixing house/furniture stuff. But, it is what it is!!  I have plans to make, since my awesomeness of a sister will be coming for a visit!! Yay!! SO EXCITED about that! Oh my, I am almost beside myself with that one!!

My birthday is in less than a month, and I am planning on hiding in my bed that day. Or the couch. I am not a big fan of my birthday, and I am not sure if that's a normal thing, sad thing or just-as-you-get-older thing. I don't know. I'm not exactly dreading it per se, just not excited about it. Ohhh, maybe I will buy myself some more rings though! I've already pre-ordered books, but that wasn't as a bday present to myself. Hmmmm. Since I've lost weight, my ring sizes have gone down, which is awesome too.

Sunday, hmmm...I was tired, did some cleaning, minor grocery shopping. I was sorta cranky, I think from those last dregs of being sick. But Sunday night was good.

My brain is starting to shut down though. I need a nap, or at least a moment to NOT think for a brief moment !!!

I do have a couple projects to start, not already including those around the house (ahem, painting!) but I want to make some scarves, or a blanket, I want to make some jewelry.

Also: It's actually bit a tiny bit chilly lately - LOVE IT. Oh and it was raining this morning and I sooooo did not want to get out of bed! I was all curled up and snuggled in.

Freaky Friday

I'm still sick. Slightly better, so am at work at least. The Kid is feeling completely normal (must be nice) and he's at school. I think I will be taking things s-l-o-w today. My boss even came by and asked me if I needed more time to rest. Holy shit I must look like death warmed over! I told him no, that I should be fine but am taking things slow. And seriously, if I start lagging something bad, will head home early.

I has plans tomorrow. Exciting plans, fun plans. Plans I am really looking forward to. So. I WILL BE BETTER DAMN IT!!! BWahahahahaha

Wednesday I killed me some spiders. Last night, I saw 2 of the bitches again though, but sprayed them. Because, yeah, those fuckers really really REALLY wig me out.

Ok, so I came home early, getting ready to take a nap and then clean up the house later on. I need to take my meds as well. I did have soup though, drank some tea. Which is always good. Soup did wonders for me I think. I always add in garlic and paprika to my chicken noodle soup, it just seems to make it yummier.

Right now I'm watching the kitten freak out  over a fly or something outside. It's rather funny. She is so adorable, love it. She is so beautiful, and her fur is seriously soft.

My period is almost over, thank the gods. My UTI is still here though, but hopefully it will be done in a couple days. I am looking forward to not having all these things at once! LOL, it's been just lovely. At least I know my cold is due from allergies. I am not the only one at work that's sick and we all seem to have allergies.

I have to use or lost my remaining sick time and personal holiday. I will use my personal holiday for my bday next month. As for my remaining sick time, well...I have no idea. I do have a couple dentist appointments coming up, but they won't take up the 40+ hours. I think that's one of the reasons I didn't mind calling out yesterday or leaving early today. May as well...Maybe I will take off time for my period, whether I need or not, for the next couple of months and that will help drain those hours down.

OK, my brain is not quite functioning it seems. Meds, then sleep. Then cleaning. I have this thing it seems about cleaning my floors. Who knew.

Wednesday's Woe

So, not only is my monthly little friend tormenting my poor uterus, my bladder had decided to punish me as well. Nothing quite like that burning sensation when you go pee first thing in the morning!!

Of course, I got my lovely UTI, at least more than likely, from my Brazilian wax starting to grow back in. This is one of the reasons why I went to get waxed again this past weekend...I was hoping to head it of. But, alas, it was not meant to be. See, I know this is why I got it because this happened to me the last time I had one as well. Me and my lovely fucking sensitive skin!! UGH.

Yesterday, I probably drank 100 oz of water and peed more often than office full of pregnant women.

I'm taking Uva Ursi for it. Yes, I know most people go to the Dr. and get antibiotics. I am just not a big fan of pharmaceuticals. And I've had these in the past and taken Uva Ursi and it's always worked for me. Just gotta remember to NOT drink or eat things that are acidic. Like cranberry juice, because that causes the Uva Ursi to not work. Learned that one the hard way!! Research people, always research!!

