Animosity - Perspective - Prerogative

http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/animosity?s=t

http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/perception?s=t

http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/prerogative

an·i·mos·i·ty

/ˌænəˈmɒsɪti/ Show Spelled [an-uh-mos-i-tee] Show IPA

noun, plural an·i·mos·i·ties.

a feeling of strong dislike, ill will, or enmity that tends to display itself in action: a deep-seated animosity between two sisters; animosity against one's neighbor.

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Origin:
1400–50; late Middle English animosite (< Middle French ) < Late Latin animōsitās. See animus, -ose¹ , -ity

 

Synonyms
hostility, unfriendliness, opposition, antagonism, animus, hatred.

 

per·cep·tion

/pərˈsɛpʃən/ Show Spelled [per-sep-shuhn] Show IPA

noun

1.  the act or faculty of perceiving, or apprehending by means of the senses or of the mind; cognition; understanding.

2.  immediate or intuitive recognition or appreciation, as of moral, psychological, or aesthetic qualities; insight; intuition; discernment: an artist of rare perception. 

3.  the result or product of perceiving, as distinguished from the act of perceiving; percept.

4.  Psychology . a single unified awareness derived from sensory processes while a stimulus is present.

5.  Law. the taking into possession of rents, crops, profits, etc.

 

Origin:
1350–1400; Middle English percepcioun (< Old French percepcïon ) < Latin perceptiōn- (stem of perceptiō ) comprehension, literally, a taking in. See percept, -ion

Related forms

per·cep·tion·al, adjective

non·per·cep·tion, noun

non·per·cep·tion·al, adjective

re·per·cep·tion, noun

self-per·cep·tion, noun

un·per·cep·tion·al, adjective

Synonyms
1. awareness, sense, recognition.

 

pre·rog·a·tive

/prɪˈrɒgətɪv, pəˈrɒg-/ Show Spelled [pri-rog-uh-tiv, puh-rog-] Show IPA

noun

1. an exclusive right, privilege, etc., exercised by virtue of rank, office, or the like: the prerogatives of a senator. 

2. a right, privilege, etc., limited to a specific person or to persons of a particular category: It was the teacher's prerogative to stop the discussion. 

3. a power, immunity, or the like restricted to a sovereign government or its representative: The royal prerogative exempts the king from taxation. 

4. Obsolete , precedence.

adjective

5. having or exercising a prerogative.

6. pertaining to, characteristic of, or existing by virtue of a prerogative.

 

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Origin:
1350–1400; Middle English < Latin praerogātīvus (adj.) voting first, praerogātīva (noun use of feminine of adj.) tribe or century with right to vote first. See pre-, interrogative

Synonyms
1. See privilege.

Poor bush

I am slowly clearing out the trees and bushes in my back yard...I want to have a garden there instead. ..so me and the Kid take out our stresses and also get in some exercise in doing so !

Thursday Thoughts

So I am sitting here thinking...and realize those thoughts just run run run away.

Hmmm



My period is starting to show itself, just a hint of it this morning. No wonder I've been craving chocolate and cookies and sex (sigh, I am really really missing sex right now). It will probably be a couple days before I get a full showing from Aunt Flo (the bitch) but at least it's basically staying on time.

Today, it's raining out and chilly. I love it. I wish I had a fireplace, that would be completely awesome. Maybe the next house. Or I can get a cabana and a fire pit or something. I love that smell of wood burning (safely) and gods, it's been centuries since I've actually MADE s'mores!

So instead I am drinking hot Chai tea, loaded up with sugar and creamer (the only way to drink it in my mind) and happily pretending I care 2 wits about work today.

Though I will say the rain makes my left knee hate me (stupid arthritis). And with my impending period, I'm really wanting to sleep (that is really, of course, a coma induced by chocolate, cookies and sex) and maybe actually read. I haven't read in days. DAYS. There is something seriously wrong with this picture! Last night, it was laundry and phone conversations (after chores and dinner). Both were needed and awesome, but I probably could have gone to sleep a tad bit earlier (love me some Jon Stewart!) and and and maybe I could have snuck in a half hour of reading. I could have!! Hmmm.

Tonight, I'm getting the Xmas totes down and going through those, so no reading tonight either for me. On the way home, I need to swing by the store and drop off some out going mail. And get a bottle of wine (ahem, it helps with the period and it tastes yummy).

Some big holidays are coming up. Thanksgiving, well that night I am flying to FLL to see my BFF and go on a cruise :) YES. No real plans for that day, at least none that involve much more than relaxing and double checking my bags!! The Kid will be with his Dad. One of my BFFs here is going to watch my house and kitties for me, which is awesome :)

Then there is Yule and Xmas. Yule, I have the kid and I am sure he will be ripping through his presents like a mad demon, which I will attempt to take pictures of. Christmas Eve and Christmas, shit I should look at the Calendar. I think I has him those days too, with the Ex getting him the day after and for a week. Which I think isn't that fair, he should get him one of those days as well...will talk to him again about that and see what he says.

Then it's New Years and I have got to think of something, DIFFERENT, to do this New Years. It's new in a lot of different ways and I want to remember it in a good way :)

I will have to ask my girlfriends and see what they have going on.

In other news, I doubt I will be painting this weekend! LOL
I need to get my ass in gear it seems.

Tomorrow night, it's THOR at the movies though = AWESOME

And my hair is starting to grow out! YES! I don't look so lesbian-ish (which is great if I was one, but I'm not and don't want to confuse people) and I need to Henna dye it again before my cruise!

Dental Insurance Annoyances & Hi!!

So, with me going onto my company's dental insurance, the dentist I've been going to for years is not "in-network" but they do take it as out of network. Which, of course, is much more expensive to me. Which means I will be finding a new dentist, which just fucking sucks. Which Which Which, wow, write that work much do I???

The good news, is that the kid's orthodontist is in-network.

But still, HUGE annoyance to me! Because, I really really have liked this dentist and they've done good work! UGH.

So I didn't make it to the movies last Friday night. Just went out to dinner. We went to House of Kobi, which (ahem, that damned word again) was pretty packed. I think I was just sorta peopled out - you know? I just wanted a more quiet place to relax and not dealing with more people and/or crowds.

This Friday, taking the Kid to see Thor in the movie theatre though!! Will have to check out times and which place to take him soon.

I am also pulling down the holiday boxes so they can be split/sorted with the Ex. And the same with the DVD/Blu-ray movies at the house. Good times. Sigh...

Oh and I'm starting to PMS, because life is like that. So. Yes. That.

Other than that stuff though, life is going pretty good. Work is good, the house is always in need of cleaning or laundry doing or something, but that's all normal stuff and good. I'm feeding a stray cat, pushing meds down 2 cats throats twice a day and dealing with angst-y preteen. But honestly? I am just so happy, it's all ok :)

I am soooo looking forward to my cruise! I am getting really excited :) I am pretty sure I have all my clothes, though I should probably check that out and see...and I think I might need more shoes....I don't know. Maybe.

I do know that I am getting waxed on Saturday, Brazilian and under arms (never done those before, which will make it interesting if anything). Then I will see about scheduling another session for my legs right before I leave.

I need a nap. Hmmm, maybe I will see about attempting to go to bed early tonight.

A little bit of Monday Madness

It was a busy and not busy weekend. I did not paint the office. Perhaps this weekend.

I wrote out my To Do List, and for once, it doesn't seem like it's TOO much. I mean, I can't really remember the last time I felt that way about things that need to be done. I think part of that is I've finally *almost* gotten to the point where I don't worry if something has to wait to get done (ahem, dishes anyone??). Because letting something wait a few hours or a day, it's really not going to end the world. I am not having panic or anxiety as much over them. Still a little bit, like this worry that keeps nagging at me, nagging at me, nagging until I tell it to chill. Sometimes it does and other times it just gets louder.

Saturday, I slept in a little bit. Made eggs, bacon and coffee. And cinnamon rolls. I was feeling in the mood, even without the kid there (which is always, always hard for me). So I probably over did it. I was using a new cast iron skillet for the bacon. Well...I think next time it would be smarter to cut the bacon in half and do it that way, so that ends get more cooked!!