My allergies are acting up today too - I almost, ALMOST, feel like it's a cold. So bloody annoying. I swear to the gods, my body is just hating me at the moment!!

Work, is well, (shock) busy. Which is good :) Always good that :)

Hmmm....let's see. What else...tomorrow is the Band Boosters meeting. Joys.

I did not go to Lowe's yesterday, so I will attempt to do so today. Because, you know, those bitches still gotta go. In fact! This morning, I get in my car, put my hand on the steering wheel and felt something fuzzy. I should not be feeling something fuzzy. Me being fuzzy is completely different. And what was this fuzzy thing I felt, you ask? Oh, you know, just a little spider. To say I freaked the fuck out puts it mildly. I jumped out of my car and saw said spider dangling by one of it's threads. I gently moved the thread and the spider hit the side of that thingy that has the drive shaft. To which then I took my foot and smashed it. Dead. Yeah, now I have a dead spider partially on my shoe and in my car. Ewwwww.

I needed coffee, UTI or no UTI. I also got water though and started drinking it first. Spiders before coffee should NOT be allowed. Period. As in against the law or something.

Oh! That reminds me, some idiot fuckers in Western Maryland want 5 counties to secede and this quote killed me:

Carroll County resident Scott Strzelczyk, leader of the “Western Maryland Initiative,” says people are fed up with the liberal majority and want an "amicable divorce."

That's right, because those liberals are such hard asses and because they vote and you don't like it, therefore you must have your own state. Ahem. If the majority of people felt the way these idiots did, then elections and alcohol taxes would have ended up different. But nooooo, you're upset because for once, you aren't majority and you're not getting your way and therefore must throw a tantrum! Listen assholes, there is always someone else getting what they want. Always. Times change, people and cultures change and either you are part of that change or you are what's changed. Life is just like that. Reality sucks, I know, but come on - either you realize it or live in some alternate version of things. And you know what? Liberals probably felt this way too, when YOU assholes were more in office. So what did they do? The worked the system and got the majority. It's always a fucking gamble with any form of politics. The whole thing gives me a headache.

Oh the comments under the articles crack me up. Seriously, some people are just fucking stupid. As in scary stupid.

Of course, I doubt this will really happen. It's just annoying. For reals.

Link from CNN:
http://www.abc2news.com/dpp/news/region/carroll_county/group-calls-for-western-maryland-counties-to-secede?hpt=us_bn7

Local News Article:
http://www.herald-mail.com/news/local/hm-group-calls-for-western-md-counties-to-secede-20130909,0,5846199.story

Cramping My Style

Cramps, oh how I love thee and despise thee.

Cramps, you difficult bitch, thanks for the morning wake up call.

So, yeah as you can see my period is starting to get more friendly with me because she's a complete and utter whore who seems to think my poor uterus is her horrific playground.

Sorry, I didn't get as much sleep as usual last night and I think my brain is still working on fumes. Coffee has yet to really impact my blood stream and what blood I have is starting to leak out of me. Oh the fucking joys of the menstrual cycle.

But the upside of this? This is something like 6 months in a row of me getting my period - which is practically unheard of with me previously (stupid PCOS crap). I attribute some of it to losing weight, less stupidity/stress in my life and maybe my hormones are just starting to behave slightly normally. And the really possibly cool upside - if I'm getting my period, that POSSIBLY means I could at some point get pregnant. Of course, that would be later on, once I am divorced AND with someone for a while!! But it's nice to know that if I/we wanted a kid, it's a possibility. A better one than in years passed when my stupid period hated me. If I get to that point, of course I will see the Dr before even thinking of trying, just to make sure I still don't have those lovely cysts choking my ovaries. That's even if at that point in time I/we want kids. I might just be happy with how things are. Who knows! I'm shutting this part of my brain off now...

Laundry done last night. The kid wants to play a video game tonight when I get home. I might, depending on if I feel like puking my guts out or not.

Also: I absolutely LOVE having the dining room table done. It just makes this house feel more complete, more home than it already did. Now, if I could just start painting the kids room! Ohhhh, maybe I will just go in and clean his room out and get it done. I should probably order his curtains too...and that moon sticker for his ceiling. Curtains first. Will check with him this week to make sure he still likes them or if you justs longer black curtains.

So, I'm a wee bit tired today. Last night, I hit Sam's Club and Martins on the way home, and I was already tired. But damn, I was in both stores, shopped and on my way home in 35 minutes. That must be some kind of record!! And then it was chores, laundry and good conversation :) I couldn't believe how fast time sped by!!

Work is busy, some of it just pc stuff today. I don't know. I just want a nap!!!

Also: I might go to Lowe's at lunch time and buy bug spray. There are spiders, lots of them, surrounding my house like a fucking last stand. I don't like. Nope, not all at. Those fuckers gotta go!

Monday Madness

So this weekend -

Let's see, the dining room table is finally finished!! So unbelievably happy about this!!! I watched mostly, but I did help a little bit!! It's amazing how some people are just really good at that type of thing. I am coming to realize that I am not one of them!!! LOL -  Mainly because the DVD/CD Media bookcase I put together? Well...it will get the job done but it sure ain't pretty!! LOL - It's almost kinda sad!! But, it's done. Right? Maybe...I'm still laughing about it so that should say something!!

Back to the dining room table, the kid and I actually ate at it last night - and let me tell you - it was so nice and wonderful and just felt good. Like family should be.

Saturday, that was when I did the DVD/CD thingy - while watching Pitch Perfect again. I also re-arranged my living room just a bit, and I like it so far. Not sure if it's going to stay that way, but will see :) I need to find some place for this mirror I have. If not, it might end up in the attic for a while. The walls in my living room, it's just kinda weird in a way because there is SO much of them, that I am having a hard time finding the right artwork that I want. Hmmm. I think I need to go shopping at Pier 1 or something.

Also: Cake

I cleaned a little bit on Saturday, though I should have probably done some laundry, I guess I will tonight after we go grocery shopping.

Oh I also laid out and got my pale ass some sun! That was sooooo nice. I put some music on my iPod nano, sprayed on some oil and took my pale self outside with a towel and pillow. I flipped sides every 5 songs (give or take) so that I wouldn't burn. I had a hat for covering my face. And it was sooo nice. I want to do this more often!!

Sunday, Sunday...I don't remember...oh that's right! I had this really weird/fucked up dream about my ex-stepsister-in-law. I need to text/email that to her. And since my period is just starting (it's being wishy washy on me today for some reason, stupid period) my hormones have been all over the place. Stupid hormones need to get a life. A good life.

Oh, I also got waxed last night. It's only been 3 weeks, however, in the past if I've had a Brazilian done and it's NOT up kept, UTI or yeast infections will ensue. Not something I want. I actually felt the very start of a UTI yesterday, so Uva Ursi regiment has already started. I think I will be able to head it off and flush it out of my system, especially considering how much fucking water I drink. I didn't get the legs waxed, those can wait another few weeks easy (besides it's not like they are that hairy, it just seems certain patches grow in faster - so weird). But I'm glad I got the Hu Ha done.

Also: hot wax down there feels good.
(the ripping of hair out, not so much, just focus on the yummy hot wax)

Work is going to be busy today, I can already tell. Which is good!! I'd rather be busy than bored, any day :)

Good mood music :)

I'm in the mood for some Mediaeval Baebes tonight :)

Weekend Life

So today I actually made it out of the house (score!) and went to JC Penny and Target. At JC Penny I went bra shopping. I guess they are doing some redecorating though, which meant less changing rooms and re-arrangement of clothes. So, I finally found the lingere area (why is it right by the kids clothes? Really? Sexy panties and everything just sitting out there for 5 years to ogle??) So, I decided to pick a couple brands, try 2 bra sizes (40 B and 38 B) to see which ones would fit better. The 40 B was comfy, but just a shade large. Minor. Tried the 38 B, it FIT. YES. But the cup was too small. WTH? I thought that your cup size is your cup size, but I guess not. So, I went back and got a 38 C and that bitch fit perfectly! OMFG, NICE!!! So, how that fucking works I have no bloody idea, but I won't argue :)

I kinda ended up splurging. I mean, I've lost something like 21-22 lbs since March and they were freaking cute AND on sale. Win Win in my opinion. And do you have any idea HOW LONG it's been since I've been able to buy cute sexy bras?? YEARS. Stupid 40 and up sizes, just doesn't happen. Or at least, it's few and far between. And usually expensive. So, I ended up get something like 8 bras and 3 cute panties. And a blanket. Don't ask. I am a total blanket whore. I have this thing for textures, especially on my feet. Also: My kid keeps stealing MY blanket and leaves me his and damn it, I just want my own damned blanket!