I did a load of laundry. Hmmm...went to the library and dropped off my books that I'm not reading. Then headed over to the new age store across the street. Where a rather large quartz point let me know that I needed to take it home with me. Well, ok then.

Saturday night, hmmm, I am sure there was dinner involved and part of a scary movie that I saved for later and I think the cats tormenting me and sleep.

Sunday, I hung out with a friend and worked on a puzzle and watched a football game. Last night, it was cleaning and getting the dishes done and I had thought about laundry. I did, I thought for several seconds about doing laundry. Then decided Monday night would be better served for that.

Also, the Kid came home with some serious attitude. Bad attitude. Oh the joys of that. Hopefully he will have chilled out a little bit otherwise I'm in for having another talk with him today about that crap.

Now, tonight, before laundry, I have a few things to take back to JC Penny and Kohl's. I will attempt to get the Kid a belt again. I tried the last time we were out shopping and he refused to try any of them on. Very frustrating when his pants are loose on him and he's whining about the belt his Dad got him has too big of a buckle and that it hurts his stomach when he sits. Ugh, Kid - why pick that one out then!!?? I mean...really.

Anyway, so shopping and Pet store and home to do laundry. Exciting night!! I am liking the calmness of it all though. I am really looking forward to winter being here too...

Work is busy. Tomorrow it will be more so. Which is nice and good and I like :)

Taylor Swift/Ed Sheeran - Everything Has Changed

Lyrics provided by:
http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/taylorswift/everythinghaschanged.html


"Everything Has Changed"
(duet with Ed Sheeran)


[Taylor Swift]
All I knew this morning when I woke
Is I know something now, know something now I didn't before.
And all I've seen since eighteen hours ago
Is green eyes and freckles in your smile
In the back of my mind making me feel right

[Taylor Swift]
I just wanna know you better, know you better, know you better now
I just wanna know you better, know you better, know you better now

[Both]
I just wanna know you better, know you better, know you better now
I just wanna know you, know you, know you

[Both]
'Cause all I know is we said, "Hello."
And your eyes look like coming home
All I know is a simple name
Everything has changed
All I know is you held the door
You'll be mine and I'll be yours
All I know since yesterday is everything has changed

[Ed Sheeran]
And all my walls stood tall painted blue
And I'll take them down, take them down and open up the door for you

[Taylor Swift (Album version) / Ed Sheeran (Remix version):]
And all I feel in my stomach is butterflies
The beautiful kind, making up for lost time,
[Album version:] Taking flight, making me feel right
[Remix version:] Taking flight, making me feel right like

[Both]
I just wanna know you better, know you better, know you better now
I just wanna know you better, know you better, know you better now
I just wanna know you better, know you better, know you better now
I just wanna know you, know you, know you

[Both]
'Cause all I know is we said, "Hello."
And your eyes look like coming home
All I know is a simple name
Everything has changed
All I know is you held the door
And you'll be mine and I'll be yours
All I know since yesterday is everything has changed

Come back and tell me why
I'm feeling like I've missed you all this time, oh, oh, oh.
And meet me there tonight
And let me know that it's not all in my mind.

[Taylor Swift]
I just wanna know you better, know you better, know you better now
I just wanna know you, know you, know you

[Both]
All I know is we said, "Hello."
And your eyes look like coming home
All I know is a simple name
Everything has changed
All I know is you held the door
You'll be mine and I'll be yours
All I know since yesterday is everything has changed

[Taylor Swift]
All I know is we said, "Hello."
So dust off your highest hopes
All I know is pouring rain and everything has changed
All I know is a new found grace
All my days I'll know your face
All I know since yesterday is everything has changed

Freaky Friday

Halloween - I had me some trick or treaters! I must say, this is the first year, like EVER, that I have RUN OUT OF CANDY!! And it was only about an hour into it! OMFG. And and and! The kids were nice and polite and their parents were with them and my neighborhood ROCKED it last night!

Ok.

Whew. It was just awesome. AWESOME!!!

I started watching a movie, but got tired and had to record it. I will finish watching it at some point. Maybe Saturday night. Because - tonight - I has a date :) Going to the movies - and it's been forever since I've done that (let alone at night!!) so I am really excited!!

I do have some errands and things to do this weekend...

I need to take back some of the clothes I got in from JC Penny. One dress I am going to give to one of my bff's though, hoping she can wear it this coming summer. That one was ordered off of Amazon, and I am not shipping anything to China, sorry. Besides, the 2 things I got from China were cheap enough I can either give away or see if I can re-sell on eBay or Amazon or something.

I need to vacuum upstairs, since that's the only thing I haven't done. Oh and then organize my office and FILE THE DAMN PAPERWORK I have sitting out. Ahem. I'm a tad bit annoyed at myself over that.

Take back the books I'm not reading to the library. May as well...

Oh and maybe paint. I don't know...I am feeling pretty tired today. Pret-ty tired. I think I might sleep in on Saturday, make breakfast for lunch and then take a nap. Sounds like a good plan to me!!

So, it seems that my screen on my old phone needs to super damned small screw driver to take the screws out. Annoying. I need to now order that. But! Oh!! The Kid's cell phone has been found! So the Great Cell Search of 2013 was a success :)

Ok, time to go clean up some shelves at work. Good times. Sure....

Imagine Dragons - Radioactive

I am somewhat addicted to this song right now. This and one other. Ahem

Here is their video, love it.

Coffee is Divine

Ok, so I could not exist without coffee, in some form or fashion, in the morning. I just couldn't. It's not ALL about the caffeine, though that really helps. It's about the yummy taste and warmth. The creamy goodness and sometimes (only with Dunkin' Donuts coffee), that sweet sugary taste.

Insurance - it's really a pain in the ass. Right now, trying to figure out which is best for the Kid, mine or the Ex's. It's almost like comparing apples to pears. Similar, but slightly different verbiage and rates and vagueness. The joys - NOT.

I did not get a whole lot done last night. I really really wasn't in the mood. Tonight, however, I will be a cleaning Mama with a mission.

So, the Great Cell Search of 2013 is still in effect. Sometime during the weekend, more than likely at some point on Sunday, the Kid misplaced his phone. He didn't realize it until Monday and since he was off on Monday and Tuesday, I had asked him to look. Now, him "looking" probably wasn't that intense. So last night I helped him, especially since I had thought I heard it dying Monday night as I was going to bed. Well, that fucker isn't in my room. Nor my bathroom. If it's in the office, gods only know if we will find it.

Part of tonights mission, while cleaning the house, is see if we can locate his damned to Hades cell phone.

On the agenda:

• Sweeping (SHOCK! Who knew!!)
• Vacuum and scrub the rugs
•  Vacuum upstairs
• Move things not using from office & hallway to Attic
• Go through the piles of paper in the kitchen, dining room and sort/set on pile to file (damn it, at some point in this life I WILL FILE!!)
• Dishes
• 1 load of laundry

And that's really enough for one night. Jeez. Though I might try to go ahead and replace the screen on my old phone...

I have been slowly, very slowly, starting to read again. Without smoking.

Oh and yeah it's been like 5 weeks, still no wanting/craving/needing of cigarettes. Wow. All I can say is WOW. I mean, damn. Wow.

Puck

So, I thought I do a quick post on Puck. Here are some more recent pics of him :)

Pucks medicine had to be mixed using this:

EDIT: Removed old pics since they aren't linked anymore.

He's still caterwauling, but it's a lot less, which is sooooo nice. I am still keeping the bathroom door shut until his meds are done and I've sprayed that area like a 1,000 times to get rid of any "odor" he can smell. His weight is good. I think it's just going to have to be a wait and see situation...

Exhaustive but wonderful Weekend

Can you believe it's already Tuesday??

Friday night was the football game, and I think my ass is still thawing out! I was a chaperon and it wasn't that exciting. But it totally brought back memories of HS Band!! I did take a lot of pictures of the band though. I need to download those and send them to the band director.

We got home kinda late, my brain was friend and the Kids more so.

Saturday, go up late, made pancakes and eggs, cleaned a little bit and then that afternoon was back at the school for the Mummers Parade. Which was a lot of fun and boredom at the same time. Once I dropped him off, I went and parked at the library and just hung out, waiting, for others to show up and the parade to start. Oh and yeah, the Kid ate something like 20 of the pancakes!! Talk about prepping for a long day!

And it was cool watching the parade!

After seeing the Kids band go by, it was time to get something to eat, since I was starving!! So we got Chinese. We were just leaving when the Kid called and said he was back early. We swung by and got him and headed home.

Sunday, the kids slept in late. I mean, it was close to 1 pm by the time the Kid was sorta up. And he said he wasn't hungry, which I think is BS especially considering how much he ate the day before! But damn it, he wanted pumpkin pie it seems. So we head out, go to a corn maze and have a lot of fun :) I take more pictures and we meander our way back home with a couple stops along the way. One being dinner, where he ate literally 3 hamburgers and 1 hotdog. OMG, seriously, that's a growth spurt in the making I think. We also did some grocery shopping on the way home. And it was laundry Sunday and Monday night. And sweeping and dishes and it never, ever, fucking ends! The cleaning!! I like a lot of it to be honest. I just wish it wasn't every single time I turned around!!

In other news: The gas company has been doing construction around my neighborhood and it seems that my house is on their list. So Thursday they will be replacing the pipe line and meter. The guy said it should only take the 1 day. He had a lot of piercings, which was cool. I don't know about replacing gas lines, but as long as everything is safe, and my house isn't destroyed, I'm good with it.

I've been feeding a stray cat. Last night, I think he wanted to come in. Now, I don't mind feeding him, but he's not coming in with his fleas and gods only know what else. Plus, I have my hands full with 4 cats, 2 of whom are sick and 1 will probably end up on a slow downward spiral :( Poor Puck. I've been giving him the antibiotics, which he does not seem to appreciate. And that shit was expensive. Oh, that was another thing I had picked up Saturday morning! See, busy fucking weekend!!

Ok, so stray cat...I put out a towel but I was told that probably won't help, because a 32 degree towel is about the same as 32 degree floor. Good point. So, I will just be washing that and figuring something else out. It was also suggested that a light bulb does put off heat, and that might be a good idea. I like it :) Sometimes even 10 degrees can mean life. Now, if there is some major snow storm or something, I guess I could open the cellar and keep the light on or something. With food and water. I don't know...too much to deal with.

This weekend, I am hoping to paint the office and get a curtain up in that window. I am also seriously considering swapping out the hardware for the curtains in some of the rooms too. I think I will need help with that. I also want to at least see about getting the paint for my room as well. I've sorta decided on a color, if I can match it somehow at Home Depot (I have this beautiful blue moonstone ring, LOVE the blue). I am going to the movies Friday night :) Which is quite exciting!!

Hmmm, I really this this weekend is about getting more of the house done and in order. A good feeling, especially if I can get this accomplished before my vacation. Oh and I think I've gotten everything for the vacation (at least clothes wise) which is a relief.

Ok, time to sign off and go search for the Kids cell phone. Will explain that one later!!

Flipping Friday

Today is a busy day. Not just at work either.

The Kid has a football game tonight, the first in his marching band career! Since it will be tonight and todays high is supposed to be 51 degrees, we will be freezing our collective asses off. I so remember those days in HS though. I personally had a lot of fun, minus all the hard work, being in marching band. Anyway, we won't get home until probably about 11 pm. Yikes.

Then tomorrow night, it's almost a rinse and repeat, just a parade and slightly earlier home time. During the day, I will probably be cleaning and organizing a little bit downstairs.

Sunday, we have plans and will probably be out most of the day. I swear, I will sleep at some point!

Update on Puck:
So, I have been calling the Vet every day, trying to get a hold of the Dr and see what is up. Well, I still didn't talk to her, but I did at least speak to someone. Who somewhat relayed what the Dr. said and that she wanted to do a urine culture, which would entail Puck being there all day, them taking the urine directly from his bladder and costing me about $160. I just don't have it. Partly because I know it won't end there. With Vets and animals, it almost never ever does. She did say that his kidneys are borderline and that is possible to step away from the brink. With a special diet, supplements and fluids being pushed (see what I mean about it not ending??). Hello, single mom here who works full time and barely has time to eat anymore. So. I asked what other options there are. She called me back much later and said I could do a general antibiotic and see if that kills anything that MIGHT be growing in his urine (aka bacteria) and that the Dr. will talk me to later at some point about options. One of the things she brought up was just a "wait and see" on how he's doing. And for the last couple of days, he's been ok. He's been sitting next me, he's eating, drinking and everything else. We're keeping the bathroom door shut so he won't pee on the towel/rug in there. And I got this Nature's Miracle to eliminate the urine odorbut the one I got is lavender scented I think. Hopefully it will work and the antibiotics will work. However, the eventuality of it is that he will have be put to sleep once things get worse :_( So. I'm taking lots of pictures of him. I'm keeping the Kid aware of the situation, because that is not a happy surprise.

It's not an ideal situation, but any situation with a sick cat is never good.

In other news, still not reading as much as I was. Not sure if this good, bad or just eh. Maybe at some point this weekend I will read. LOL, gods, that sounds so weird to me - the one who used to read 4 or 5 books in a week. It just seems that my time is better spend elsewhere now...Will see what kind of balance can be reached ;)

Back to the grind

Happy Thursday - I am starting to LOVE me some Thursdays

OMG  - It actually snowed for a blink of an eye here today! Wow! I wonder what this means for this winter. Is this winter supposed to be worse than last year?? I should probably check that out!

So I got in some the stuff I purchased and 2 of 3 items didn't work out. Which is how it is sometimes when ordering stuff online without the ability to see if it fits. I am not too stressed, as the ones that didn't fit were not that expensive.

This one fit:


These did NOT fit:
and

Now, the cute black dress? Hmmm, if I lose the weight I want to lose, I bet you money I will be able to wear it. Their Large is really a size 10. Right now, I am basically a size 12 in most things and sometimes a 14 depending on the style and whatnot. Some more or some less, you never know. Both of these were made in China and the bodice shipped from China so I am not going to ask for a refund. Too much of a pain in the ass! The bodice, well not sure if I can EVER fit that one, because damn it's made for someone who's idea of Large is a pinky or something. I probably know someone who's a stick figure that I can gift this too. I hope. Will see.

Tonight is Pizza night. Tonight I am going to make rice krispies damn it. Hot sticky yummy goodness, all right there.

I have some laundry to put away and some dishes to do and probably sweep the house again. Never ending sweeping.

I haven't heard from the vet. I've called every day. Ahem. Annoyed is what I am starting to get.

Work is busy as all get out. Plus I am leaving early a lot lately for the Kid's band practice, football game and Monday is his dental appointment. Good times baby!

Oh and Thursday? It's a good day :) That's all I'm saying about it. Really. Really good day.

Whacked Wednesday

Hmmm....let's see...

I am still somewhat exhausted and that probably won't change any time in the foreseeable future. Between work, house work, the Kid's band schedule and other life life-y-ness, I am pretty much going to be on my feet and just go - go - going pretty much all this month and half of next. Ok, realistic, into the new year. But whatever!!

But then...then...I have VACATION!!!

I am excited, nervous and sorta ho hum about vacation. I have loved ones I am going to really miss while gone. I'm scared silly about being on the ocean but super excited about visiting other countries.

Good News:
Weight is staying the same. Miracle in some ways, since I've quit smoking I would think I would gain some weight.

Life is good overall, so there is that. Focus on the good things!!

Sorta Bad News:
You know, this week has been a bit of a cluster fuck. And what do I realize? Mercury Retrograde started on Monday. Go fucking figure.

I think that for 2014, I am going to work on that page of my blog and give it some more information.