Then I head downstairs to the bathing suits. Because, you know, I have this cruise coming up in a few months (SO EXCITED) and it's a Caribbean cruise, which means SUN and therefore I must have some bathing suits. Found a cute shorts and bikini top :)

Also, another thing I noticed is that I've gone down in sizes from XL to L, another huge plus :) Makes me feel good :D

Then I headed over to Target, got another bikini top, a skirt (nothing fancy) and some new sheets.

Then I went to the local Asian Market, picked up some snacks and Aloe juice and finally headed home. I was only out for 2 hours. It felt like a whole day.

So, home, did 2 loads of laundry, cleaned a little bit, read some and have been watching some TV. No nap, alas. Stupid naps fucking avoid me. I did organize some CDs though too, which I need to finish. About 75% done with that, and then I will probably go back or put them in alphabetical order or something. Because, well, I can.

Like how I seriously contemplated mowing my lawn. I really really did. Instead I put on one of my bikini tops, and hung out doing all the above. It's a cute bikini top :^D

Tomorrow, it's Lowe's and grocery shopping. And hopefully more cleaning. Maybe mowing the lawn. MAYBE. Again, it would have to be in a bikini top because I am so damned white I would probably scare a ghost.

Tonight, I might make some bread, pack up my beads. I got in a mood and made a bracelet for a friends daughter. She's a bit goth I think, not 100% sure, so it's all black and red. Pretty onyx and red tigers eye. And hopefully get to bed before 1 am, unlike last night. Right now I'm watching a Bruce Willis movie. Maybe make some popcorn. I don't know. Hmmm. I'm tired though. And I still have some things I need to clean up and really don't feel like it right now. Is it sad I'm tired from putting sheets on my bed?

Popcorn it is :)

EDIT: I am making cookies tomorrow. Almost forgot that!!

Habitat for Humanity Pick Up SUCKS

So, they did NOT call me before showing up at my house - not cool. They said they were going to!!

Instead, I got a call from my kid.

I then called them, and said I would be there in 10 minutes. And on my way there, literally a block from my house, I saw that they called and left a vm.

I called immediately, instead of listening to said vm, and the somewhat not so nice lady said they won't be able to pick it up today, literally 10 fucking minutes from when they were 1st there, for several weeks and that I should call Salvation Army.

I asked if they just couldn't turn around because you know, they just left, she said no.

Motherfuckers.

You know, if she was just a little bit nicer, I wouldn't be so damned pissed.

You know, if they had called me BEFORE they showed up, like they were supposed to, I wouldn't be so damned pissed.

Assholes.

So, I called Salvation Army, there will be at my place Monday - and yes they said they would call me before showing up so that I can actually be there!!

Let's hope it goes as planned.

I am going to try to clean up the couch a little bit, vacuum it and see if I can get those little spots out.

Ugh.

Inner Bitch Quotes

July 2nd 2013:
An Inner Bitch Reminder: Toxic Niceness, the Disease to Please - call it what you will, it's dangerous.

April 2nd 2013:
"Sugar and spice and everything nice, that's what little girls are made of" is the start of Toxic Niceness. Let's replace this silly slogan with something more empowering, like "Girls will be girls"

April 12th 2013:
Let's stop praising girls (and ourselves) only for being "nice" and encourage them to speak up for themselves - the truth is that girls need to be tough at least as often as they need to be agreeable.

May 18/19 2013:
"In passing, also, I would like to say that the first time Adam had a chance, he laid the blame on a woman."  ~ Nancy Astor, first woman elected to Britain's House of Commons, born 5/19/1879

Donating to Habitat for Humanity and more things going on

Well, the couch we've had for the last several years is just going to have to go. And my old desk. Because, they don't fit well enough in the house.

So, I called Habitat for Humanity, and they will be coming to pick those up (hopefully today). Which I think is an awesome solution. I know they will go to a good home and make someone else happy and I don't have to worry about finding a way to get rid of them!!