Bad News:
The kid said his knees were hurting. I had assumed 2 things: 1 - it was from the fall and should be checked out or 2 - he's growing again (have I mentioned he's gotten taller in the last month? Yeah, I should probably measure him). So, I called his Dr. and took him in. Who knew it's been a couple years since his last visit! Anyway, the Dr. said it wasn't the falling down the stairs. Oh nos. He has what is called Osgood-Schlatter disease, which is not so much a disease...

http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/osgood-schlatter-disease/DS00392

The Dr said it's common, between ages 10-16 and that it usually ends around 16. It's not the end of the world and there isn't much to do for it, other than rest and if need pain meds (advil type). So, his whining now has a name and reason.

Oh and he needs some vaccinations. Got those scheduled for November. Good times for him!!

More Bad News:
Puck, my poor kitty Puck, is having issues. Spoke to the Vet and she said that his kidney's are not doing so hot. His urine is not concentrated, this means his kidney's aren't working like they should. And honestly, when the kidney's are going - it's just a matter of time before his organs start shutting down. I have read that a lot of people can push the fluids for their cats, basically bypassing the kidney functions...and that it can extend the kitty's life months to another 1-2 years. For me, it comes into a situation that's 3-fold. 1. I don't have the time (sad, I know) 2. I don't have the money (also sad, I know) and 3. I - personally - don't think the quality of life would be all that. He's 12 years old, old but not that old. Also, from what I've read, when a cat starts showing symptoms, that means 70-75% of the kidney's are gone. And yes, some people are really good at devoting all their time to their sick cat. I really wish I could. But the fact is, even if I did - I am only prolonging his life for months and maybe a year or 2. Is that really fair to him? I don't know. It's a really tough question. I've been thinking about this for days now and I am still not sure what the answer is. For me, if this was me, and I didn't have kids or anything - just companions and all I did was sleep a lot - I think I'd rather just go...but that's me. And he is a big part of our family, part of our dynamic. I can only imagine how Diego and Tiamet are going to react. Daisy, she's going to miss him, but probably not as much as Tiamet (his sister) or Diego will. Not to mention, we got Puck and Tiamet just after the Kid was born. He's had them his whole life. When I talked to him about the situation, he said that we should let Puck be put down, that he doesn't want him to suffer for anything. Oh my gods, my kid. He loves Puck as much as I do. He loves all our cats. It's just hard. It's part of life and I wish things were easier. I wish he wasn't sick and that he didn't have to go through this. It makes me wonder if I should see about changing the cats diet again, add in more protein and see if I can at least make sure the kitten and Diego (hopefully Diego) don't get this. Diego, dude is fat. No idea what to do with him sometimes. I don't know. Maybe I will research a raw diet for them and just get away completely from processed food (though I will keep a small amount for bad weather situations...) I don't know. It just seems, this is all fucked up. Inside house hold cats should NOT have the type of health issues they are getting, if their food was healthy. I know I switched mine in the last few years to the much higher grade of food, but damn. Too little too late???

It's hard thinking about it. And Tiamet, her thyroid - I haven't been the best kitty mommy about giving her her meds (between the divorce, the house and everything, it's just been rough) and the Dr said it's not under control. Ugh.

I need more time in the day, more energy or a clone of myself or perhaps part myself and part robot who doesn't need to sleep or take breaks. And a handy man. And a massager. And someone who will keep me warm at night. And maybe a chef. You get the idea. LOL.

Just a quickie - for right now

Work yesterday kicked my fat ass that's for sure. We had office movers and installers in to move/set up shelves and move these pallets/racks/shelves/anything heavy into a new warehouse that will probably be a good portion where I spend my days moving forward.

I barely sat down, completely missed lunch and talked myself hoarse. Good times! But the shit got done, and that's all that matters :)

However, here's some life/death that was going on.

This poor toad. It seems it was getting too cold for the little guy. He's barely alive in this picture...

Here we have a mouse in the house at work. I tried to get a picture of him but all I seem to get was the nest he's made himself.

EDIT: Removed broken pics/links

Monday Madness = Body Sore and multiple various things

Friday night was sorta rough. I attempted to move the kids room into an ordered chaos (ie, everything away from the walls with enough room to paint them) and also attempted to put painters tape around things like windows or doors. Yeah, that was somewhat successful. All the while half way drunk on JD Honey Whiskey (yum!) because it was Friday night and damn it, I wanted a drink.

Saturday, I got up late Saturday morning (see JD Honey Whiskey above), did the cat litter, dishes and took a shower. Then, prepped for painting. Got my music going and got to work. It was about 1 pm when I finally get cracking.

Ceiling was first. I'm surprised I don't have a kink in my neck from looking up. I just did 1 coat on the ceiling, since it's a dark color.

This first picture shows you the ceiling grey with the old blue walls (bright blue, that is). There was still good natural light coming in at this point. The paint is still sorta wet though in this shot.

That took about 1.5 hours. I stopped for a brief lunch, standing - because I had paint on my clothes and didn't want to sit on anything - and had a short phone conversation and then it was back to work.

EDIT: Removed broken pics/links

By the time I was done with the walls, it was dark out - which is why this picture isn't as bright. I ended up having to do 2 coats on the walls, since that color is a nice light grey - the bright blue was showing through making them look dirty. So, another short break to drink something and shove some kind of edible food into my mouth, then the 2nd coat was applied. I will say that on the last 3 little walls (I really really didn't want to finish Saturday, but I did! I have plans for Sunday and didn't want to change those) I just make it a thicker 1 coat - mainly because 1: I was running out of paint and 2: I was fucking tired. FUCKING TIRED.

It's not perfect, but it doesn't NEED to be. It will eventually get painted again - AND - if the kid/I want, I have enough paint for some (read: very very minor ones) touch ups.

I had to move furniture, more than once. I did a lot of stairs, bending, on my tippy toes for a good portion and crouching down to get the bottom of the walls.

At the end, I texted the picture to the kid, took another shower, attempted to get what paint out of things that I could, and plopped myself down on my couch. I was too tired to cook and too tired to actually put on more than panties and a tee-shirt to answer the door if I had bothered to order food in. It was close to 8 pm when the room was done and before I started the clean up process. It was about 9 pm when I sat down. It was about 10:30 pm when I finally said fuck it and took my tired ass up the stairs. Only to have to come down (and yes, back up) them 3 times after that because the fucking caterwauling cat Puck would not shut the hell up. I finally gave up and slept on the couch. It was past 3 am at this point. Seriously.

Sunday, I was up at 8:52 am. Hello sunshine, bite me. Fed the cats, did the dishes, the cat litter and made myself 2 eggs. And coffee. Coffee is my bestest of best friends. Coffee Rules.

Then I took a shower and got ready. Then realized I had more time than I thought, and cleaned some more, ie: sweeping - that never ending bitch that drives me. I hope I am burning calories with this shit. Organized some of CD's (read: moved them to the media case and shoved them into a slot) and did some of my finances. Stupid medical bills - they SUCK.

Anyways, then I was out all afternoon and early evening. I'm about 10 minutes from the house when my Kid calls me and tells me he took a dive down the stairs. It seems that they didn't like him or his socks for some reason and tossed him down. He was not happy. I was not happy. He's fine, nothing broken, bleeding or bruised (that I could see). His pads of his feet hurt but that calmed down as the night wore on. I'm hoping it's a growth spurt and not my clutz genetics at work here. This morning, he was 100% normal. Heart Attack for Mom - 1.

Busy ass weekend. Wonderful and awesome in many many ways. Accidental stair case maneuvers, notwithstanding.

Today, however. My body fucking ACHES. My knees - OH MY FUCKING GODS my knees HATE me and want me to keel over and die! Thankfully my arm that was hurting so bad Saturday night is movable again. But my hips and knees? They hate my sorry ass! I have been taking advil or aleve since Saturday night and they just scream bloody murder at me. And what do I do? Ignore it. Granted, today it seems to be worse. Today, it feels like someone is driving needles under my knee caps. That's a joyous feeling let me tell you.

I need to start doing yoga again. Seriously. Because this shit is NOT cool. Not cool AT ALL.