My lawn mower is being delivered today (yay!) - Have I mentioned I love Amazon? It's a reel lawn mover, which means it's not electric or gas - just an old fashion push on. No carbon print, more hard work. Which suits me just fine for the little yard that I do have :) I've also ordered a trimmer on Amazon, because even with my 10% discount at Lowes, Amazon is still cheaper (and I have free 2 day shipping still).

I've put together the 2 end tables and coffee table - they were bigger than I thought! Wow. Only 1 of them wobbles a little bit, but will figure out how to fix that. I also put together one of the cat litter disguises, which was fun. Love me some drill action ;) I was going to do my dining room table, but my brain just rebelled against the idea so I did some laundry, put the empty & broken down cardboard boxes into my car (and put in recycling at work this morning), put away some clothes, and watched TV. Oh and I hung up (badly) 1 too short black out curtain in the Kid's room, but it's only temporary anyways until his room is painted and we get the curtains he really wants in it. But I could tell it at least made the room less hot. His gets FULL sunlight all morning long, so I hope to get the 2nd curtain up this weekend. I should also do my room - am trying to figure out what I want in there. I am definitely going to paint it, just need to figure out a good color :) Maybe a pale violet? And have an accent wall painted something else? Not sure yet!! I am also researching how to how to paint to that faded look - for the office and the kids room. He wants a moon on his ceiling, and we've talked about a using a semi dark twilight color. He said he wants it to fade lighter though. So, I will paint the office first, trying to see if I can get it fade from dark to light well enough to do that in his room.

My jeans are still a little bit loose, which is nice :)

I need a freaking nap though.

Oh, last night - July 4th?? Well, we're about a block or so over from a large park where they do fireworks every year. You could totally see them from our front porch! It was awesome! And because of how the wind was blowing, it looked like they were aimed directly for our house! OMG, I wish I had taken pictures. And then we noticed, it sounded like it was raining...Well it wasn't raining, it was just the blown up pieces of fireworks!! It was a trip. Inside the house, the booming was super loud, some of the windows rattled a little bit and the cats - awww the poor kitties - hid until it was over and then were still a bit freaked. Next year, I am soooo taking pictures though!

We have these Evergreen scrubs along out fence and by the side of the house. I've read that they are poisonous to cats and they certainly attract a lot of freaking flies - I am going to cut them back a lot (once my trimmer is here) and then see what I can do to replace them with something else - you know, something maybe berry/edible that would also look nice? or at least flowery and provides shade? I don't mind bees, but I don't like flies.

Last night I put out the trash, thank the gods. It is supposed to normally go out on Wednesdays, but due to the holiday it was last night. I had plenty from moving and unpacking so now I am looking for a large outdoor trash bin to shove it in every week. And work gloves. And a step ladder for inside (will need a larger ladder for outside, but later) and pad locks and a hose! So much to do!! I need a nap!

I am not sure if we're going to make it to IKEA this weekend. Am dropping off the twin mattress to my cousin tomorrow afternoon and I really need to get some more stuff put away/together before I add even more furniture/stuff to the place. But I don't want to go alone next weekend (the Ex has the kid and it's a 1 1/2 hour drive each way). So, hmmm. I will figure something out. I also need to go grocery shopping so we have real food and not just snacks in the house.

So tonight, after heading over to Lowes for some minor stuff, I need to change out one of the shower heads to mine, put in a shower liner in the downstairs bathroom (oh and change that shower head when I find the freaking thing - also need to figure how to switch from bath to shower!), and see if I can get my internet up and running. That is a must.

Good times!!

Karma

So I was reading some comments on a facebook post about what Karma is. So, I know how I think of it but wanted to google it and see what else is out there...

http://www.buddhanet.net/e-learning/karma.htm

Some parts stuck out to me, like:

 In other words, it is the result of our own past actions and our own present doings. We ourselves are responsible for our own happiness and misery. We create our own Heaven. We create our own Hell. We are the architects of our own fate.

and

"We are the heirs of our own actions." 

and

Karma does not necessarily mean past actions. It embraces both past and present deeds. Hence in one sense, we are the result of what we were; we will be the result of what we are. In another sense, it should be added, we are not totally the result of what we were; we will not absolutely be the result of what we are. The present is no doubt the offspring of the past and is the present of the future, but the present is not always a true index of either the past or the future; so complex is the working of Karma. 