So, I am going to go walk around this lovely new storage building and figure out racks and shit and pretend that pain is my friend. A really unwanted, annoying friend - but there you go.

Cruise Clothes

I already have:

• 1 Formal Evening Gown (it's sparkly, green and makes me look hot - or so I've been told)
• 1 Formal Pink Dress for one of our events
• 1 Summery type dress I can wear to one of the islands
• 2 Bikini tops and 1 shorts to go with either
• Jeans (will I even need a pair?)

Here are some of what I've purchased:
  


What I need?? Ha

• Shorts (in my new size) which means I might see if Old Navy has anything.
• Shirts - I have some, but most are for work. Who wants to wear work clothes on a cruise? I have others, but those are more for dates. And the ones I wear on the weekends? Are starting to get a little worn out.
• New sandals? New walking shoes
• I can't think of anything else, because it's only a week and it shouldn't be that crazy. It seems the most I need are clothes for dinner (since you can't wear shorts and whatnot after 5:30 or something like that...thus these dresses).

It's a Caribbean cruise, I don't want to wear pants for any reason, unless I am in a jungle. 

I want sun, beaches, yummy drinks and good conversation with my BFF. And maybe some cool excursions as well :)

Freaky Friday - But then reality sets in

I left my make up at home by accident, so today is sans make up. Hmmm. Puffy eyes without the ability to put eye shadow on doesn't exactly make me happy.

 

Took Tiamet and Puck to the vet last night. The vet was really surprised that 1: The cats stayed on the table and 2: that the cats stayed on the table together.

 

Pics :

 

 

When Tiamet was getting her examination done, the vet was 3. Surprised that a healthy cat would just lay there and basically say, Pet Me Now, as she was checked out. It was all quite amusing. Puck was good on his as well, but nothing compared to Tiamet's antics.

 

It seems like Puck probably does not have a UTI. He just might be a nut job and/or mad at me/the world.

 

He started yowling last night at like 11 pm. I wanted to kill him. Instead, about an hour later, I went downstairs a 2nd time, found him, petted him and carried him upstairs. He didn't hang out my bedroom, but he did stop crying like the world was ending. I found him in the Kids bed this morning and made sure to give him some extra attention. I am going to see if this helps, taking him upstairs and extra petting.

 

The vet did say that thyroid kitties tend to be more vocal. Just fucking great. No wonder Tiamet is a talker now! Both are healthy weights though, in good overall condition.

 

Too bad I spend $300 for that diagnosis. I am not really upset over the money. Though I won't get the results from their blood work back until today. Tiamet I only got the Thyroid one, not the full panel, because honestly she's pretty good. Puck I got everything done. And as these cats get older, I think I will do the full blood work every couple of years. They're 12 now, and they are pretty damn healthy overall and active, so I probably have them for at least several more years. That is...if the yowling stops...

 

My biggest issues is their meowing and yowling at night. It's getting on my last nerve. Seriously, LAST FUCKING NERVE. That might be the end of them. Oppsie, did you fall down the stairs? Ok ok I am not really capable of something like that! I'm just saying, damn, shut the fuck up a lot to the cats!!

 

What else? Hmmm, hot date tonight. Home Depot is calling out to me. Painting tomorrow. Not too much else. Grocery shopping Sunday night maybe. Oh the excitement of my weekend!! I did laundry last night but forgot it in the dryer, so I pulled it out and folded half of it this morning. I have another load to do, some floor mopping that needs doing, and possibly nothing else that I can think of at the moment.

 

Ok, I am going to go get some stuff done now. Hopefully!

 

Thursday's child has far to go...

It's Thursday! Soon I will be covered in paint, tape and probably tears! I didn't go to the store yesterday, only because the ONLY thing the Kid needed was chicken for sandwich. Really? Dude, you can have peanut butter and jelly. I mean, seriously...

I did punch my bag (it was like 2.5 songs worth of P!nk) which equals probably about 6-10 minutes. I didn't just try to whale on it, I am trying to get my arms into better shape. Then I swept the stairs and all the rooms (except the bathroom) downstairs, took out the trash and pulled some weeds. Oh and of course cat litter. I was sweating more from my chores than the bag work...hmmm, why does that not sound right?

I need to get to bed earlier. It's typically about 1 am for some reason. Maybe I will drink some lavender or Valerian tea at night and see if that helps.

Tonight, it's get the cats to the vet, laundry and bills. Tomorrow it's a hot date with Home Depot and moving the kids room into some form of chaos in the center of said room so that I can have access to his walls. Saturday, it's painting. And maybe some more yard work of ripping shit out of the ground...

Today, I certainly do have far to go (though, I was born on Friday...this rhyme just popped in my head for some reason)! Lots of things to do. I am also starting to compile a list of things that need to be done to the house...somethings will be easy to take care of...those I want on my short list. That way, I can save and plan out for the larger things. All I know, this shit is exhausting!! I need a handy man!!

Work is work. I am going to pretend it's busy today. I am leaving early to pick the kid up from band practice and hopefully hit the store on the way home. Then the torment will be begin...

Caffeine, where art thou?

I am waiting for the caffeine from my lovely Sheetz Coffee to kick in.

Because, yeah, I'm not quite awake yet!

BUT! I did get my swanky new phone in last night :) Got it set up, downloaded some of my favorite apps, ring tones, etc. It auto imported a ton of contacts from gmail, so I had to clean that up. I've already used to make calls and send texts :) Still getting used to this monstrosity, it feels so much bigger than my last phone. Part of that might be the rugged case I got to go with it. Ahem. My dropsies can have that kind of impact it seems!

I am still set up email on it, as well as getting all the user ID's and passwords associated to it. Fun times!!

Edit: It's been a couple hours...Caffeine has hit and left the system.

I am so happy it's Wednesday! Half the week gone, just a couple more days until the weekend. I am going to get some minor grocery shopping done tonight and hopefully pick up some more paint as well. I am getting the Kid's room done, hell or high water (wait, where DOES that phrase come from again????) this weekend. And if I am successful in getting his done, I will start the prep work for the office. I think I might need another drop cloth, just to be on the safe side. I am going to start putting everything off the walls and to the center of the room on Friday and use my painters tape for all those areas to NOT be painted :) I would start on that tomorrow night, as the Kid is with his Dad...but I am taking the 2 cats to the Vet and am sure that will be more consuming than I would like. Of course, depending on how that goes, I might go home and start moving shit around.

I did 1 load of laundry last night, probably will do another one today. And sweep. Lots and lots of sweeping. I might even pretend to look at my filing and use invisible ink to label folders.

I need more coffee...

Inner Bitch Quote

From Dolly Parton

It's a good thing I was born a girl, otherwise I'd be a drag queen

Just thought it was funny and awesome :)

Tuesday's Thoughts - Minus the Thought Process

It's Tuesday right? Because, I could have SWORN today felt like Wednesday (HUMP DAY! and yes that camel commercial is now stuck in my wee little head)

You know what else??? I haven't smoked in just over 3 weeks. I know I commented on this to my sister and friends when talking, but I don't think I've really blogged about it much. My son is too funny. I mentioned it to him the other night, to see if he had noticed anything different with me. He said he didn't want to say anything (yes, he did notice and is happy I am not smoking or going outside so much), in case he jinxes it, because - you know - talking about it just might make me want it. I have no idea what this whole thing is...but I don't want them, don't crave them. There have been a few moments where the habit of just going outside for a break (home or work) is there, but not that urge to buy or smoke cigarettes. I don't think I've ever quit this way before. When I've quit in the past, either I was pregnant (and yeah, there is NO WAY I could smoke and do that to my unborn babe) or I used something like the patch. Because I think I tried quitting through sheer will power once or twice and that didn't work. Something stressful would happen and I would be right back at it. I don't even have any cigarettes anymore. I know I had thought about keeping 1 pack, for a "just in case" moment. Yes, well. Fuck that. So far, so good. It is weird in a lot of ways. Just because of that 'normal' habit of doing some things. I attempted to read today at lunch but kept getting distracted it. Hmmm, I am going to have to somehow work on that.

I didn't get a lot done yesterday at home. I was sorta in a bleh mood. I did sort through a slew of papers and at least put them in a pile to eventually file. I spent some time online too, with the Kid - since I got him set up on Gaia and it's sorta his new addiction (that's aside from anytime he spends on Mine Craft). Today though, I have a ton of things to get done. Laundry (shock), sweeping (double shock on that one) and HOPEFULLY getting my new phone set up - YAY. I decided it would probably be a good idea to see if I can get my screen repaired, so I ordered a kit online today. What I will do, if that is successful, is move my kid to my old phone. Which should make him brilliantly happy. Hopefully that won't be an issue...just a sim card move I think for his. I know that I can move my contacts over to my new phone - but you know what? This might be a good time to get rid some of my old contacts and not drag them over into the new things I have going on. Of course, I will write them down (Yes, I do have an old school phone book) and leave it at that. Sometimes it's really nice and a good thing to start fresh :^D

I've been shopping online (oh snap) and trying to figure out just what the fuck I will be taking with me on this cruise coming up. I think I need to plan out every day's outfits and add 2 and just hope things sorta work out that way. Oh I did buy a couple new sports bras - exciting I know. But it's actually kinda cool that I've lost enough weight that my current sports bras just don't do what they're supposed to do :)

Speaking of weight, I have been at 211 for the last month. Yeah, it's fluctuated a little bit (period hormones and all that) but it's been pretty stable. So. This means I need to really get my ass in gear and try to get the next segment of weight off. I think 11 lbs isn't that much! I should be able to do this with all the painting and yard work and whatnot, right? Right?? Damn it, RIGHT ???? Let's hope so, because, yeah I don't do gyms. Hmmm...and after this 11 lbs is gone? Then I am going to start back on my NY Ballet DVD and maybe some Tai Chi :)

Thursday I will be taking Puck and Tiamet to the Vet. Joys. Hopefully we will see if Puck has a UTI or something or if he's just pissing in the bathroom because he's a nut job. And they will both get their blood work done. With them being 12 years old, I don't mind getting that done more often as they get older...though I hate to say it, if either of them end up diabetic, I will probably have to put them down. I barely have the time or energy to handle 4 able bodied cats now, so if one of them ends up with something that is going to really require more of my time, that won't be good. Not to mention, and really perhaps the main point of their existence at that moment, is how happy will they be with having to get shots and everything that goes along with that?? Puck, I know does NOT take pills well at all. Tiamet is good with it, but Puck will basically dry heave or puke it back at you. Him taking medicine is not easy...and I don't want them in pain (arthritis or anything) because *I* know what that is like and I can take advil or something, they can't. And yes, animals do have a higher threshold for pain than us mortals...I just don't want them unhappy and miserable for MY sake.

I don't want to think about this anymore.

(though I will admit I won't miss the loud meowing at 2 am or caterwauling that they do - shhhh I didn't REALLY just say that...I didn't)

And back to work. Because that is a good distraction.

Also: I started using this organic deodorant (mind you, this is NOT an antiperspirant) and it's this oil/alcohol blend and it's different and so far I don't stink. So...that's good, right? As for sweating, well, damn I work with about 30 guys who I don't care if they see me sweat. So. I might keep an extra shirt though at work, in case I ever soak one to the point it's just gross to be in the same room with me. Not that I see that happening this fall/winter. Spring or summer, maybe...

And now I really am going back to work...

A little bit of everything - Drama - Busy - Life

I haven't been posting a lot. Between work last week, my birthday and sister visiting, it was just too hectic!! Which is good :)

I can say that I do miss my sister. It was so awesome having her here! I really wish I could see her (and my niece and dad of course) more often, as in we lived closer to each other. I know that's not going to happen any time soon, because I don't think they will move to this general area and I know I don't want to live in CA.

Also: Coffee. Sheetz has the best caffeine kick (at least for me). I've had 2 3 cups of coffee from work and I am still sleeping as I type. Whereas, Sheetz gets me wide awake. Hmmm....

So I've started downloading my emails back into outlook, it's been forever since I've done that. Then sorting/deleting (which I need to do more of) and figuring out what I need to keep and what I should let go. I have some really freaking OLD emails. I see that I am a pack rat that way. I think it's time for those emails to go on the way side of things.

Drama last night: The Kid realized we had not seen Tiamet all day. This equaled an immediate freak out at 9 pm, a search of the house, a shake of the treat bags to coax any possible cat from a hiding/sleeping spot. No Tiamet. The Kid called his dad, after I attempted to reassure him that I would call the Humane Society and our vet in the morning to let them know she was missing...My very very good/awesome/amazing friend/bf was over and I guess checked my back yard to see where it was possible she could have gotten out at. Well, he found there was only 1 real spot by my side gate and he checked around front and saw her sitting on the porch!! He came in and told us, so I grabbed the bag of treats and went out front. She had gotten scared and darted under the neighbors porch. But my calling and the bag of treats shaking convinced her to come back inside. I fed her a hand full of them, then promptly gave her a bath. Because, yeah, no idea where she had gone. I don't think she has fleas, didn't see any on her. So, after a bath (btw, she was originally freaked out, but calmed down as it went on...and she really likes to be dried off!), she had food, water and lots of love. The Kid called his Dad and let him know and then went to bed. Diego is not at all happy with her smell and is growling/hissing at her and anything/one that walks by him. Good times...

I have also found out who the culprit is that has been pissing on my bath mat/towel/anything on the floor in front of the tub. Puck. He did it right in front of me. I am wondering if his caterwauling at night is because he CAN'T get into the bathroom to do his evil pissing. Now, I know that once a cat finds a spot, that is not always the easiest to get them to stop. So I will be bleaching that spot and then taking both him and Tiamet to the vet, since she had her little escape episode last night. Oh the joys!!

 The Kid has after school band practice this week and next week. Which means I will need to work some extra hours in order to leave early for those days. His first football game is coming up soon too, oh and 2 parades! Yikes! Busy kid this month!!

Also: I would like one of those Elusive Naps please. See, they even now get their own Capital Letters!!

It was awesome seeing my sister :) I know I already wrote that I miss her, but you know, sometimes just SEEING someone face-to-face, makes such a world of difference!!

I have my cruise coming up in just over a month. OMG, I have no real idea of what I'm wearing either. I need to go shopping...

And now working on cup of coffee # 4...

Back to shopping, I need some shorts. And maybe 1-3 tops for traipsing across foreign lands. And possibly some shoes for this as well. As for the more dressy gowns, I have a couple of those. One I need to try on and see if it still fits well though. It's one of those body hugger ones and shows off my back. Oh I wonder if I can get some pics and will post them :)

As I wrote before, I splatted my phone. I was originally expecting my new phone to come in by Thursday but Amazon notified me that it will be Tuesday. Hurray! See, at the AT&T store, the phone I liked was $99.99 plus all the associated fees. On Amazon, it was $19.99 (plus all the associated fees) - so yes, I will save $80 thank you very much. I will run another back up on my phone Tuesday, and download all the pictures off of it. Then start that fun fun fun process of getting my new phone up to warp speed. This sucker has a 13 mp camera! WOOT. It's bigger than my current phone, but really light. I am hoping my new(praying) indestructible case I bought to put on it doesn't add too much weight.

I think one of the reasons I have the dropsies right now (oh did I mention I dropped my coffee this morning? Not all of it, but hello!) is because I haven't been reading as much. Today, at lunch, I will - I WILL - read. Oh snap, that might be kinda hard WITHOUT A BOOK TO READ!! So, ummm, yeah scratch today off that option!! Ok, so tomorrow night. Tonight, I have to organize some shit from my dining room table and office desk at home. Because, yeah, that shit is a little bit (read: WAY) disheveled.

Ok, time to actually eat something (left overs from dinner the other night) and maybe read the news.