 I didn't read all of it, but once I move I'm going to. Very interesting...

I do believe in soul journeys. That we experience things right here, right now, to either learn something or teach something. Whether we necessarily understand that or not, our soul is absorbing and disbursing knowledge, etc as we cycle through.

Ok, deep enough for the moment!! I need to do laundry :)

Not quite Pearls of Wisdom

So, as I was making myself dinner (ahem, egg sandwich - breakfast for dinner) I had some funny thoughts...about well I guess with Life Changes that have been going on and whatnot.

Edit: Ok, they were WAY funnier in my head...

• If you can't quite figure out how to cook for less people than you're used to, cook breakfast for dinner. Still healthy, filling and easy. Especially Egg Sandwiches
• Also: If you don't use a lot of bread, put it in the frig, it will stay fresher longer.
• You don't always have to do the dishes that day, it can wait. But no more than 2 days and only if it's a little bit. Especially when you've had a long and/or shitty day.
• If you get angry, or upset, clean or go take a shower. Either one will make you feel better...a clean house/clean me always makes me feel better. And more clear headed too.
• Reward yourself for staying sane. You're allowed.
• Kittens are amazing.
• Pictures can be fun to take and sometimes makes you get a different perspective on things.
• Vinegar is GREAT for cleaning, anything and everything. 
• Boiled eggs are a great snack.
• Vacuum. A lot. Even if it is to piss off your shitty neighbors.
• If someone is being an asshole, remember Karma goes both ways! It's nice to remember you don't have to do or say anything and know that at some point, they will get their own (this also applies to you if you're the one being an asshole, which means don't!). And, of course, if you help someone else, then good things will come your way. Remember that can sometimes help take off that pressure we didn't know we had from bad people/moments.

OK, now my brain is rotting and it's time to go read for a little bit!

Books, Authors and those who give Reviews

So, since I've joined GoodReads, I have read quite a bit, started writing reviews (and is it sad that I never realized how important it is for authors to have reviews!?!?) and reading what others wrote, learning the whole writing/publishing process, winning/entering giveaways, reading ARCs, etc. You sorta get the picture right?

I have read an authors 1st attempt at writing something to be published, some have been phenomenal and some, left me wanting to wash my eyes out but I can't un-read something. Damn. On those, I have always tried to give value-added suggestions/critique without being a bitch. Because there is no point in being mean or bitchy when someone is TRYING to get their ideas/story/characters to behave!! And not everyone is lucky to have friends or family or whatever that can assist with editing and proofing shit. And honestly, if I think it's in dire need of some sort of actual plot, I am sure others are and it's painful when you invest so much into something to have someone else arbitrarily smash it to itty bitty dots left scattered across the world. And I'm not the only nice one, not saying I am! Just that I have seen some pretty damn harsh reviews and comments on books. Different opinions and perspectives... doesn't mean you have to be mean about it.

No person is perfect. Period. Some of my favorite authors have had grammar mistakes, typos or just written a bad book or 2. It happens! It's not the end of the fucking world. They have dead lines and I don't really think anyone with a lick of creative energy can exactly say "Sure, I will have this 4th installment of my incredibly complicated series done for you by June 30th" never mind that most authors have real jobs, or are stay at home parents, or have a life on top it (sometimes). And let's not even discuss dealing with the whole publishing/self publishing process. Yikes!! You can't force creativity. You can't force your characters to do what you think you want them to do. And even if an author isn't given a specific deadline per se, I think there is that pressure of "I gotta get this done!" and then comes that long line of frustration, agitation, despair, resignation, and hopefully at some point in the swirly twirly miasma, ideas start flowing and things start moving again.

And yes, of course us readers WANT MORE. Because, you know, we're absolutely bored and must have the next installment of your amazing writing capabilities...while in the meantime we're having that same conversation with 20 other of our favorite authors. I have a LONG ASS LIST of favorite authors. LONG ASS LIST!!! And yes, I love so many of the series I've been reading, but that doesn't mean I won't read 150 books while waiting a year or so for the next to come out either. So if there's a couple (or more) months before I get my greedy little eyes on those awesome words, then well...my greedy little eyes will read some other words in the meantime while I wait. Simple, yes?

I have a point, let me see if I can remember it...Shit...

Oh, so I am re-reading a book from a while back. The author commented to me, since he's emailed me in the past, that some people love it and some people hate it. And I can honestly say I see both points. But I don't look at the 1st book in the series are the sole indicator. I have read really crappy 1st books and yes went on to read the 2nd, and you know what? The 2nd books was a LOT better. The 3rd even more so. People grow. They learn. And, I think, their characters and stories evolve, the author evolves with them. It's kinda like you teaching your kids and at the same time, your kids teaching you. And for me, some characters are just assholes or whiny or annoying (oh wait, just like in real life!) and sometimes it takes a while for a plot(s) to unfold or for something to really get the juices going. Sometimes it's from the first freaking page. And sometimes it's the last 4 chapters (thank the gods I'm patient!). I remember reading Tommyknockers by Stephen King and wish he had cut out 50% of the book because it was either too random or repetitive of what he had already written. The idea still intrigued me, but the damn, did it really have to be THAT long.

I have had few books that I will never ever read again, and few authors I feel the same way. There are only 2 that come to mind, and both of them mixed straight out Christianity with Fantasy that made me want to scream until the windows shattered. I guess that's my line in the sand. I have NO problem with religion in books, nasty or not, mixed in with fantasy/magic/whatever. But when it's screaming obvious it's Christianity and some really fucked up wanna be "God will Save you, but you must repent your sins and be re-born" shit, it's just the biggest fucking turn off for me. That's just, to me at least, has no place whatsoever in a fantasy book. Ugh //vent

Ok, back to this. So, I am only like a 100 pages into the book right now, don't forget, I keep switching between books still for some unknown freaky deaky reason, but I'm not thinking - this sucks - so, at least that's good right :)

And I might reserve judgment until I read the 2nd and 3rd books. I can usually tell once I'm a little bit more into the series.

Also: Writing styles. Sometimes I am not IN THE DAMN MOOD for certain writing styles. I might not want to read books next in a series that I loved reading in the past, because my mood is just...not with it. Doesn't mean the book(s) are bad or anything. It's all me on that part. And other times, I will devour every book for in a series for weeks on end, and then get burnt out on them for a year or 2. Sometimes I am craving a good hot urban fantasy with some serious sexy stuff in it. Other times, I want straight up fantasy with no hint of sex. Or I want shifters. Or I want Sci-Fi. It really can depend on what the mood calls for. I guess, just like authors, the readers have to be a receptive mood for things to work as well!!

Anyway! I am starting yet another book (I think I read my library books first because I feel obligated so that others who are waiting to read them, don't have to wait too long...does that make sense?), and this one I am nervous about reading. The 1st book was a fucking trip. This one, Unwholly by Neal Shusterman, I am just a little freaked out over. The 1st book was not something I would ever have thought of and this author has a fascinatingly dark mind, so I guess that why I have some trepidation in starting this one. But it's a library book and someone else probably wants to it.

Breathe!!! Just read, damn it!

Ok, I have more thoughts on people who comment on books for later on (hope I don't forget) because it somewhat amazes me how nasty people can be. ~TTYL

Inner Bitch Quote

I liked today's quote, so I thought I'd share!

Many small people, in many small places, do many small things, that can alter the face of the world. 

~ Anonymous

- Your Inner Bitch knows that a simple "I don't think so" may seem small, but it has the power to alter your world. -

Inner Bitch Quotes

"It's not what you are, it's what you don't become that hurts"
- Oscar Levant

"Sometimes the girl who's always there for everyone needs someone to be there for her"
-Anonymous

An Inner Bitch Reminder:
If you don't know where you want to go, how will you ever get there? Plan your work - and your life - and work your plan. Adjust that plan as necessary, but always ask yourself, "What am I thinking?"

"It's the strong ones who ask for help"
-Anonymous


"It takes a might good man to be better than no man at all"
-Dixie Carter

Great Quote

We are what we repeatedly do.

Excellence, therefore, is not an act but a habit.