A few days worth of updates - Court - Crown - Bday

So - hmmm - where to start. Let's see, Wednesday I had to take my kid to Court, because he was a victim (and how I hate that young kids can and do get classified that way) of assault while at school. Yes, I pressed charges - though to be honest, it was all caught on video so *I* didn't really need to do anything as the school Police Officer was able to use that for the formal charges. I did let the VP know that I would if needed though. The kid that attacked him laid in wait - a very predatory action - and beat the crap out of him. Not so badly that there was major bruising or anything broken, but enough to probably scar him for a while (maybe life, he hasn't had that many traumatic things happen to him...so this will probably stand out). It turns out the kid that attacked him had 4 other cases and someone mentioned a total of 18 charges. Holy shit! This kid is only 13!! I mean, DAMN. It's just sad. My kid was most nervous just about seeing him again. We had received a Witness Subpoena to testify but the police officer said he would probably plead guilty and that my kid would not have to say anything. Which is basically what happened. The kid plead guilty to my son's case and a burglary and the other 3 cases were dismissed. It seems that these 2 will do the most damage/time and that this kid will more than likely end up in Juvie until he's 21. 21 years old. Maybe he will get out early, who knows. His lawyer asked for a delayed sentencing, something about his mother wanting him to have access to a land line. His grandmother was also offered as a possible place to stay, I assume that's if he is able to have a home arrest ??? No idea. It was an interesting, to say the least, experience. Not something I think any of us wants a repeat of.

Prior to us even entering the courthouse however, I ate a piece of gum and my temporary crown came out. Joys. I kept it in my pocket and felt very annoyed. A day before my birthday, while at court, is not the best time for dental issues! After court, I called my dentist and explained what happened. Scheduled an appointment for that afternoon. When I got there, I found out my permanent crown was in, so the dentist just did that of course. To say I was a bit nervous might not cover it. You see, several years ago I had a root canal done and the crown was put in right before my birthday. On my birthday I was hanging out with my BFF and noticed my teeth hurting. I got a headache as well. I figured something was in my teeth somewhere and went to floss. While flossing, one of my other teeth, one in the front portion of my mouth, BROKE. Trauma much? Yep. So me getting dental work, just before my birthday, smacks of deja vu. Ugh! Luckily, nothing has happened like that. Yet. I don't exactly have the bestest luck with my teeth.

I ended up taking a nap afterwards and not going to work at all on Wednesday, oppsie. Thursday I had scheduled off already, because of my birthday. You see, I am not all that fond of my birthday. It's basically been fucked up in one way or another so many times that I now just give up on it. I have no idea if that will change, and I know some people would like to see that change, and I am certainly open to things changing, but I just don't know. Yesterday, thankfully, it wasn't a bad birthday. Of course, I did cut my finger and burn my wrist a little bit while cooking, but that's not too bad! I also did 3 loads of laundry, cleaned, swept and just got some stuff done around the house. Things got better as the night wore on (minus the spider situation) which is a good thing. And minus the fact my period came in full force. At least I have plenty of left overs (lasagna and dump cake) for a few days!! YUM!!

Of course, today, I drop my phone and even though I seem to do this on a regular basis, today it was on concrete and my faithful protective case was not successful in preventing my screen from splatting and cracking all kinds of pretty. It still works. But it now needs to be replaced.

This is NOT my phone, just a similar enough cracked screen

So, with this in mind, I will be heading to the AT&T store and see what phones are there and how much. Amazon is pretty awesome in price shopping I've noticed, and yes, I've already started checking out what phones are available. Not an expense I was planning on, but with my luck, I'd cut a finger on the crack some how.

Since I was out for 2 days, I have a ton of shit to get done at work. However, the 3 glasses of wine last night are making me somewhat not all here enough to focus on work and not mindlessly wander around in my head and stare at the rain. It's another perfect day for lazing around in bed, reading, drinking hot tea and napping. I really need to do those things at some point! It just won't be any time soon. Next weekend I plan on painting the kids room and HOPEFULLY the office. Maybe I will drag my sister to Home Depot tonight (it's not exactly party central) to help me pick out the main color for my bedroom :) It will be some shade of purple. I am pretty sure about that. Pretty sure. Pret-ty sure. Hmmm....

Anyway! I've had no time to think straight today so far! Work has been non stop! Speaking of which, back to the grind!!!

Tuesday - Bleh

Busy busy busy!

Made mexican last night. Yum. Going out for dinner tonight though :) Then maybe shopping! If we're in the mood :)

I've come to the realization that one of my bosses does better with women who are cranky/mean. Since I am PMS'ing, and therefore in a somewhat cranky mood, he seems nicer and more light hearted. He said he felt like he was at home with his wife. Which makes me think 2 things. That he likes/used to crankier/bitchier women and that he will leave me alone after laughing at me curse my computer and mutter under my breath about stupid PC's. Ahem. It seems I am too nice all the time. Who knew!

Also: I am really needing a hug today. Ever get the feeling, that you just need to be hugged? Like, A lot? For a long long time? Yeah, my heart is sorta achy and needs hugs. I am blaming PMS emotions on that one...

There is a cricket, somewhere behind me, hiding in the cabinets. It's loud. Joys.

Back to the grind

It's a chilly, rainy Monday morning

I should have brought a scarf to work. I am wearing a cute knit beanie hat today, but it's not warm enough for this chilly morning. So, I'm drinking some hot tea and wearing a fleece jacket and trying to wake up. I don't like waking up. I'd much rather be asleep, in a warm cozy comfy bed. Curled up inside my nest of blankets and warm kitties. Diego alone is an awesome heat source, love it when he sleeps against my back.

This weekend, got waxed :) Yay :) Though I have 2 patches on my inner thighs that are NOT thanking me. I've been smearing some yummy lavender oil blend on them which is helping though.

My sister got in around lunch time on Saturday! YAY!!! SO EXCITED!!! It is so unbelievably AWESOME to see her and talk to her and just hang out! I mean, wow. I have really and truly missed her!

We went to Mom's Organic store yesterday and Martins to get some groceries. Mom's is always a huge treat for me :) Love shopping there :)

I want to take her to a couple different restaurants in the area, probably tomorrow and Wednesday. Thursday (my bday) I am making lasagna and dump cake. I have not had to best luck with my birthday in the past several years...so I am taking that day off from work and hoping to just kind of hide from the world, make some good food and celebrate with loved ones. Quiet, easy, fun. Maybe watch a movie.

Then there is Friday and Saturday we can still check out stuff. I want to take her to Shepherdstown at least one night :) And the Catina is on Tuesday :) After dinner :)

Western Maryland is such a different place from Southern California. I know it's a bit of a culture shock. And it's kinda neat to see someone else go through what I did when I first moved here. I mean, I lived in Southern CA for a good portion of my young life and was in South Florida for 10 years. It's just SO damn different!! Not bad, per se, but wow you gotta adjust! It's a different mentality, different perspective in a lot of ways...just because life is different - not that people don't do the same types of things like work, home life and everything else. It's just that here is so green, things are farther away from each other, the pace is different...among other things. It's actually hard for me to explain for some reason right now.

Oh and I ordered another cute ass hat the other day:

Can't wait until this one comes in :) I'm wearing a green knit beanie one today :) Looks very french, almost.

Ok, work is busy, shock. I need some more hot tea. Also: My period is thinking of starting, but it's just a minor thought at the moment. My lower back pain is starting though, which is always fun - not!

Freaky Friday's Thoughts....which are not that exciting...unless you count Sugar Walls

Yesterday, work kicked-my-ass. I barely sat down. A good thing, in some ways. Annoying in others. I has things to do!! So lunch time was taken up with Band Booster stuff, which it will again today.

I had a band boosters meeting last night, I got there early as I had more stuff to catch up on. I brought the kids laptop so I could work on things. It turns out that was REALLY helpful, because during the meeting I was able to get a lot of stuff done too.

PMS has only made a wee bit cranky, nothing bitch quality yet. But I've noticed my temper at work need to be reigned in more. Bloated/water weight has added a few pounds, which I hate but at least know it will go away. And still not smoking too. Weird. Very very weird. I am, of course, not reading as much, which is even more weird. I have a couple books I do want to finish, maybe I will get some time soon??? Maybe not! Too much stuff going on! :) Tonight, it's laundry, vacuuming and straightening up - no real big stuff. Tomorrow, my sister gets here!!! Yay!!! SO EXCITED!!!

Watched some TV last night, got distracted and finally went to bed. Even though I went to bed at a decent hour (hey, it was before 11 pm!!) I could NOT sleep. Thoughts just kept churning over and over at me.

Ok, so I woke up at like 5 am for some strange reason this morning. After falling back asleep though, I dreamed of sex. Like major-ly yummy hot sex. See, with PMS - the week before my period - my libido seems to go into over drive. And the books I am reading right now aren't exactly helping with that. So. Yes, dream sex. And for some reason during this dreamy sex marathon in my head, I hear Sheena Easton's song - Sugar Walls. Now, talk about a flash back! I remember when this was on the radio. Ahem. Loved it then, didn't quite understand it as I do now!! So. There you go

Wednesday Wickedness

Tonight, I am thinking of starting to put up some of my Halloween/Samhain decorations. I am thinking that I will head out tomorrow and see if I can get some more. Since I now have a house, I can really make things look cool or scary or just full of the awesomeness. And Wickedness. I hope.

Also, I will be cleaning. In some kind of wicked manner. Don't ask me how that is supposed to happen, I will figure it out. Hmmmm, I guess that might depend on ones definition of wicked.

My ankle is still annoying me. It's not so much my foot anymore, the pain now seems more focused on my ankle. I think this is because of how I re-injured it on Sunday at my cousins. Because, you know, I am just so damned special that way! It is slowing me down though, which really sucks because I have a lot of shit to get done! Did another load of laundry last night (I know, this is just to most exciting thing EVER to be posted on ones blog).

I've asked the Kid to vacuum every day this week. It has yet to happen. Which means I will be vacuuming tonight as part of my clean up. I will HOPEFULLY also complete (ha, or at least attempt to complete) the following:

• Finish clearing up the Library
• Finish hiding/stashing stuff I need to sort and then file in my Office and Bedroom
• Clean the bathrooms
• Do 1 more load of laundry, and put away
• Misc. clean up around the house (you know, just putting the junk away or in the trash)

Then on Thursday: Make mine and the kids bed (aka, fresh sheets, etc) and also see about straightening up anything that's left over.

Then pass out. In some form of drunken bliss. Maybe. Not sure about the drunken part! Bliss always sounds good though. And maybe order take out (again, it's been one of those weeks)

You see, I didn't quite forget that my Most Awesome Sister is coming here for a visit :) I just sorta realized that, DAMN THAT'S THIS SATURDAY!! late last night. Remember when I mentioned I was special? Well, there you go!

Friday night I will be heading the grocery store to stock on some things and then try to just relax and not fret over anything that hasn't been done yet. And rest my tootsie. I have a feeling it will need it at that point!

Oh and I haven't smoked, at all, since my last one early Monday morning. Haven't wanted to. Didn't have the urge to buy a pack this morning (at the local place I get my coffee, which is where I used to get my cigarettes). So...I have noticed my irritation levels rising with certain people I work with. I am not sure if it's the not smoking, the possible PMS that is due to start soon or a combination thereof. My monthly visitor is due late next week, so that would mean in the next few days my PMS will rise it's ugly head to snap at things. I think my punching bag will be getting more time. Plus, I want to burn some calories off (ahem, remember that carb over load and slight food coma? Yeah....that shit needs to burned off I think). Plus, smacking one of the managers probably isn't the best idea. Well...it could be, depending. But anyway, yeah I think that cleaning will help (it usually does when I get annoyed) and gods know I don't *like* being cranky or annoyed.

I miss sex. Really good yummy OMG sex. Oh and kissing, because I LOVE kissing. Missing that a lot right now too.

Anyway.

I need to go distract myself with work it seems!!

Not So Tired Tuesday

Last night, I had a slight food coma and went to be early. Early as in right before 9 pm. I was out. I did wake up up for a little while, thanks to Tiamet meowing for no apparent reason (ugh, hate it when she does this) but it was a good thing in this case :)

My ankle felt quite a bit better this morning. I think it's because I really wasn't on it at all last night. I did run a couple errands right after work, PetsMart and picked up chinese for dinner. Maybe it was all the carbs I had yesterday, no sure what was really up with that...I just was craving carbs like a zombie wants brains. I am doing much better on that front today, though I will admit there was too much sugar in my coffee this morning. That's what I get for not paying attention!!

I also ordered a slew of hats:


The reason for this, besides the butch lesbian hair cut, but also because all my baseball type of hats are all previous job related and not that cute. Also, my other beanie style ones, well, they are for hard core winter warmth. So, these at least are cute, I can wear when it's not freezing outside and cover up my butch lesbian hair cut. And also: Who doesn't want some cute hats? I know these are exactly all summery and whatnot, but since I tend to wear dark colors for the most part, they will fit in well. I think next year I will attempt to get more lighter hats. Also, by then I will have determined if my hair will be short another year or if I will grow it out.

Work is busy today, so this is a short post. I've gots lots to do ;)

Incredible Weekend And Wow-ness and Yikes

Ok, so Saturday at the Renaissance Festival = Incredible.

We got to see soooo much. I really wish we had a 2nd day to go!! So much to look at it and take in! It was overwhelming!! Plus, I got to hear one of my favorite groups live = WOW. It was only a 30 minute show, but it was awesomeness to the Nth degree. I got their new CD as well (and no I didn't get it signed, I didn't want stand in line again and it's not that important to me, the music is). The kids had tons of fun. I think we should have left an hour earlier, they were all exhausted and a little bit cranky by the time we got to the car. It was still amazingly awesome though! I was at first thinking of looking for a new dress/skirts and bodice, but honestly, I just had way too much fun looking at everything!! Next time :) I ate a ton of food, my favorite being this apple/ice cream dessert that was way yummy. The Italian sausage was good too though. The Brat got a turkey leg - now this thing had some kind of bladder full of grease, because it looked like it was pissing the whole time he ate it. Very very funny. He was only a little bit of a brat while there. Much better than he was a few years back. He got a tail, which he loves. Lots of stones, a necklace and I don't remember what else.

I got an awesome little statue and another pot of this yummy smelling body oil/solid. Yay!!

If definitely made me want to schedule any trips I take to Florida or Southern California in the future, to coordinate the times with the local Renaissance Fairs. Or maybe see what other fairs are local, or at least within driving distance. That might be a neat thing to do for road trips in the future. Will see!

I got my hair cut yesterday. Ummm, suffice it to say I will be wearing a hat until it grows out some. I look like a butch lesbian, which isn't a bad thing I guess, if I was one. But I'm not. So....yes, hats will be my style for the next little while. I might go ahead and Henna dye it in the mean time. Not sure if that will help or make it worse though. Gods, it's almost funny if you think about it.

Went to my cousins, promptly tripped and re-injured my ankle/foot. See, it takes talent to do that. I think my ankle got weakened from all the walking on Saturday. We won't blame it on my overall clutz like abilities. We hung and talked for a little while, then I limped my way to my car and headed home.

Home, well, got there and had just a shit load of things to do and my brain sorta shut down on me. Suffice it to say I did get one load of laundry done and that was about it. I did keep off my ankle, so that's good at least. Hopefully tonight I can get my office done (that is going to be my focus at least) and just pray that I get it organized so that I don't want to scream at it.

Tonight, I have to go to PetsMart, so maybe I will swing by and get some stuff at home depot as well. More insect killer, that's for sure. More of those evil spiders appeared. These lovely fuckers are now dead - and I really really REALLY don't want anymore of them. I had found another one in the house, hiding on a door handle that goes out the side to where I have the trash. Yikes! I freaked! Killed that one with roach spray. And hey, I didn't even scream!! And I won't mention that one the hung down at eye level as we were trying to leave the house on Friday. OMG, that one freaked me out more...right at eye level. Not what I wanted to see!! Here is one picture of the spider, I have another but it's not wanting to load up for some reason. Will try again later.
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